Wednesday, June 29, 2005

   I just found this out
ok this is messed up... i just fiund out form my friend kristy that my friend Cayce[guy btw].. someone that i like, he's only using my best friend kelsey to get close to me... but what u dont understand is he doesn't seem like the person to do that, and it also doesnt make sense... if he actually liked me then why doesnt he tell me? well he does know i like him cause someone told him.. well at least i think the person did... o well... but he hasn'r called me or hasn't want to see me since then... and then now i find out that he doesn like me and worse is using my best friend>!>!>!>!>! that i find is very messed up!!
on another note i dont want to tell her because she likes him [or at least i think she does..]and most likely wont beleive me cause of the person who told me... she doesn't hang out w/ kristy and blah blah so on and so forth... but kristy is just worried about kels because she's changed so much... and i also dont want to tell her becuase she'll hate him forever.. she can hld a grudge... this is so complicated..... tell her and have her hate him forever or tell her and she'll call me a liar... or don't tell her and she might find out the hard way and hate both of us.. or dont tell her and she'll never know and i'll be eaten away by guilt.... all of them are bad options.... what should i do>!?!?!?!?!

~~larc
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nothing happened i just like this song.
"Goodbye To You"

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

[Chorus]

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

[Chorus x2]

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

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Monday, June 13, 2005

   i feel so disgusted
today when I caught the bus i went to Mc Donald to wait for my friend to pick me up. Seems like a normal day right? but no!!!!! I went to go sit down and eat my food I'm enjoying my ice cream when all of a sudden thsi guy starts hitting on me. Not just any guy too, he was like 40 years old i think even older! he was commenting how cute i was. I felt kind of weird but i let that slide. Then i called up my friend to just talk to her, and I told her that my friend was a loser for being late and shit like that. After I get off the phone with her he says,"You sounded so cute when you called your friend a loser." This is the part that scared me that most. When he was going to leave he said to me" if you always come here I'll be seeing you again. I can't wait! but before I go can you smile? [i gave a slight grin to make him go away] You know you have a very sexy smile." With that he left. i called up someone to talk to but he just made me feel worse so now I'm talking to all you people.

I FEEL SO FUCKING VIOLATED!!!!!!!

i'm gonna do this new thing every time i post i'm gonna put ;yrics of i song that represents my mood: todays song is....

Last Resort by: Papa Roach

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck
If I cut my arm bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck
If I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care
If I died bleeding?

Would it be wrong or
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight
And I'm contemplating suicide

Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight ,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

I never realized
I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying(x4)

I can't go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck
If I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong or
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might.
Mutilation out of sight.
And I'm contemplating suicide.

Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine

I'm running and I'm crying

I can't go on living this way

Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's all...right!

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

PRIDE END OF THE YEAR PARTY
Well tonight was interesting.

My youth group held a End of the year party [well actually end of the school year party xD!] But anywayz to get on w/ it... we had to plan in advance a skit. It's suppose to be a humor thing... but what we did was we made a skit about the boys in our group. It turned out super funny. but i kinda didnt like my part.

I had to put a rubber glove on my head and do the chicken dance! :gonk: To explain last year this boy Tyler put a rubber glove over his head and blew it up [with it still on] but since we had to do some sort of dance they picked the chicken dance... what's sad was i had no say in the subject cause i missed the meet. I wanted to play my friend Mike. xD! He's super tall [like i thinkish 6'3 and i'm 4'11 so they thought that would be funny] and we always acts like such a big pimp. he calls me his lil' ho..... so i wanted to get back at him xD!!!! by playing him... but no I got Tyler... :sweat:

Well that's all for nopw i guess it's 11:22 p.m in Hawaii so i think i'll go to sleep i gotta wake up in a couple of hours.
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Wednesday, June 8, 2005

Long ass survey i got
THE LONGEST SURVEY YOU'LL EVER FILL OUT!!! COPY AND PASTE THIS. FILL IT OUT AND SEND IT TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS INCLUDING THE PERSON THAT SENT IT TO YOU! DO THIS BECAUSE THE PERSON SENDING IT TO U DIDNT SIT HERE FOR AGES ALL FOR NOTHING. ANSWER ALL THE QUESTIONS HONESTLY...NO LYING TO AVOID STUFF!!! PLEASE GIVE IT A GO =)

TIME STARTED: 6:39 pm
1) Full name: Brittany Leiko Kinoshita
2) Single or Taken: Single [and who wants top know???]
3) Sex: female...
4) Birthday: 1-18-90
6) Sign: Capricorn / Snake
7) Sibling(s): Chris & Nicole
8) Hair color: Black
9) Eye color: dark brown
10) Shoe size: 8 in women 6.5 in mens
11) height: 4' 11 [don't laugh]

R e l a t i o n s h i p s
1) Who is your best friend(s)?: a lot but if I were to name some... i'd say Kanzaki-sama, Aya-chan, Ayami-sama, Tori-chan, Kira-kun, Kawaii, and Kai-sama and everyone on my friends list[sorry to anyone who i missed i can't mane all of u]
2) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
3) Did you send this to your crush?: I nope
Fa s h i o n S t u f f
1) Where is your favorite place to shop?: Hot Topic or ShirokiyaxD
2) Any tattoos or piercing?: Pierced ears

T h e E x t r a S t u f f
1) Do you do drugs?: Only of the medical sort ^^
2) What kind of shampoo do you use?: um... expansive kind xD! i dont know what it's called
3) What are you most scared of?: spider/creepy things....
5) What car do you wish to have?: Civic or Celica xD!
6) Who is the last person that called you?: um... Kanzaki-sama
7) Where do you want to get married?: um japan... kyoto xD!
8) If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change?: height and my ass. xD [my friends tease my that i have a big ass]
9) What was your first car?: XD No, I don't have a car


F a v o r i t e s
1) Color: Black and Red
2) Number: um... 16
3) Food: Japanese food.
4) Boys name: N/A
5) Girls name: Kori [conceded yes i know]
6) Subjects in school: Art and Japanese
7) Animals: Wolves <3 Foxes
8) Drink: Ventichocolatecreamwithwhip! MountainDew! REDBULLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9) yes. that: Heh?
10) Celebrity: Orlando Bloom and Johnny Deppt
11) Sport: Soccer

HAVE YOU EVER:
1) given anyone a bath?: My dog D< My cousins Are you suggesting something??
2) Smoked?: Science Experiment.
3) Bungee jumped?: No
4) Broken the law?: uh...perhaps >.>
5) Made yourself throw up?: My mom had to force me to with icky medicine
6) Gone skinny-dipping?: ;D *winks* ...no, you sick fools.
7) Been the opposites sexs washroom?: =__= You want to know that why?

F i r s t T h i n g T h a t C o m e s T o M i n d
1) Red: Blood
2) Cow: MOO!! AND VAMPIRE COWS!
3) Greenland: The land of the Green.
SOAPS: Drama.
AIRPLANES: They fly

F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s
1) Do you like filling these out?: No, I just like to see what kind of stupid questions are listed.
2) How many people are you sending this too?: I ain't tellin (hoomg the grammar SUCKS)
3) Who will send it back?: People that send them back
4) Gold or Silver?: Silver
5) Comments?: Monkey.
6) WHAT R U LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?: Could it be xD!
7) LAST THING U SAID?: Monkey!
8) WHAT IS SITTIN NEXT TO U RIGHT NOW?: the phone
9) LAST THING U ATE?: Ice cream
11) WHO DO U ADMIRE?: I dunno.
12) WHAT MAKES U HAPPY?: Yaoi, J-Rock, munchy time, good good, J-Rock, anime,Final Fantasy in general
13) HOW MANY BUDDIES ON UR LIST?: I don't know
14) WHAT DO U LIKE TO DO?: Read manga, watch anime, listen to J-Rock, play video games, chat online, GAIA!
15) What did you do yesterday?: Eat, sleep, walk, read, sleep, chat, shower, sleep.
16) DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS OR GLASSES?: nope thank god xD!
17) DO YOU LIKE YOURSELF?: No, I'm just me, so I could care less if I liked myself or not. D= ...that did not make much sense.
18) DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR FAMILY?: Well enough
19) YOU EVER HATED ANY PERSON IN YOUR FAMILY?: At times, yes, but now, no.
20) WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE VEGETABLE: Cucumber, broccoli
21) FAST FOOD PLACE: I dunno.
22) PLACE TO VISIT: Japan >D
23) FAV MONTH: The month with the most days of school off.
24) NIGHT OR DAY: Night
25) SUN OR RAIN?: Rain
26) SCARY OR HAPPY MOVIES?: Happy movies that are scary, or scary movies that make you happy? D< Discuss in detail.
27) CAREER: Animator, or Manga-ka, or something that pays lotsa moneh <333
28) GOT ANY AWARDS?: nope
H A V E Y O U E V E R.........
LOVED SOMEBODY SO MUCH IT MADE YOU CRY?: yes
BROKEN A BONE?: Nope.
PLAYED TRUTH OR Dare?: Yes.
BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT?:[nodnod]
BEEN IN A POLICE CAR?: No
BEEN ON A PLANE?: No, we just walked to the *insert place of residence* from Japan, ya know, crossed the Pacific Ocean. =B
COME CLOSE TO DYING?: sorta
BEEN IN A SAUNA?: Yes
BEEN IN A HOT TUB?: Yes
SWAM IN THE OCEAN?: Yes
YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM?: my snake pendent
BEST SONG YOU EVER HEARD?: Mimoza by the Goapellers
WHATS YOUR BEDROOM LIKE?: Blah
HAVE A LAVA Lamp?: No.
DO U SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?: Yep, XD I like hugging things in my sleep.
YOUR CRUSH?: Not you :D
MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?: my manga
VEGETARIAN?: Nope, done that, never got the t-shirt.
GOOD DRIVER?: Probably not DX
GOOD @ SPORTS?:kinda
GOOD ACTOR/ACTRESS?: i'm a comedian
GOOD DANCER?: nope [wait does odori count?
GOOD STORYTELLER?: I guess?

H A V E Y O U E V E R H A D...
CHICKEN POX?: =__= who hasn't?
SORE THROAT?: Nah, you think?
COLD?: WTF?!? DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW CoMMON THAT TIHNG IS??!
STITCHES?: No
BLOODY NOSE?: Of course, you shmuck
SURGERY?: No D< Stop asking these stupid questions, i'm becoming irritated.

D O Y O U..........
BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SITE?: No
ENJOY PARKS?: Depends on the park
LIKE PICNICS?: I love it
LIKE SCHOOL?: No
WHAT SCHOOLs DID U GO TO?: ABC land [pre school] Preal Ridge Elementary Highland Inter Kapolei High
GET IN TROUBLE A LOT?: Ehehehehe... ^^; i guess that's a yes

W O U L D Y O U.....
EAT A LIVE HAMSTER FOR A MILLION DOLLARS?: hell no!
Go to a hanson concert if u had a free ticket??: And what the hell is this?
KILL SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW FOR 15 BILLION DOLLARS?: Psh, yeah right, who's going to give out that sort of money for one murder?
IF YOU WERE STUCK ON AN ISLAND, WHICH PERSON WOULD YOU WANT WITH YOU?: i want to bring everyone!
IF YOU WERE IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE AND IT WOULD HURT THEM IF THEY FOUND OUT, WOULD YOU TELL THEM?: No,
DO U LIKE THE PERSON THAT SENT THIS TO U?: Why, of course.
TIME FINISHED: 7:26pm

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Friday, June 3, 2005

   Summer Time
I never realized how fast this year went by, well good news i passed with flying colors xD! so now that i'm not that busy i'll start drawing again and taking request! lol so if you have any them send my a private message!

The day ended perfect. I didnt go to any of my classes. and When school got out it poured on us. Me and my friends danced in the rain for many hours. So now i'm sitting here typing to all of you whhile i'm soaking wet xD! well anywayz... I have to go and dry off. School done I've said my goodbyes and LET'S PARTY!
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Friday, May 27, 2005

Gaia?
have you guys heard of gaia? well it's a cool site and i recommend it for all role playing freaks! and when i say role playing i mean typing out kind role playing on the computer anf orums xD!!! and the best thing is winning gold! and shoppin! lol

~LArc
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

   Quiz results

Which Naruto Character Are You?
Test by naruto - kun.com
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Wednesday, May 4, 2005

   Grounded....again yes I know.....
Well remember when i said my mom was gonna burn all my anime crap... well that's gonna happen today... not only my manga and DVDz but my drawing books as well... my PS2 games she said anything related to anime is goning. She even threatened to throw away my computer cause I have my drawings saved in there. Well I kind of deserve it. I'm failing 4 clases once again. So i just gotta deal with it. No matter what I say she won't change her mind. The only thing I got to save was my Gravitation DVD set, my friend is holding it for me.... So thank u Ryan! [just dont watch it ok?] Also the only Manga I'm able to save is my gundam wing and Juline series...[since they're only 5 books long each xD] o also no computer again.. so I'll be gone for a while...

~missing u all already, I bid u farewell

~LArc
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Monday, April 25, 2005

Kawaii Kon
Well even though I didn't get to go, I heard that it sucked. omg... so funny my friend went, and he said, "I HAVE NEVER EVER SEEN SO MANY KONOHA HEADBANDS IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" lol he said it was junk. But i still would have gone. xD o well....


~LArc

~Also I have internet back @ home and so yeah...
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