Saturday, November 15, 2003

Guys just love...your cheery dispostion! What Do Guys Love About You? (with pics :3) brought to you by Quizilla

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Friday, November 14, 2003

heh...this must be one of those things that causes that flashy disease that makes kids have seizures....0.o

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You have cat eyes. If you're irritated about something, people would automatically know, whether looking in your eyes or analyzing your body language. You may have other subtle ways of letting people know how you feel. You hate to be bothered, and prefer not to deal with so many people. That's what makes you a bit of a solitude person. You can have fun when you want though. That's what makes you interesting. What Animal Eyes Do You Have? brought to you by Quizilla Which Dyre Spirit Are You Most Like? brought to you by Quizilla Youth ?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla You Are The Loch Ness Monster! People have belived in "nessie" for thousands of years.It is said that the sea monster swims in the Loch Ness lake in Scotlnad.Perhaps one of the biggest mysteries out there,many have tried to fake a picture of nessie but none have been officially confirmed. Which mysterious legend are you? brought to you by Quizilla My Style is Casual Whats your Clothing Style? brought to you by Quizilla

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YOU ARE UBERGLOMPABLE! Congrats, for you have reached the zenith of all glompability. You're cuddly, loving, soft, and all those wonderful, glompable characteristics. *glomp* ^__^ How Glompable Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ...a shadow within the heart Who Are You From Within? (Anime Images used) brought to you by Quizilla

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Thursday, November 13, 2003

when i am awake, all my muscles ache. thats not a big deal, except its muscles i don't ever recall overexerting. like my stomach muscles, for example. when i go to sleep, i have nightmares... last night, i woke up in the middle of the night, right after a nightmare. my pillow was wet. i was curled up in a tight ball. i think that explains things. the only things i remember from my dreams are feelings. like fear. lots of fear. shame. sadness. there is a constant empty cold feeling... its the constant backdrop of my nightmares. i wonder whats wrong with me.....

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Wednesday, November 12, 2003

today was the interview. even though i don't care if i got the job or not, i still tried to put some effort into it. i dont think i impressed the manager very much....ah well. i found out i gained weight....and i dont care. heh. i dont care if i gain weight anymore....god, i'm sick. the thought of diabetes (runs very very heavy on both sides) doesnt scare me anymore. i dont care if i get diabeties...and i know if i get it, i prolly wont take care of it anyways.... enough of that. i really need to learn to shut up. has anyone ever felt that they belonged anywhere? i kinda feel like i have been drifting most of my life.....

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Tuesday, November 11, 2003

today.....today i am a different person. or maybe i am the same person, and all the other times, i have been a different person. meh. what i mean is, all day today (and last night) i have been this cynical, grouchy, frustrated, restless, irritable person...i am not usually like that at all. i feel like i have no idea who i really am anymore. now, everything that was important to me, isn't. stuff like finding a job, for example. tommorow, i have (yet another) job interview. i know i am not going to get it. i am just going through the motions. i dont care if i get into any nursing class anymore. now that i think about it, i dont give a crap about anything concerning my future at all. i honestly couldnt care less... and i dont know why. all i really want to do is sleep all day. the other day, i logged almost 14 hours of sleep...i would have slept more, but my mom (forcibly) made me wake up. that night, i went to sleep imediatly. heh. i think this mood has been an observer for a while..i could feel the presence of it for some time. last night, it just kinda showed itself in full.... ...i dont know whats wrong with me, or what to do about it...

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Monday, November 10, 2003

ninja monkeys

oy, i had a weird dream last night.... i dreamed aladdin and jasmine kept taking all these online compatability tests, just to make sure they were "meant to be. " well, they took a test that showed they were as compatable as scrambled eggs with pancake syrup in a pita half...... jasmine became upset and ran away. aladdin proceeded to make a scrambled egg sandwich with pancake syrup put into a pita half. he ate some, went and found her, and made her eat some (i think it tasted like those mc griddles thingys) she them became un-upset, realizing how the combination did taste good together, and they were meant to be. and then..i woke up. *blinky* hmm...methinks frued says lay off the online tests for a while, and not to eat weird things before i go to bed....

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Sunday, November 9, 2003

eh..i dont like to compain, but.... my brother hogs the computer. honestly. he is on for over 6 hours a day, and that might be normal for some of you lucky ducks, but thats not good for a family that has 5 kids that want to use the computer..... anyways, thats not the main problem. if he (my brother) deems you "unworthy" of using the computer (say, you make him mad, you rub him the wrong way, he thinks you didnt do your chores right, or completely) he wont let you on the computer. he will sit in the computer chair, untill its time to go to bed, then he will turn it off. oooorrrr if he has to leave (say, to go to the bathroom) he will do something to it so that the taskbar dissapears, all the shortcuts are gone...all thats left is the background. hitting escape doesnt do anything.... i have no idea what he does, or how to get the computer out of that state. how do you guys think i should handle this? its all just so....frustrating. (if i tell mum, she says "guys, stop fighting...you guys are old enough to stop that by now") yay.... -.-

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