Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Do you believe in a thing called love?

Um, quite frankly, no. =X Today is my last post from home, from Pennsylvania. If I manage any other posts, it will be from NJ. Tommorow, I am (hopefully) leaving here at 1:20, on the train. It is a 6 and a half hour ride to Newark, NJ. *remembers brother's train expirience* *remembers Newark* Mhm, not the best place to be at night. Or in the day, come to think of it. <.<;; *remembers how everyone had to shut windows and lock doors, to drive through Newark* o.- Mhm, I am leaving the US Sunday. I think my plane leaves at 6pm, my time. Because of the new regulations and rules, I have to be there three hours prior flight take off, so I have to be there at 3pm, which mostl likely means I am leaving whoever's house I am at way way way before then <.<;; There is a seven hour difference between here and Egypt. If my plane leaves at 6, like it is supposed to, I will get there 5am my time, 1pm their time X_+ Yes. Sunday/Monday is going to be a very long day for me. T_T Tonight is the last I can talk to anyone on the phone. So, mhm, I am going to try to catch as many people as I can *cough*Ben*cough* I need to aquire a good camera. The one I had for a long time, I lent it to my brother, for his senior trip. Needless to say, it was theived u_u;;; Oy! Yesterday, I got the Zeromancer cd, called Eurotrash. I really really like it *nods* I am now looking for the cd by At The Drive-In, called Relationship of Command. *searches and looks* Just some music info. I highly suggest the song Pattern Against User, by At The Drive-In. Its hard for me to stop listening to it =\ Somehow, I think the procrastinator in me is going to put off packing untill tommorow >:| *argues with lazy procrastinator side* See, there is a certain rush in a mad-dash packing. But that is also a wonderful way to forget very important things, like, say, underwear, toothpaste, or your train ticket. *smiles and nods* I am supposed to be staying away from sweets and such, but, see, there is this chocolate that is like Kit-Kats, but about a hundred times better. *remembers* *drools* Ok, ok, I am going to stop that now. Well, maybe later <.<;; When I come back, there is going to be a mad dash for college things, as I am going to smack into deadlines right as I come back. Have to meet up with new roomates (I have a feeling I am going to have a late take on that part <.<;;) And then, two weeks, it's time to move on campus, find a job, settle in. Things are going to go very very fast, and thats not including all the catching up I have, plus all the last time doctor appointments I have already schedualed for then. *nods* *sigh* I am going to miss everyone so much.... September 10 is so far away. =\ *hugs everyone tightly* EdItE: I want to note, appearences can be very decieving. Take Sen for instance. I saw his picture in the Anahiem stuffs. He looks like a cute little kid, no? A cute innocent little kid. I mean, look at his face. And then I started talking to him on AIM. Any preconcieved notion of him being an innocent little kid left my mind as our conversations continued. *Laughes and shakes head* Oy, I have the wonderful mindless collectable.... The whole TehSillyCircus Chat. *claps* (Thanks to Des) If I ever am bored enough to read the whole chat, word to word, you guys will save me, right? I was browsing through it, and, mhm... I wasnt in there very much. Barely at all. The times I was, ugh, I just hope no one remembers what I said. u_u;; I was such a dork, back... in... January... Um. Yeah. =\ *Brushes dorkn essense under the bed* Aye >:O "Desbreko145: Whee for all and all for Whee! Session Close (tehsillycircus): Sat Jan 31 20:54:24 2004" Maybe TehSillyCircus can be an annual thing XD *dodges comments*

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Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Borrowed from Sarah

Bold what you did in the 90's 1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCH!" (I know, I was a dork =\ ) 2. You watched the Pound Puppies. 3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air." 4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish. 5.You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own. 6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls (So cute! =D) 7. You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom. 8. Two words: M.C. Hammer 9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock." 10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars. (Radio Flyer bike <.<) 11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales." 12. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. (YES!!!) 13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head. 14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen. (I always pretended I was a girl Ninja Turtle =P. I never went to a movie theater untill very recently, so I saw them on video later in life =X ) 15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. (Hey, I was sheltered. =( ) 16. You played the game "MASH" 17. You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it 18. L.A. Gear 19. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten. 20. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the Ramona books. 21. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF." 22. You wanted to be a Goonie. 23. You ever wore flourescent clothing. 24. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off. 25. You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf. 26. You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school 28. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence. 29. You remember Hypercolor T-shirts. 30. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band. 31. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up. 32. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets. 33. You owned a pair of jelly sandals. 34. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?" 35. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!" 36. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates. 37. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip 'n' Slide. 38. You have ever played with a Skip-It. --"with a counter on the ball.." (I liked that toy...) 39. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's. 41. You remember Popples. 42."Don't worry, be happy." 43. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights. 44. You wore socks scrunched down. 45. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK" 46. You remember boom boxes vs. CD players. 47. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies. 48. You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!" (Whee ^_^) 49. You remember watching Rainbow Brite and My Little Ponies. 50. You thought Doogie Howser was hot. 51. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac. (I never liked how he always was trying to eat the kitty =\ ) 52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool. [because they were never cool] 53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell," the ORIGINAL class. (From the unforunate curse of summer + reruns - internet. Back in the day.) 54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi 55. You played and or collected "Pogs" (I, uh, might still have some hiding around <.<;; ) 56. You used to pretend that you could transform into a Power Ranger. 57. You remember your first Tamagatchi (Whats a Tamagatchi?)

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Sunday, July 18, 2004

Pretty blue lilly, in a sea of dark curls

I bought a hairclip that has a pretty blue lilly edged in blue glitter. *squeals a girly squeal* I am thinking of a new hairstyle, and...I am just so happy, because it is so pretty *blush* I know, I know, being all excited about a hairclip, even though amazingly pretty, might not be so normal. <.<;; I believe last night was my last day of work. I was schedualed for lobby, and when I was sweeping up the bathroom, one of the head managers came up to me. Pixie: Miss Aleia, why was your drawer short $65.00 last night? Aleia: o.o!!! Pixie: In the past two weeks or so, you totaled $165.37 short. You are either going to be pulled off registers, or fired. Aleia: o.o!!! Pixie: Most likely, when this goes through council, you will be fired. *nods* Aleia: o.o!!! I stayed in the bathroom closet, to calm myself down. There isnt any air circulation in there, so it was extremely hot and stuffy. The light switch is on the outside, and some dork kept messing with it, so it wasnt all peacefull u_u But it was the best place to hide, even though there was no room to sit, unless I pushed the mop bucket out of the closet and sat on the edge of the huge industrial sink... Nah. I would have fallen in or something X_+ Anyways. So after that, I put in my two weeks notice. Haha, doing that at this point is nice, because it is kind of cheating. Cheating in the fact that they know I am not available to work after Thursday, and well, yesterday being Saturday, the day I put it in, well, mhm. I figure anyways, when I come back from Egypt, I only have two weeks before I leave, to go to college. So, mhm, there isnt any loss to doing that now, because I would have to do it when I came back, anyways. *sigh* I think out of all the jobs they had me do (snack bar, icecream shed, carts, gift shop, lobby), I liked lobby best. Didn't have to deal with customers, didnt have to deal with money, didnt have to deal with silly managers all the time. I did things at my pace, did whatever whenever I felt it needed done. I supprisingly got compliments from people, on how nice I kept the bathroom 0.o;; Oy <.<;; If I was a boy, I would have been named Adam. Random fact. I go to HC's O, and I find lavish praise on my behalf. *blush* And the comment box, oy! Overwhelming =P Then I go to Sen's O, and I find a mention. I was like =O *blush* Then I go to Shin's O, and I find more plugging. I feel so flattered. *blushes and giggles like a schoolgirl* Maybe an update later, about Egypt.

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Saturday, July 17, 2004

Pocky > Snickers anytime

~Comments on comments~ Tony, that doesn't sound too hygenic ^_~ Sarah, what is chillax? Rustym, I find it hard to think about nothing. I have tried it before, with disasterouse results ^_~ HC: The mirror be a dastardly foe? Mal: *hugs tightly* Shin: Aye, been trying to focus on other things =\ ~End~ Woke up this morning, got on AIM. Sort of got yelled at. What a way to start the day ^_~ Mhm, but maybe I needed it. I mean, it hurt, it hurt a lot, but it forced me to view things differently. Does NOT mean they should feel compelled to do it often, or again <.<;;; I insist. *cough* ^_~ Somone let slip to me something about somone else that I shouldn't have known. This has really been bothering me lately. I mean, I know I am not going to tell anyone, but should I pretend it didnt happen, or should I tell that person that I know that about them? That person is pretty secretive, and, well, I like them. They are my friend. But would they be angry at me because I know, even though it was all accidental? I mean, this is information they are very very extremely secretive about, and I dont really know how they would react =\ ...I heard a plastic rustling near me. I was looking around suspiciously (Ok, I was kinda scared), when a kitty leaped out from the heating vent in the floor and camly walked to a chair. Aleia: Waaaa! *heart stops* Mhm, I know I wont be able to update later, because, again, I am at work from 2-11 today. I somehow got wrangled into working yesterday, one of my few free days off, so, yeah =\ *is dead tired* *hugs everyone* I think I will be much better after a good cry. Be my old self again...or technically, my more positive optimistic self. Everyone has a bad day/week/month/year/decade. You know how it is ^_~

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Friday, July 16, 2004

All blatently stolen

Romantic Kisser Your kisses are tender, heartfelt, and full of meaning. In other words, you don't just kiss anyone! Your kisses are for your true love. You're the kind of person who is naturally loving and gentle. You like to be romantic by kissing slowly while stroking your partner's face or by holding their hand. You feel that a kiss is an intimate act of sharing, not just physical fun. You are sensitive to your partner's needs and view your time with them as precious. You like to take your time. You are compassionate, thoughtful, and sincere . While kissing, you listen to your heart and think about how much your partner means to you. Your ability to tap into your feelings is your greatest characteristic. You enjoy a private environment with your partner, so that the intimacy is not interrupted. You can be playful and like to give sweet little pecks. Remember that variety is the spice of life, you may want to make kissing more exciting! Overall, you are the most caring and sensitive of all the kissing styles, and you take very good care of your partner by always putting their feelings first. What Kind of Kisser Are You? (by *Crazy Dannielle*) Intriguing <.<;;; Take the quiz: "Is Suicide Your Destiny?" Close to Suicide Since you are so depressed it is ideal in your eyes to die. Take the quiz: "Which Element do you align with?" Air You are a being of Air. You bank on your intuition and intelligence to solve problems. You are inspired and moved by the arts, especially music. Hermes and Aurora watch over you. Take the quiz: "Which Random Irish Gaelic Phrase Are You? " Ta mo bhriste tri thine Ta mo bhriste tri thine - 'My trousers are on fire.'You're a few bricks short of a load, aren't you? You're probably not allowed to use sharp objects and you should be locked in a rubber room. With Rubber rats. Rubber rats? I hate rubber rats. They drive me crazy. Crazy? I was crazy once. They put me in a rubber room. With rubber rats. Rubber rats? I hate rubber rats... Take the quiz: "WHAT RELIGION BESTS SUITS YOU?" Category Unknown You don't fit into any of the above categories, so perhaps before you get angry or confused, check what other religion(s) you scored the highest on. For example, you might be a Christian-Pagan, or a Discordian-Wiccan. Just use a bit of logic. However, according to this test, you're simply 100% YOU. You don't fit into any of the world's boxes. Take the quiz: "Which God or Goddess are you?" God of Light Innocent and a bit shy, but pure and clear at the same time. You are one half of the true god, combing light with darkness makes the whole world live. You tend to do whatever is going on, go with the flow, ya know?

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Bah!

Last night, I fell asleep in the same mind-frame/mood as the night before. It makes for really odd dreams 0.o I have to say, I am still pretty angry. No, wait, I am uprouriously furiouse at myself. It wouldnt be a big deal, except I dont know what to do about it, how to deal. I am also sickeningly disgusted, but, my dears, that isnt a different story, it is just a long tediouse one that shouldnt be heard. Heh. Seeing a full complete picture of myself really really really doesnt help things at all. *sees the view that others see her* And thinking about the stupid picture most certainly isnt helping me right now *glares furiously* I have a friend who has a friend that is very lucky to have him as a friend. Make sense? Good. That had nothing to do with anything, but I wanted to say it. I was thinking about that all night, too. ...In...addition..to..other...things... <.<;;; =X Oy. I better get offline. Geez, I am so angry, I cant stop shaking 0.o Cant say I get this angry often at all, so, I mean, it is nothing to worry about. Honestly.

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Thursday, July 15, 2004

>:|

Oy. Very very angry, uprouriously angry, fully disgusted, all at me. ....And fully and utterly speechless.... X_+

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Wednesday, July 14, 2004

One by one, the penguins steal my sanity

Mhm, I found out last night that I am leaving for NJ on the 23 of July, and leaving the US on the 25, for Egypt. I can't come back untill around September 10 or so... I am not quite sure how to feel, right now. A bit stunned, I think.

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Tuesday, July 13, 2004

Springfield seems a generic name...

As that is the name of the township I live in. Honestly. o.o;; Aleia lives in Springfield Township. w00t!! Mhm, lets see. Yesterday at work, there was this guy with a bunch of little kids. He was talking to them in a language that seemed vaguely familiar, and yet not, all at the same time. I felt very compelled to ask what language he was speaking. He told me he was speaking Hebrew. I was like "Wow =O". He told me about how he was orginally from Isreal, but decided to move. I asked him what made him pick the state he decided to live in. He answered he picked to live in the back area around here, because he had a friend here, heard it was peaceful, and that there werent any Muslims here for at least a hundred miles. Mhm. Intriguing. o.- There was a person who came in the shop. Their shirt was covered in tags of sorts. I asked them if they were looking for anything in particular. Ok, at this point, I am thinking it is a she, so that is what I am going to refere to them as. I feel really bad, because I couldnt really tell =\ Anyways. She was looking for stuffs that had to do with wolfes. She noticed me looking at her shirt (It was covered in a picture of a wolf (Are you suprised? o.o ) and was covered in the above mentioned tags) and asked me what I was staring at. I motioned to her tags, and she explained about how she was at a convention about furries. Furries? She went to explain about how furries are animals with human characteristics, like Tony the Tiger. Oh, those furries. Why didn't you say so? She asked me if I ever heard of a genre called anime. She went to explain about Wolf's Rain. She told me she went to the convention in Anahiem. She saw Man-Faye. She basicly said her eyes were going to bleed from the memory. *shakes head and smiles* Oy, I also found out there is a convention in Baltimore, Maryland called Otakon, or something like that. It is one of the biggest ones out there, and only one state over for me. I would go, but I dont want to go all by my lonesome =X I mean, I would still have fun either way, but if I went there by myself, I would be surrounded by people who have others with them, and I would feel lonely. >_< Keeping a promise isnt that hard. But when somone adds things to it after things are agreed, well, that makes things a bit tricky. *glares* I had more to say, but I forgot it all now. Whee?

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Monday, July 12, 2004

Aleia = X_+ X 10,000 4 now

No, really. If I was a text smiley, I really would look like that. When I got to work early yesterday, I had to work my way through the huge crowd in the gift shop. Remember that kid I talked about, the one who kept trying to make me laugh? Him: Aleia, help me! The only change I have left in here is pennies =( Very long line of customers: Only pennies? T_T Oy. u_u It was very very very very busy for the rest of the day and all through the night. I was supposed to start closing up at 9pm, but I couldnt close up untill 10, and I didnt leave untill 10:45 =\ Just as I left the building, there was a huge BOOM BOOM CRACK, the sky lit up brightly, and the lights in the building went out. As did the one or two lights outside that lead to the parking lot. So now I am standing in complete darkness, dripping soaking wet from the sudden downpour. =( I am not afraid of the dark. I am just afraid of what could be hiding in there. <.<;; The parking lot is a very dangerouse place at night. It is open to all (sane and insane)public, off and on the turnpike, it is very unlit, there is a very flimsey rusting gate surrounding it (Whats a gate for, if it doesn't work? Decoration? False sense of security? =\ ) And I was just a tad paranoid, making my way to my car, as I had to park way out into the grass, because of so many people working at work today. I felt very weak and vulnerable >_< *shiver* When I finally got to my car, the thunder and lightning had gotten worse. (Yeah, I ran in a sort of panicked frenzy. I know, I am a wuss =\ ) The whole sky was constantly lit up, the ground was shaking like there could be a mild earthquake, and I was just "Now what?" I knew I had to go home, because if I stayed in my car, I would soon fall dead asleep. And the parking lot is not a safe place to fall asleep, even with doors locked u_u;; The fog and the rain was so thick that I was mostly at a 5-10 mph crawl. =\ Haha, with my luck recently, I was afraid that I would drive right into a lightning bolt or something <.<;; =X I finally got home at 11:30. Thankfully, my mom was home. I dropped dead into bed. I was so tired, I was bit by...something...last night, when I was asleep, and I didnt even wake up. There are these dark purple splotches that really hurt and itch, dunno what they are from. Oh well, it really doesnt matter ^_~ *yawn* I am only a tad worried because I am so dead tired, and I have to drive to work today, from 1pm-9 something. Hopefully 9 something. *needs a magic caffiene shot or something* Um, yeah. It's hard to explain what's going on inside me. Not quite sure how to go about trying to find out, without cutting myself off from everyone I know for a long while. *sigh* It is a deep weary feeling, something most of you could never imagine. It is a weary feeling that is wearing away at me pretty quickly, I believe. Add that I feel like an overstretched rubber band. My god, what the heck am I going to do with myself? I cant even handle my petty problems without getting all psycopatheticly stressed out. That is weakness, I tell you. I hate feeling this way, weak and defenseless. w00t >:| I am going to end my silly melodramatic complaining, and uh, go to work. *falls into a deep sleep* I mean, to work! >:| EdItEd: I think... I am more angry at at the moment, than stressed and weary. I think I could be angry at myself, for so many valid reasons. I, uh, need to find a safer way to let it out. I will tell you when I find one <.<;; I stupidly made a promise. When I think about it, it rips me inside. People, think before you make promises. *is pained*

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