Thursday, April 8, 2004

Yeah, still got it in me ^_~

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Wednesday, April 7, 2004

Yesterday at work, this one other person I have to work with was acting stupid as usuall. She was trying to tell the person I was orienting with that I wasn't doing what I was supposed to be doing. I guess I don't do anything, especially if that girl doesn't see it, huh? I never really liked her, as I got this sense from her that I wouldn't like her if I got to know her. And I hardley ever feel that from other people, either 0.o I know I should ignore her, but I am afraid that she will report my "laziness" to a higher authority, so I will get in trouble, and so will the girl that I am orienting with. I don't want the girl I am orienting with to get in trouble, she is really nice and helpfull =\ So much trouble from just one person! How does she manage, I wonder? -_- Yesterday at work, there was a meeting about vacations...I guess because I am a newbie, I am most likely not able to take one. I never really took one before, and they are going by senority, and not by record -_- *sigh* The guy I was talking about, I was charting, and I saw he refused his meals for about a week....he is going to die because he is starving himself. He is already a skeleton, and he has started to lose sense and track of time. He is always asking what time is it, whether it is night or day. He barley talks anymore... *looks back at recent posts* Geesh, if this isn't the place to come if you wanna be all weirded out and depressed. Weirded out from the strange topics emmited from my shoutbox, and depressed from my posts. *posts one of her favorite pictures to lighten up the mood a bit*

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Tuesday, April 6, 2004

I went to work yesterday, and the guy is still there. He isn't eating, he does't want any baths, he doesn't want anything. He drinks some water and stuff, but that's it. I kinda feel numb about this now.... I think maybe my tummy acts independantly from the rest of me, and is practicing for tryouts for some kind of gymnastics competition, with all the flipping, knoting, and twisting it has been doing lately ^_~ My mind has been spun around in fast circles, and now I am confused with worry. Blah, I wish there was somone I could talk to about this =\

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Rob's poem

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Monday, April 5, 2004

The moon outside is huge, and it lights up the dark woods with an erie glowy light. The moonlight makes things mysteriouse and beautiful ^_^

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Today my tummy is so tied in knots, I am sick =( I guess that is what I get for thinking about many complicated things for a long while. I have too many things to worry about. =\ I am afraid to go to work, for what I might find out, and because I don't feel all that well. I know I can call off, but I don't think I can afford to, you know? =\

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Sunday, April 4, 2004

After an hour of messing and wrestling with Adobe Photoshop, I made a button. Then I come here and find that Tony made me one already. Muchos gracias, Tony ^_^ And my silly hosting program thing isn't cooperating with me, so I will have to show that huge crowd rioting to see my buttons later. =\

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When I think about some situations, my tummy gets all in knots, and I get a funny feeling in it. I dont think that is a bad thing, just thinking about some things that are complicated and kinda scary, ya know? I have been thinking a lot about that certain thing, so I have been feeling kinda happy and out of it, lol. I better snap out of this silly haze before I fill my "stupid" quota, like yesterday ^_~ There is this guy resident at the nursing home, he is really really nice and I have grown very fond of him. What is really really sad is that he has cancer throughout his body, and he is dying. You can tell a difference in his health practically everyday, and it makes me so sad, when I see him like that, and he is in so much pain his pain patch thing doesn't work, and it is the strongest thing available. When I was at work on Friday, I came in his room to check on him and his roomate (We were doing nightchecks and last minute stuffs) I saw him lying all funny in his bed. I went to another nurse and said "I need help with fixing Gene in his bed. He is lying against his rail all funny and stuff." She looked at me in alarm, and whispered in a panicky voice "Did you check to see if he was breathing??" I felt like I swallowed my heart, and ran into the room, with the other girl at my heels. We went in there, and tried to wake him up. He slowly woke up, and I felt better, much much better. I breathed a sigh of reliefe as I helped pull him up in a more comfortalbe position. When the other nurse pulled back his blankets, she had a look of suprise and concern, but I didn't see anything unusual. She quickly left. I leaned over to him and asked him if there was anything he needed. He slowly looked in my eyes, and whispered that he wanted to go. I almost cried, but instead I gave him a hug. When I left, the other nurse pulled me aside, and asked if I noticed that his feet stuck toe-point strait out. I asked what that meant, she said that meant every single muscle is relaxed, and that was a sign of dying. She asked if I saw that his eyes were cloudy, and I agreed. She sighed and said it was a matter of days now. =( I am preparing myself for tommorow at work, I don't know if he died during my weekend off. I know death and stuff is a part of life, but it isn't a happy one =(

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Saturday, April 3, 2004

Some time ago, I bought my siblings a bottle of bubble candy that you eat by dipping the wand in the bottle, blowing through it, then catching and eating the bubbles. They used the bottle many times, but it looks barely used. I figured "Wouldn't it be easier to just drink the stuff?" So I did. And it burned like fire the whole way in my mouth, passed my tonsils, down my throat, and made my tummy feel sick. *~* If that's how alcohol works, then you people can have it! >:0 I got my hair cut all nice, and that made me happy. As do talking to certain people ^_~ Meh, I miss everyone. And I still can't think of a decent screename, either. -_-

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Friday, April 2, 2004

"The Lord poured your brains in with a teaspoon and somebody joggled his arm" I found that phrase to be quite amusing ^_^ (I also found it on Sara's O ^_~) Yesterday, I found that I lost a total of 13 pounds, 2 inches off my waiste and my hips, an overall loss of 8 inches all over my body (Arms and stuff like that. Didn't lose any in the bust area, though -.-), all in less than one month. Just think how much I can lose by next month! *grins happily* The doctor, on the other hand, thinks it is too much too fast, so I am off to get blood work done. lol, I don't know what the big deal is, I am fine ^_^ To my suprise and alarm, I found that my hair is falling out in neat chunks, like they were snipped off. And they weren't. I get a big handfull of hair out of my brush everytime I use it on my hair... <_< I say today is a good day, because it is. ^_________^ *Hugs everyone* Edito: HC, I was going to use your suggestion, the one you said about in the comment below. Lol, I found there are rules against that, about lying to the residents. Unfortunatly, the perverted old guy knows what he is doing, and is very aware of things. He will tell other people, who will tell the supervisors, and well, things will come back to me, and I don't think I want that. I will think about it when I have to help him though. XD

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