Sunday, July 11, 2004

The band-aid only covers the bullet hole

Heh. I woke up to my mom yelling and screaming, then a door slamming. She left, and I dont know where she went. I have to go to work soon, and I dont want to leave the kids alone, but I dont have a choice. *is very very worried* Geez, I feel like a rubber band about to break >:| Things I learned yesterday: Trains aren't that reliable. *laughes* My brother's train was supposed to arrive at 1:20. In the end, it didn't come untill 6:00. X_+ We went to the movie theater, and watched Spiderman 2. Now he is gone. Silly goon boy. I miss him =\ I believe I am going to Egypt sometime in August. I am staying there for about a month or so, coming back September 2. I am not going to get my hopes up untill the train ticket is bought and I have the ok from work, because I was heavily dissapointed last time this was promised u_u;;; Of course, this doesn't stop me from getting all excited <.<;; Here is a joke that some might find amusing. There was a guy who inhereted a parrot named Jake from a very distant relative. When he recieved the parrot, he soon discovered it cursed profusely, and nothing he could do could change it. He called up his good friend, who had a parrot named Sally. He was talking about Jake to his friend, when his friend said about all Sally did all day long was recite prayers and prayed. He suggested that if they left Sally and Jake together, Sally's behavior might rub off on Jake. The next day, the friend arrived with Sally. They stuck both of them in the same cage, then went off to lunch. Jake looked over at Sally and whistled. Sally looked at Jake and said "Hallelujah! I finally got what I have been praying for!" Seems there is a moral somewhere in there, but can't think of it now <.<;; The Band-Aid Covers the Bullet Hole, Crispin Glover, and Alexander the Burn Victim are all done by a band called Scarling. I highly suggest these songs to anyone and everyone who can hear. I will even give them to you if you IM me. Yes, I love those songs X_+ Oy! The moral to the joke is that people's actions dont neccessarily reflect their motives. u_u

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Thursday, July 8, 2004

The lights start to dim, the world looks greyer, and your heart slowly turns to heavy dust

Doot doot doodoot. I called work yesterday, and asked when the paychecks were coming in. The lady on the phone was pretty annoyed, and told me they were comming late Wednesday, early Thursday. So I drove to work afternoon today, to find that they weren't even there yet, because the 4th of July delayed the delivery. u_u;;; I decided to use a "shortcut" to get to Orbisonia, where the bank is, to get things set strait. I followed the signs, and at some point, I think I missed something. I knew I did something wrong when at 30 miles later, I was still on backroads. And I had no idea where I was. That is, I most certainly didnt recognize anything o.o;; I figured the best thing to do was keep on going, untill I saw signs, or familiar roads. I saw an old friend's dad walking along the road. I knew exactly where I was (I wasnt there before, but I knew where the old friend lived), and then I laughed, because I knew where I was (Maddensvile, an area a mile or so away from my house, fully consisting of backroads, woods, and houses.) and I was no where near where I wanted to go. Well, sorta near, but I had really gone way out of the way u_u;; Nay, the whole expirience wasn't bad, it was an adventure of sorts, and now I know the backroads a bit more (Means less chances of me getting lost in the future) And it was pretty outside, with dark and light grey clouds in the sky, wildflowers along the road, passing through deep dark mysteriouse looking woods.. Whee ^_^ I got the whole mess/fiasco at the bank sorted, and that takes a load of stress off me. I really do feel so much better o.o;; mhm, lets see... I sacrificed $12.00 of gas money for a new copy of Scarling's Sweet Heart Dealer. I thought it was a good deal. I can live without a few gallons of gas <.<;;; Wanna hear an ironic story? Too bad, I am going to tell it to you =P Saturday or Monday, my mom cancelled call waiting. On most of Tuesday afternoon, my brother was on the phone, making arrangements for his train ticket to NJ, talking to my uncle, stuff and more stuff. After he was done, I called Sarah, and talked for a while. I thought I didn't have to get to work untill 2:45. I came in about 5 minutes late, to one of the managers asking me where on earth I was. As it turns out, I was supposed to be there at 1:00. Yes, I felt like a dork >:| Now, the really ironic part is when 5 minutes later, I was called to the office. My stomach was flipping around, I thought I was in huge trouble. When I got there, they gave me a $10.00 certificate, for being observed doing a good job for a while. On the front, in bold blue letters, it says "Thanks for an outstanding job!" I mean, what a day to give it to me 0.o Its only good for junk food, sodas, stuff like that. I can't get anything from Starbucks, Burger King, Snack Bar... I mean, not that I need any of that either, lol, but junk food? $10.00 is a lot for junkfood, all at once anyways. I will save it for later, when I really might need it. Another thing that's funny is that it is signed by Pixi, the manager for Burger King. Everyone told me stories about how she is mean and stuff, but my interactions with her have been pretty nice. For some reason, I think it very funny when she yells at people. *snickers* Hey, no one said I was normal, least of all me. 0_o I personally think I am a mostly laid back person. I mean, I try not to let silly things get to me. But it kinda bugs me that my brother got to visit Heath twice. First time was understandable, everyone went off to the movies and such, and I had to go to work. But the second time, my brother insisted on going, and I didnt feel comfortable leaving the three youngest at home, by themselves. So I stayed and babysat. Well, not really annoyed, more like sad. I only saw him for 5 minutes, and we were only able to say "Hey!" He has plans with his dad for Saturday, and he is leaving for Florida again Sunday. =\ I have work tommorow, from 12pm - 8pm. I have to cancell my eye appointment, to go to work >_< Ah well, tis life. =\ My mom is still trying to convince me not to go to college. "It's too expensive, and you still have to pay me back before you go >:|" <.<;; u_u;; EdItE 1: Oy! I am going to ask Shin, Senny, Erin, or Kat (Whomever I find first <.<;;) if they know and when next year's Anime Expo at Anahiem is to be expected. I have lots of research to do, as I plan to go. ^_^ That could be good or bad, depending on things. I prefer to think it more along lines of "interesting" =P *grins* EdItE 2: Oy. I have to somehow scrape up $140 dollars for a passport I dont need or want, but have to pay for anyways. I don't know what to do =\ Oh. I was informed my soul isn't mine anymore. I wonder how that came about <.<;;; According to Ben, because of the order of my cd's breaking/getting lost, I am destined to Cure the common Cold. That's something, to come up with that. *shakes head and grins*

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Wednesday, July 7, 2004

Sputnick sickles found in the seats

HeavensCloudAIM: No worries. Even people that have to give all of their cash to their mothers deserve to get good music. Enough said.

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Crushed under a heavy boulder X_+

Yes, that is exactly how I feel. Its odd, how I cant breath right. I mean, its like hyperventalating, but not quite. *sigh* Because of HC, I know exactly why Sonic Youth makes Shin horny. Well, at least why the cd Sonic Nurse would, anyways. Very awesome stuff. That, and David Bowie, got me through the night last night. Well, mostly Sonic Youth. And last night is a story I dont really want to relive. <.<;; =X And I thank HC a thousand times for all the musicness *grins*

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Tuesday, July 6, 2004

Mind numbingly exciting

Mhm, lets see… Today is Tuesday, so I guess I can start from Sunday, when stuff started happening. For Sunday being July 4th, it wasn’t as busy as I thought it would be. It was actually a bit slow. o.o Later in my shift, this group of guys came in the gift shop. Group of guys: Do you sell magazines? Aleia: No, sorry, we only sell the newspapers you see out in the lobby. Guys: So you guys don’t sell porn? Aleia: Um, no. o.o;;;; Guys: *Tee hee hee* Do you, uh, know of any hott girl co workers who would like to do us some favors? Aleia: *blink* o.o;;; Guys: *Tee hee hee* Aleia: u_u;;; They eventually left me alone, and I was just like 0.o;;; Oy. u_u There was a newish kid in training when I got to the gift shop, where I was scheduled. He was newish in the sense that he was a lobby boy before, but he was in training to work the registers. He had to stay his last three hours with me. Being in the gift shop is a bit of a lonely job, as you are the only cashier, and the shop is pretty separated from the rest of the plaza. Being the only cashier basicly means that you are the only person in the whole shop, no one to talk to except when one of the lobby people come over to restock the soda fridge or something. So having someone to talk to was pretty nice, as we got along pretty well. For some reason, he confided in me who the girls he thought were hott were (a lot of them were at Starbucks <.<;;; ), who he asked out (A girl at Starbucks), about how the one waitress chicka at Bob’s turned him down, because she was 20, he was 16, and she said he was just a cute little baby. Him: I am not a baby! I am 16! There is only four years difference between us… =\ Aleia: *holds in her laughing* With some of the stuff he was doing, it was making me wonder if he was trying to get me to laugh. I mean, like when I was messing with the jewelry case, he came over and started wearing the stuff on display. Then he rang up customers bejeweled in glitzy flashy bracelets and necklaces. Just the startled looks on their faces…oh, it was priceless XD I told him about how the one guy I sometimes talk to, how it seemed that he flirts with me, but I cant tell. He said “Oh, well if he is flirting with you, then I need a heart to heart with him” I wonder what he meant by that. >:| The guy I was talking about came in, to stock the soda stuffs. The dork I was working with called out “Hey, do you flirt with Aleia?” The guy came over and put his arms around me, and started talking in a high pitched voice. All I could do was stand there and blush. A lot. Well, it was embarrassing! =\ Yeah, I was pretty angry at that dork…and if it isn’t obvious to you, then I am not going to explain it. u_u I was kind of ignoring him, because I was kinda angry/annoyed. I reached over to straiten up some boxes, when he asked me what was on my wrist. Guy: Whats that? Aleia: Nothing u_u Guy: Hmm, so you are a self mutilator, I see? Aleia: Shut up. Guy: Why do you do that crazy stuff? =\ Aleia: It’s a long story <.<;; Guy: Well, we still have a long time left =) Aleia: No thanks >:| The rest of his shift, he kept doing silly stuff. When I didn’t react, his attempts at being funny climbed to extremely obvious, so just in case I doubted that he was trying to make me laugh before, I most certainly couldn’t doubt his attempts now. Geesh u_u *sigh* Mhm, yesterday I had work from 12 pm, and I couldn’t clock out until 9:30pm. It was a very, mhm, eventful day. <.<;;; This disheveled looking guy came in, and just stood near the register. He didn’t say anything to me. He just stood there, staring off into space. I was getting a bit nervous, because he didn’t say anything, even when I asked him if I could help him with anything. After a minute, he seemed to shake himself out of some kind of trance, and started acting…alive? Guy: Do you, uh, sell, uh, caffeine pills? Aleia: Mhm! *reaches the high shelf to bring it down* Guy: *sees package and looks crestfallen* You guys don’t, uh, sell the snortable kind, right? Aleia: *blink* Um, I don’t think…there is a snortable kind of caffeine… Guy: Oh well, I can crush it up in the van. You know, when you snort this stuff, it gives you a huge rush, like wow. It’s like WHOA! *nods fervently* Aleia:* I wonder if I am allowed to sell him this?* o.o Guy: *is still nodding enthusiastically* Aleia: *blinks* Guy: *starts muttering incomprehensible things* Aleia: *gets a bit scared* <.<;;; Heh. The porn guys from the previous day had come back. I recognized them because they were still wearing the same clothes. Guy: Do you guys sell magazines? Aleia: No, we don’t. Guy: So you guys don’t sell porn? Aleia: No, I guess not. Guy: You have a cute face, but you are too fat to be sexually attractive, to be sexy. Of course, you already know what I mean. Aleia: *gives up and laughs* Dude, get out of here. You’re freaking retarded, you know that? *guy obviously takes offense and leaves* Goodness gracious >:| Yes. Yesterday was a very long day. u_u This guy came in and handed me a wad of bills. He said he found them on the lobby floor, that if anyone came in looking for lost money, that I had it. I was rendered pretty speechless. I mean, come on, he turned in money he found. He could have pocketed it, say nothing to anyone. I crushed my thumb on the one heavy cabinet. There is a nice white line on my thumbnail, and it hurt like crazy. I almost cried ;_; The head manager was there when it happened, and she got me a bag of ice. Word spread around, of course. <.<;; Actually, it wasn’t such a bad thing, that word spread around. That kind of stuff only annoys me, because people gossip about the stupidest things. Because word spread, I didn’t have to close up by myself, which is already a hard thing to do alone, as a lot of the things you have to drag around are extremely heavy, shelve things that come off pretty easily, tend to want to tip over, and don’t have wheels. Yes, that causes problems u_u The one lobby guy heard about it and swept and mopped the shop for me. The only guy from Starbucks that shift came over and helped me drag everything over, to where it was supposed to be, so I could lock up. mhm ^_^ I asked a manager what I was supposed to do with the money the guy found and gave me. She told me there was no way they could hold it, because it is highly doubtful that the person is going to know exactly how much they lost, and they probably would figure that someone took it anyways, and not bother to call in about it. She said it was mine. It felt like stealing, for some reason =\ My mom canceled call waiting, so that means that we aren't allowed to have the internet on during the day or evening. Whee u_u

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Sunday, July 4, 2004

One by one, the support strings are cut

I had a full post. Then something happend, and a message came up saying that theotaku detected unauthorized user or something. >:O!!!!! My whole post, gone. >:| When my brother finally let me on the computer, it was like 8:45. I went on AIM, to see if somone was online, and they werent. But I bet they were online the few hours I was bugging my brother to share the computer >:| I had an interesting conversation with Ginny today. mhm ^_^ The Sunday Morning Show is pretty interesting most of the time. Lots of cultural stuffs. Happy fourth, if you celibrate. I am going to leave early, as....I just think its a good idea, in the current atmosphere. And I have to go to work u_u;;

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Saturday, July 3, 2004

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Friday, July 2, 2004

Crippling apathy is a wonderful thing

I think I am going to skip out on college. For now. Actually, I have no idea what I want to do. I want to get away, but I dont know how, or where. My mom keeps telling me I technically dont have a car, as it is under her name. Even though I owe her lots of money for the insurance on the car, it is still her car. u_u I fixed earlier said situation by calling in the monetary debt my brother owed me. I kind of forgot about it. I paid for his senior pictures a long while back (Since he was very very popular at school, his pictures cost almost more than five times what I paid for mine. And...to think of it...I never used them, my senior pics. Oh well, I think I only paid like $12.00 for a few copies to give to relatives.), lent lots of money for gas and such before. I honestly wouldnt have minded him not ever paying it. Thats why I forgot about it, I guess. I hate feeling so hopeless and dependant. I dont have money in the bank, but I guess after working the 40 hours they have for me this week will put a few dollars in the bank (Yeah, my mom is defidently going to make me make payments to her this time around) I woke up pretty early this morning (7 am, I believe) I didnt get to sleep until late, because I was fidgeting from anxiaty and whatever. I was so dead tired from work that even anxiaty couldnt keep me awake. I went and took a nap around 9:30-ish, and had a freaky dream that made me think (Yes, and uh, a bit emotional something or other. Just be glad you didnt talk to me earlier). It included stuff that I had speculated and worried about, and was recently confirmed by my youngest sister. I told my mom to go talk to her, when the youngest sister told me. I watched in faint amusement, to see how she would explain away horrors to a little 10 year old, see how she was going to make everything better. I didnt expect much. And it is a good thing I didnt. The middle sister scratched my Cure CD, so I cant listen to it. She also lost her CD player. It has my Cold CD in it, wherever it is. Of course, she took it without asking. She apologized for both the scratching incident, and the lost CD thing, but apologizing isnt going to fix either. I am not angry at her or anything, nor am I holding it on her. I am just really really frustrated. The other night I was listening to my music, while I was going to sleep. When I woke up, all that was left of it was the headphones. I practially ripped the whole bedroom apart 4 times, looking for it. I still cant find it. I really need music to go to sleep. It helps me avoid going certain places, places I now go in my dreams. Ugh. I feel like a drug addict expiriencing withdrawl. I think what I am dealing with is apathy. I dont care about Aleia anymore, about anything, dont want to care, couldnt care less, deadend inside. I believe I am still bleeding, even though the sharpness is more of a dull throbbing type. I am waiting for it to fully set in, for me to fully appreciate the wonders of it all. I think I could get used to it.

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I wonder if guys really like down to Mars girls...

Yesterday wasnt that bad of a day at work. There were plenty of ways it could have been worse, and there were ways where it really wasn't that bad. There was a little girl who's face and legs were covered in sticky icecream (On her legs? How on earth...0.o?) I gave her some wet napkins, and her mom took offense. 0.o Oh well. Mhm, there was a girl whom I work with who took high offense when I said offhandedly "Hey deary, is there a pen around you?" Her: My name is April >:| Me: Ok. Sorry. o.o;; I didnt really think about it when I said deary. Hmm, maybe I should think before I talk? I, uh, think I should have been doing that long before now. u_u;;; Last night, a letter from the bank told me I was in some kind of deep trouble. Something about only haveing 18 dollars left in my account o.o;;; Checking my account online told me I had -49. I just wrote out a check for $25, because I desperatly needed the oil in the car changed. I really couldnt avoid it, I was already dangerously pushing things. So, that $25 and the $25 dollar fine they are going to charge me for bouncing things, plus the -49, I owe $99.00. The paycheck I just got is only $61.00. The math doesnt work out, ya know? =\

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Thursday, July 1, 2004

Rwar -.-

French Guard I'm French! Why do think I have this outrageous accent, you silly king-a?! What Monty Python Character are you? brought to you by Quizilla

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