Thursday, July 1, 2004

Patience is a coveted virtue, methinks.

Mhm. Yesterday I was told to go to the Emergency Room. Had to get the oil in the car changed. Actually, that was a very interesting story. <.<;; I dropped off my car (I was third in line u_u ) took a longish walk to the playground and swung on a swing. Swung on a swing! =D *cough* My mom' friend lives right next to the playground. I saw her moving around stuff in her garage, and I ambled over to ask if she needed help. Next thing I know, I am sitting on her porch swing, drinking diet caffine free coke, and listening to her stories. *smiles* Finally drive myself to the ER. Waited a total of 4 hours, for the main doctor to change the gauze pads and tell me because I wasnt squirting blood everywhere, I was fine. If I kept bleeding today, then, things maybe arent fine. But I have work today. So, uh, yeah. Meh, I have to update later u_u;; Off to work I go. >_<

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Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Intriguing-ness. Maybe.

Mhm. I was thinking about stuff, just stuff in general, and I came up with things that you guys probably mostly likely dont know about me. lol, they aren't huge things, but eh, stuff none the less. - I dont wear any makeup. Not one bit. A lot of it looks silly, some look a bit neat. But I would rather not have people attracted to me because I painted my face to look better. I am not going to look like that when I wake up in the morning, or if I am in a rush =\ Lipgloss doesn't count <.<;; - I am a bit asthmatic. It isnt as bad as other people in my family, I just use an albuterol inhaler once in a great while. Meh, my one brother has a pill and two inhalors for his o.o;;; - I like my windows down and my music loud. But I dont put my music loud in big residential places, that's pretty inconsiderate u_u - I. Hate. Roaches and scorpians. For some reason, even though I have never encountered a scorpian (That I know of, anyways, dunno if they have em in Egypt <.<;;) I probably read or saw something about how they were freaky scary and all this poison stuff and a stinger and how people die. *shivers* Ick X_+ Yes. Facts of Aleia. Just thought it would be interesting to some *shrugs* Oh. What is also interesting... I found out last Friday from the eye doctor that he has a bit of trouble trying to controle the bleeding during surgury. He never encountered anyone that bled so much like that, and asked if I had taken asprin beforhand. I could safely say that I hadnt taken asprin..in..months. I avoid it at all costs, for personal reasons. So things like, say, biopsies arent a good idea. Mhm. Like the one I had yesterday. <.<;;; When I came home, I found I messed all over my pants and stuff. Took a shower, put on another band-aid. Changed it three times before I went to bed. When I woke up, I had a stupid mess that I have to clean up later. >_< Called people. Told me to go to the hospital. Heh. I have a lot to say, but...I dont think it is fitting, to put it here. And it is mostly stupid, so, uh, =X And so I will shut up. And go to the hospital. Um, yeah. =\ *feels lonely, and a bit scared*

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Tuesday, June 29, 2004

A vexed and boggled mind will get you nowhere good fast

I had a doctors appointment today. Heh. Again, she has no idea what is wrong with me, exactly. Not going into great detail, but it's this thing, on my skin. It just appeared in seventh grade, blah blah blah, and now it is just getting worse. Or something. It is just really really really stressful, when you have something, and two doctors have no idea what it is. Stressful and alarming u_u So a biopsy was in order. Again. (A biopsy is when they cut a sample of skin out for testing and stuff. After the anesthesia wears off, tisnt going to be a lot of fun =\ ) Hmm, yesterday. Woke up at 1 pm, got out of bed at 2, dressed, and went job hunting. Heh. My mom thinks I come and go as I please. She ranted while I left, because my sister kept asking her where I went, when am I coming home, ect ect. Oh well. Har. The managers at work were gossiping about me on Sunday. Lol, I dont care if they do, the ones that gossip are the ones I dont care for anyways, as their gossip is cruel, viciouse, unneccessary and plentiful, and those ones that gossip are the ones with no common sense and severely lack of work ethic. They were wondering what to do with me, because it was late afternoon and my eyes were almost swollen shut. They were afraid costomers might not buy stuff from what I was in charge of (yes, I didnt look that great), I might count change wrong, might mess up something, I dunno, stuff like that. They had actually conteplated that if I still looked like this in the future, I might have to be "let go". -.- And they had probably gotten a lot of complaints about the sickly looking girl outside. The majority of customers don't want to catch what I have. -.- Everyone knows how surgury is catching ^_~ "What happend to you?!?!?!? You look awful!" "See, I hung around with somone who just had surgury-" "You know you shouldnt do that! Geez, did you forget how contagious surgury is??" "Yeah, I knew, but I never thought it would happen to me. I didnt even see it coming! No symptoms or anything! Just woke up like this one morning..." "Oh, you poor dear! ;_; " Tsk. ^_~ Yeah, they might not have known that, surgury, but that is what I replied to the many comments of "What kind of drugs were you taking??", "They must be so desperate for workers around here that they dont even bother testing with obviouse drug cases *glare included*" and the ever so popular "OH MY GOODNESS!!! YOUR EYES ARE FREAKY ODD, YOU KNOW THAT????" "No, I never look at myself in the mirror! =O So glad you and countless hundreds have told me! Thank you! Now I can finally remember I look freaky odd! =D" I got really weary of saying the same thing over and over, so I told this one lady that working here depressed me so much, my symptoms change my physical apperance when I come near the work grounds. She stood there, grasping for words, and slowly walked away, obviously speechless. I feel bad for lying like that. Um.... maybe it isnt that big of a lie <.<;;; Silly people. u_u No, really. o.o I told my mom about how I was seriously considering calling off that morning. I really really wanted to. (It really really really really didn't help how I was on AIM prior to going to work, and a dear friend was worried, and didnt want me to go. I felt really really torn. Stay home, get better, mum come home and get a huge butt kicking? Or go to work, be very very sick and miserable, deal with rude obnoxiouse people who cant read for almost 12 hours? Decicions, decisions....) About how I felt really sick that morning, about how I had gotten yelled at many times by different managers for spending too much time in the bathroom (I was, uh, throwing up) and that I was going to be in seriouse trouble if I didnt finish up certain things, blah blah blah, about how I have been running a low fever since...a while now, actually (99, 100. Once in a while, 101, but nothing seriouse, honestly, just doesnt make things any fun =P ) She concluded that I have a cold of sorts and that if she had found out I called off work, she would have kicked my butt, because I owe her money. I know she really would have too, lol. Oh well on that. I feel like I became an adult way too early. If I want anything, I have to do it myself, no help from anyone. I work so hard for so little. Every aspect of college, it is all up to me. I cant expect/get help from anyone, financial or otherwise. I mean, it is too much to expect help from anyone else, but it feels so impossible to struggle with by myself. Tis life, I know, but I feel like a mom to my siblings (I almost said kids u_u;;) and, well, that is a lot, too. I mean, not that it is too much, but I feel that my mom isnt the mom, really. Like I am doing her job, but it has to be done, and if she doesnt do it, somone has to, or else...I dont know what will happen. But it wont be good, and I will feel responsible and hate myself for whatever happends forever. I just feel so worn out. Lately, especially after the surgury, I just really want to finally rest and relax for once, and have somone else take care of me. I want a break from taking care of Aleia. But if I dont do it, no one else will. EdItEd: This recent O user signed my guestbook. Her "style" of talking or writing, I have seen and head both, kind of inclined me to click to her site. It just made me...smile. *shakes head and smiles* I dunno about you guys, but it would require a lot of concentration for me to write/talk like that. I would keep reverting to the "correct" way...

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Riding into the sunset sounds romantic and all, but you are garenteed to get burned in the end of the journey -.-

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The facts of life

Boys are stupid. I say that with all honesty, and mean it with everything I have. Yes indeed. u_u

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Monday, June 28, 2004

Too bad. So sad.

Hahaha. Guess what? I don't give a shit anymore. It is all just incredibly funny. Tears stream down my face while I laugh. Say whatever, do whatever, very welcome to do so. Teen angst, sob story, melodramacy, stupid stupid niave fool, drama queen, shut up, poor poor whoever, whining and complaining, up yours. Everything is so much clearer when you don't care. So much better. Nothing matters anymore. Honest to goodness. *shakes head* I dont know why I didnt see it before. I wish you the best, by the way. I hope you finally get what you really want.

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Heh

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Sunday, June 27, 2004

Badda bing, badda BOOM BOOM BANG *SLAM*

I wonder who it was that made the English alphabet in the order that it is? Just what logic puts A before B, and F after E? YES, THAT IS WHAT A WHOLE NIGHT OF NOT SLEEPING WILL GET YOU! Questions to think about so you continually dont sleep. Tis a sick sick cycle. *shakes head* I got two hours of sleep. ;_: Mom, Friday night: "So, uh, Aleia. When are you going to work?" "Mom, I can't even see the road yet to drive safely." "So, uh, Aleia. You owe me almost two thousand dollars. When are you going to go back to work?" Today, mum, today. 10 am to 8pm. u_u;;; *grumbles* I hope she is happy u_u Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know, I sound like a brat. I will work that part out later <.<;;; My posts change color on their own will. The current post color is always blue, the ones from the yesterdays seemingly turn red, and the ones from days before seem to turn black. *~* Maybe my posts will start...posting things I didn't type. Yes. We will see. <.<;;;

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Saturday, June 26, 2004

Some skills I recently discovered I desperatly need to learn fast

I woke up this morning, incredibly happy that all my guts and stuff inside work just about perfect. I figure, if you dont have to think about them, its a pretty good sign of health. I also probably heard that somewhere <.<;;; Hmm... I learned I need to take classes or something on how to Shut Up. I need to then amble over to the next class, to learn how to Shut Things Tight, and take additional classes of Get Over It. Yes indeed. Things look busy for me u_u

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