Friday, April 7, 2006

I hate this, i hate it i hate it i hate!!!
My mom makes me so fucking mad. I hate living with her, i hate the way she talks about my dad. wat ever... i hate this, i ran away again this morning.
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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

Well, i'm having an even better day today. I found the song that my ex dedicated to me and i'm listening to it right now... but yeah, so i wanted to ask all you guys if you would pray for me and my choir because tomorrow we have UIL.. and we need all the prayers we can get...
Please and thank you...
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Tuesday, April 4, 2006

Ok, so things aren't bad today. Thank God. I'm actually happy. YAY!!!. It's a miricle. yeah, so um.. that's all i have to say about that. later
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Monday, April 3, 2006

Well, my weekend sucked, really bad. I didn't do much, mainly because i got grounded again. But it's all good, cuz i'm not anymore. So um... yeah, life still sucks like always, and i'm still trying to move in with my dad. But i don't think that's going to happen anytime soon, unless i runaway again. But i'm not too sure i want to do that again, because of the fact that i don't want to hurt my mom and cause her anymore pain. I love my mom, but i hate living there with her and my step dad and my lil sis. Don't get me wrong, i love my mom and my lil sis, it's just that i hate my stepdad. He's evil. he hates me and he only puts up with me because he loves my mom. He has told me so many time "I married your mom, not you." well he can go to hell, because i really don't care anymore.......

Well chou for now

Always-N-Forever
Crystal M. Garcia
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Thursday, March 30, 2006

Gosh, life sucks. See today, i came into 4th period and i told one of my guy friends that i was getting married, and he posted something on his site, look for your self and tell me what i should do. his name is crimsonredsoldier
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Tell me why
you had to leave.
Tell me why
I don't feel happy.

Tell me why
i still cry over you.
Tell me why
I can't get over you.

Tell me why
you would treat me so bad.
Tell me why
I could never get mad.

Tell me why
you would tell me you loved me when i wasn't true.
Tell me why
I would say "it" back to you.

These are the questions
I wish i had the nerve to say.
These are the questions
I ask myself every single day.

I have prayed to God
Many times before.
But i still can't seem
To let you go.

Why is God
letting me feel so much pain.
Why did God
let you cause me such heartache.

But oh well,
I'll try to deal.
And hopefully someday
my wounds will heal
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

What i feel 4 u
by Crystal

How hard is it to know
how much i care.
How hard is it to show
to you that I'll always be there.

Can you not see
that you mean the world to me.
Can you not understand
that I'll always be there to hold your hand.

I feel for you
the way I've felt for no other.
You come first in my life
before all of the others.

You've always cared
and never let me down
You've always been there
even when i was down.

The way you tickle me
when i feel like crying.
The way you smile at me
when i wish i was dieing.

These things about you
have made me love you.
The person you are
is better from afar.

Your not like most guys
which i like very much.
You have your own mind
and you don't follow that bunch.

So stay the way
you are at this very moment.
And know that i will love you
even after this moment!!!


This poem is going to be published in a book and got the Editor's Choice Award.
I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so happy....
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

People say that life is like a box of Chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get. Not really i saw that on Forest Gump this weekend. I like that movie. Naw, but i really have ahd a pretty crapy couple of weeks, i don't know what to do anymore. I hate home, i wish that i was just alone once and for all. Because then that way, no one could hurt me any more, and my friends would have to learn to reliy on them selves instead of me. It just gets me so mad, i hate this so much. I all i want to leave this place and never ever come back again.....
What am i say, i can't leave my mom, i lover her so much, and she has never left me, so why should i put her through more pain. I hate this i hate it i hate it....
If anyone has some good adivse, i would really like to hear it. Please and thank you


Always-N-Forever

Crystal Marie Garcia
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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Hay wats up all people! Me not much just got grounded even longer. But what else is new Right! N e Wayz lets move on. Only one week until my Aunt comes home from Jail. I can't wait to see her. It's been almost 6 years since she's been home. I miss her so much. She was always like a second mom to me. I was supposed to go with my mom to get her but my mom said no because i already missed too much school! wat ever theres no such thing as missing to much school. But that's my mom. See we just got report cards and i got a 74 in World Geo. So i'm not gonna show it to my mom because of the fact that i'll get grounded for a much much longer time than i already am. I hate my life. so so so so much. The only thing i can really turn to is my books. My books never let me down. Now i know what you're gonna say, 'I should keep my books seperate for real life. But wat ever. Books keep me happy not real life. Oh and if anyone has myspace. Look me up. I'm Angel_from_Heaven.... Don't ask. Just check out my site and see if you like. Well that's all for now folks!!!!

Always-N-Forever
Crystal M.
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