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And I want off this crazy ride *~*
Did you know that anesthesia can mess up body systems and functions? I can honestly say I never knew that, untill very very recently. u_u
I taste blood, or smell it, constantly, since the operation. Whichever it is, I wish it would stop, the heavy iron smell is making me want to throw up. I feel if I throw up, I am going to make something inside me explode that shouldn't.
I feel miserably sick, nautause. I eat once a day, and when I do, I instantly regret I even thought of it. The smell of food, it makes me dizzy with sick. My eyelids arent as swollen shut as on Wednesday, but they are very very very sore, oozing...stuff at every opertune moment. I deal. It is just hard to see, and work wont stop calling, because Creation traffic is making them call in more employees.
"Hello?"
"Aleia, this is Amber, from work. Can you come in today?"
"No."
"Why?"
"I just had surgury done on my eyes, I can barely see."
"Even if you got a ride, you still couldn-"
"You dont understand. The stitches, the blood in my eyes. I can barely see."
"So you dont feel you can work today, at three?"
If she somehow hadnt stumbled upon the tittle "manager", I would have hung up on her. I comforted myself with the knowledge that she has said stupider to me, at many a different time. Why get upset now, over something she cant controle?
lol, its just hard to deal, when your head is pounding like it wants to become one with the beating of your heart or something, and thoughts are swirling around and around, and there are times where you cant tell up from left, or down from right, let alone coherent thoughts that connect and make sense.
But I really really need to go to work soon. I need to get the meager check waiting for me, I need to bring in more, so I can try to climb out of debt.
I just got a letter telling me how much I have to pay for college, or else they wont let me move in. I have to somehow manage to try to pay this amount every semester, or else they are going to make me leave campus.
w00t.
Huh, lets see. Uh, at least, the stuff leaking out of my eyes is clear, and not dark blood red, like I was crying blood, like it seemed before. Or was I? What little I could manage to open my swollen eyes, I saw dark blood red, with a dark brown iris in the middle. Scary. Very scary. o.o;;;
Maybe because I am feeling delirious or something, but I feel so weepy. I have questions that dont have answers, and my thoughts are becomming jumbly, disconnected. I feel I am becoming detatched?
lol, at least what I am worrying over is probably nothing, right?
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