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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Wednesday 12th December - A post a day, keeps the boredom away
 As my title indicates, i'm pretty damn bored, although my last post made my life seem wildly interesting, it's not, small things are always multiplied in posts, so people appear to have the most full life in the world. `Tis not true. I spoke to an old american friend the other day, just a brief hello, and it made me realise how much I miss being alone. Although i was constantly depressed that no-one ever wanted to go out with me (as in hang out), and that I was bored, I was also extremely satisfied, as the people I connected with on the internet made me feel good. This one guy (the one I've got back in contact with) I actually really liked (not quite love more than a fancy), me and his siter were best friends, and if I wasn't talking to him, I was talking about him to her. It use to be so funny, me and his sister would plot revenge on him if he pissed her off, or if he smehow hurt me (Oh we sorta internet dated, although we NEVER saw each other because he was in America and i'm in England), but anyway it use to be so much fun.
In a strange way, I hate having friends, I love them because they make me feel whole and I have somewhere to turn if i'm hurting, but I also feel sufficated, I'm never alone anymore, someone is always there, and sometimes I just need space to cry, to think, to dream. It's so selfish complaining about having friends, because their are those who don't have any, but I need my space, that's why I love weekends, I can sit in the solitude of my house, online, talking to people around the world, who are in a similar position to me. XD
Anyway i think thats all, i can modify the post if i want to add more.
Hope you are all well! >.< |
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