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I am not quite sure just how to start, lol.
Aye, I will start from wherever, and go back and forth from there.
It is hard to type on a keyboard that has Arabic letters on it too, as there are added buttons that make numerouse typos run amok.
And it is very easy to tell that my uncle lives close to the not so healthy projects. Very close.
My uncle is an unfortunate vict- I mean, user, of the AOL program.
I dont like AOL >:|
Not at all, not one bit.
Mhm, I finally arrived in Newark at 9 at night. My brother and my uncle didnt come around untill like 9:15, 9:30. It didn't help that they parked four or five blocks away. X_+
Hey, it was hot and muggy humid outside =\
We finally get home, and my aunt tries to get me to eat. She kept insisting, and made up a huge plateful. When I was done, she commented many times on how I dont eat much at all X_+
o.o;;
*cough*
Mhm, my uncle switched my brother out of the boy's room, and into the girls room. It was so that me and my aunt could sleep in the boy's room, which has two beds, and he could sleep alone in the girl's room, which has a wee little bed no adult can sleep on, and a regular sided bed.
I peeked into the boys room, and the walls were adorned with a Lord Of The Rings poster, and about a total of a hundred DBZ stickers.
I peeked into the girls room, and it was heavy with the theme of Barbie dolls, down to the sheets. I snickered at my brother, while he looked pained. He turned off the light, grimacing, saying it was going to need off a lot.
My aunt guilted me into wearing a headscarf in public, while I am staying here and in Egypt. Just the way she put things bothered/annoyed me. A part of me is doing it to make her happy (and be quiet =X ), and a part of me feels very guilty for not wearing it long before. Heh, maybe Azure wont recognize me now, mhm? =P
And it was brought to my attention, I will blend in completely if I wear it. Meaning, if there are extremists or whatever retards, they will think I was born there, a native and not an American tourist or whatever. Mhm, I wonder if I could come off as a native?
I learned I have an accent <.<;;
So, last night, for the first time in 8 years, I slept on a bed that wasnt 3 inches off the floor.
And that felt really weird.
And I found that heat and humidity in a city is much more unbearable than in the country, it seems. Or I could be imagining it. I dunno.
Today, for the first time in yes, you guessed it, 8 years! I went to a Mosque. I felt out of place, a puzzle peice from a different puzzle. Every single person on there spoke Arabic to each other, even the wee little kids.
And I didnt understand a word of it. u_u
(Has a drive to try to learn it now)
Eventually, I started mingling with the other girls around my age when my aunt re-introduced me to her best friend's kid. I remembered her when she was like 5 or so. It startled me, because she is 14 now, obviously very unrecognizable, with two siblings, I believe. I never met them before, though, her sister looks amazingly like her when she was little. (They dont look much alike now, which is why it is amazing.)
When some of the girls realized who my aunt was, their eyes grew huge and asked me if I was related to my cousins (They listed off all 5) When I said yeah, they told me the oldest, at least, was kinda bad. lol, The way the one girl talked about him, it make me wonder if she liked him or something. *smiles*
Spent 4 1/2 hours at the mall, mostly clothes shopping. Yeah, I was wearing the scarf. At times, I wanted to just pull it off, because it was so hot and irritatingly itchy. Eh, I lived.
I forgot all the hostility that comes with wearing it. Either that, or I forgot that most NJ people are mean, annoyed for no apparent reason, and abrupt. <.<;;
I snuck into Suncoast and bough My Neighbor Totoro =)
But I cant watch it untill I come back home >_<
Mhm, lets see....
Tommorow, we are going back to the mall (I dont wanna buy anymore clothes u_u) and meet up with my aunt from Manhatten, NY. I have to buy a camera, as the (very nice one) I lent my brother for his senior trip kinda got theived. Which is why I dont have it anymore. Makes sense.
And I am going to stay at her appartment tommorow night.
Whee, sleeping in a different state =P
She plans on taking me out to breakfast, then comming back here, to my Uncle's house. Final clean up packing, then going off to the airport, to get a visa, and come in three hours earlier than takeoff (I have to get there a few hours earlier than that, because of the forgoten visa thing u_u)
Aye, it is very odd, because just the atmosphere of the house, of the Mosque, it was untying all these failsafe knots I had tied up tight inside me. I dont quite know what will happen if they are all get untied, but the thought thurougly scares me. =\
I mean, for the first time in (Yes, you guessed right again, 8 years) I had a sense of safety.
And like I told Shin, I ironicly thought that right as I heard a gunshot go off near the house, and soon after, police sirens creepily close. And I still felt safe, even after that. 0.o
Aye, I am an odd one =P
It feels like an odd dream, to be back here, in NJ. I think we are pretty close to where we used to live, Sip Ave, dead end street, closed off by a fenced in graveyard (Dead end street? Closed off by a graveyard? Coincidence? Completely.)
NJ was home, for a long long time, and I oddly dont associate anything bad that happend here with the places itself. Maybe it means I got over that stuff, which is wonderful news. Eh, sometimes it bugs me, gets to me, but I am not angry at anyone per se. I am just angry the stuff happend. Eh, I could go on a long time about this, but I would much rather not.
Aye, and NY too. Brooklyn NY was home, more namely 57 Prospect Park, SW. I wanna visit there, just to look around. It is going to be very hard on me, I can feel it, but I still want to do it. The stuff that happend there still makes me sad =\
I wonder if I will ever have that chance....
Oy, when I come back, I wanna explore Chinatown, just because from what little I have gotten from it, it was very very interesting.
Speaking of Chinatown, right before I got on my train, I noticed an Asian looking girl with us at the platform. She was wearing a bright orange shirt, which is one of the reasons she stood out. Pluse, Asian people are very rare around here, unless they are college students. When the train finally came (Oh yeah, it was an hour late >:| ) the conducter seated us both together. She fell asleep, I listened to music. Eventually, we both started talking, and I found she is 17 (highschool), and was at Juniata College for volleyball camp. She had come from China the year before, and I found that really neat. She said China is exactly like Chinatown, but better. I dunno, I think she needs to make that decicion after getting some life expirience, especially since she told me about how it is against China law to have more than one kid, and when she was 5, her grandparents suddenly had a wee little baby living with them. Untill a year ago, she thought it was a cousine, but was really her little sister. I find that kinda sad, you know? =\ So close and so far away. Neither her or her parents got close to her.
Aye, Sunday, the 11 hour flight. Tomorow is going to go fast, I believe.
I miss you guys =\
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