Monday, February 27, 2006

Hay people. who is everyone this very bad day. Only the worst thing happened to me this weekend. I ran away from home. With my friend next door and my little sister. I was so scared. We ended up somewhere on the south side of odessa. We went to my aunts house. My other aunt called there looking for us but I made my cousin lie about us being there. I could hear her crying so I told my aunt to take me home. When I got home. Every single person from my mom's and stepdad's family was there. I cried so much. I never wanted to hurt anybody. I just want people to understand why i am the way i am. I can't hurt a person if my life depended on it. And alot of my friends take advantage of that (Veronica) and I hate that there's just so much selfishness in the world. And i'm not really a selfish person but i would like some attention every now and then. I don't know if i'm being selfish or not but if your reading this comment and let me know what you think. I could really use a real friend to talk to......

ALWAYS-N-FOREVER
Crystal M.
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Friday, February 24, 2006

hay people. Hows life treating yall. Well i don't konw about u but it kind of hate me right now. I just got grounded even longer and i hate it. In my last period i was watching this thing on Shakespear and love. Can you believe that a fter years and years his plays are still being played. Time after time. My favorite is Romeo and Juliet. It's so romantic and yet so violent. It's a forbiden love and it's just great.

well till next time!!!

Always-N-Forever
Crystal M.
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Hi to all of you who are reading this right now. Well i've had a pretty crapy week, and i don't think it's gonna get any better. some things have happened to me, and i feel as if i hate life. It feels as if nothign will ever go right for me. I hate it. Just recently I decided to give up on love... kind of stupid i know but i just went through a hard break up. But for this past week, i've been doing a lot a of thinking. I realized that i don't hate life, and i don't hate love. I'm just really scared of it. It's weird for me to admit that i'm scared, because to everyone else i'm supposed to strong and always know the answers. But i don't know anymore!!!

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Friday, February 17, 2006

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut you hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare

I hate you big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even make me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry.

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all!!!


I love this poem so much. I relate to it alot...
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Remember me
by Crystal

Remember me when
i leave this hateful world
remember me when
my name is no more

Remember my love for you
remember our special times
remember our last words
remember that you were once mine

Remember that night that we
spent making love under the stars.
Remember that one day
we'll meet again, but above the stars

There's not much time
i can feel my life drifting away.
Just promise me you'll
move one someday.

You'll be a great mom
and a great wife.
Please just make
something of your life.

Don't worry about me
I'll be fine when I'm gone.
But when i do leave please
listen once more to our song.

And just remember to
REMEMBER ME!!!


this was written to me by my former lover, i hope you like is because i made me cry
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Just wasn't meant to be!!!
by Crystal

I guess it was
never meant to be
the love we had
for you and me.

We were always together
and never apart
we knew we could give
each other everything, just not our heart.

You told you loved me
many times a day.
I felt that you cared for me
in every single way.

I was the best girlfriend
that I could ever have been.
I kept my self faithful
until the very end.

I never gave up hope.
but for some reason you did.
I still can't believe you did
but thats how it had to end.

God has different plans for us
this we have to understand.
no matter how much we loved each other
it just wasn't our plan.

Just remember the
good times we had.
and the love that we shared
because we knew that fullness was there.

You will one day
meet the right girl
but until then
don't forget this girl
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I'm still here!!!
by Crystal

I lay here alone
just thinking of the world
and once again
your name is the only word.

Why can't i let you go?
Why do i love you?
why do you come and go
as if i were nothing to you.

I asked you if you really cared
and you said yes.
The love we found is so rare
why would you put it to rest.

I know deep down
that you really love me.
Just look all around
and you'll always find me.

There's nothing i wouldn't do for you.
That's how far I'm willing to go.
can't you see how much i really love you.
Just please don't go!!!

You left me once
you left me twice
is this whats going to happen
for the rest of my life.

Just please realize
that I'm here for you.
I could be
everything for you.

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What i feel 4 u
by Crystal

How hard is it to know
how much i care.
How hard is it to show
to you that I'll always be there.

Can you not see
that you mean the world to me.
Can you not understand
that I'll always be there to hold your hand.

I feel for you
the way I've felt for no other.
You come first in my life
before all of the others.

You've always cared
and never let me down
You've always been there
even when i was down.

The way you tickle me
when i feel like crying.
The way you smile at me
when i wish i was dieing.

These things about you
have made me love you.
The person you are
is better from afar.

Your not like most guys
which i like very much.
You have your own mind
and you don't follow that bunch.

So stay the way
you are at this very moment.
And know that i will love you
even after this moment!!!

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by Crystal

I sit here alone
just thinking of you
thinking that i should
have done more for you.

Maybe, if i never gave up
we'ed still be talking on the phone.
Maybe, if would have told you i loved you one more time
i wouldn't be sitting here all alone.

I miss you like crazy
I keep you off my mind.
I cry myself to sleep
every day and every night.

I all i want
is to hear your sexy voice
and to be with you for ever
i've decieder to make this my choice.

You need to believe
that i love you with all my heart.
And i promise that if you come back
no one or anything will ever tear us apart.

I LOVE YOU
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Monday, February 13, 2006

How hard is it to know how much i care
How hard is it to show to you that i'll always be there?
Can you not see that you mean the world to me?
Can you not understand that i'll always be there to hold your hand?
I feel for you the way I've felt for no other.
You come first before all the others.
You've always cared and never let me down.
You've always been there even when i was down.
The way you tickle me when i feel like crying.
the way you smile at me when i wish i was dying.
These things about you have made me love you.
The person you are is better from afar.
You're not like most guys which i like very much.
You have your own mind and you don't follow that bunch.
So stay the way you are at this very moment.
And know that I will love you even after this moment!!!
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