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today.....today i am a different person. or maybe i am the same person, and all the other times, i have been a different person. meh. what i mean is, all day today (and last night) i have been this cynical, grouchy, frustrated, restless, irritable person...i am not usually like that at all.
i feel like i have no idea who i really am anymore. now, everything that was important to me, isn't. stuff like finding a job, for example. tommorow, i have (yet another) job interview. i know i am not going to get it. i am just going through the motions. i dont care if i get into any nursing class anymore. now that i think about it, i dont give a crap about anything concerning my future at all. i honestly couldnt care less... and i dont know why.
all i really want to do is sleep all day. the other day, i logged almost 14 hours of sleep...i would have slept more, but my mom (forcibly) made me wake up. that night, i went to sleep imediatly. heh.
i think this mood has been an observer for a while..i could feel the presence of it for some time. last night, it just kinda showed itself in full....
...i dont know whats wrong with me, or what to do about it...
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