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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
this is the bacon alchemist, before i forget.
listening to futureshock.
pride's paranoia
so accurate.
feel like a tweaker, i swear im spazzing out. fyi, a tweaker is a reaaaaaally twitchy, nervous person
my already frequent mood swings are worsening
i hate myself
i wish i would die
im developing emotional problems
im cold and empty inside
i need to vent
i need a therapist
but i could never a) afford one, or b) open up to one
i just couldn't
so imm shaking
even more than usual, my hands arent steady at all anymore
i feel nervous and anxious all the time
but i could never admit it out loud
im twitching
i cant sleep
i cry for no reason
i want to rip my arm open and feel the blood run down
i deserve it
i want to change
but i cant
yesterday i realized that
no matter how hard i try and try
i
can
never
change..
i feel like everyones mocking me
because everyone is
i know it
ive proved it
you know it too, i know you do.
yes. you do.
writing hasnt been an option lately. i can never go on my computer
i cant draw to vent anymore, either
i cant explain it
im having a nervous breakdown
im going to collapse
im under pressure
im stressed
i need help
but i could never take it
my pride wouldnt let me
i need help, but cant let anyone help me
the irony is making my arm go numb. im typing with one hand now.
i cant feel my left arm
ow
now i can
shooting pain
good.
i need it.
i deserve it.
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