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Ah haha. I am more 'weller' at this point in time, obviously.
lol
*cough*
Hmm. As I was trying to say before, my mom's cousine's computer has some kinda filter, so I cant view HC's O. Nor Tori's. And some others, to think of it.
It's all craziness, I tell you.
I cant view archives, either, and I am dying of curiosity to what Shin was for halloween. <.<;;
Ah well.
I am not allowed on the computer at my uncles. Long tediouse story. If I do manage to be online there, it is from my magical stealth skills.
Or pure luck.
Whatever is handier. =)
I finally went to Hershey Medical Center today, which is why I am staying with my mom's cousine, in PA (Ha, my mom doesnt know, but if she reads my O, I guess she does now, mhm?)
They think I have something called Linear Morphea. The cause is unknown, there isnt much known about it, and it is uncurable. It affects all layers of the dermis, which means it can't be removed/starts deep. The only thing that can be done about it is to let it run it's course, which could be soon, or keep going for many many years. The doctor thinks it will be a while, at least, for it is extremely active. I am going to attempt to contain it where it is already, with topical medicines and stuff. Tisnt a cure, and it might not do anything, but it is worth a shot. I am ok as long as it doesnt go over my hip or my knee, as if it covers a joint, the joint becomes immobile.
I am worried because it is so close to my hip, and it is going towards my knee. =\
But I always worry, so yea. Nuffin new. =P
I am ok. I mean, I will live. All Linear Morphea does is make the skin it affects thinner, more sensitive, very slow to heal, dark shades [it all looks very yucky and ugly, and that sounds petty and vain =( ]
I have it on my back as well, but I think that part is ok.
It all started when I was 12, so, yeah.
*shrugs*
It could be worse. It could be cancer, which some doctors thought at one point, and I remember the crippling fear I felt from when they said that.
*half smiles*
And I learn all types of abuse run rampant and plentiful on my mom's side of the family.
Heh.
Like it is some sort of genetical inheiritence, to be prone to it.
Today has been a very long day.
But everything is ok. =)
Edit: I had a feeling for quite a while that Bush will win. Do you honestly think he is going to let go so easily, when he wants to finish the mess he started?
The way our Democracy works sucks.
I look at yesterday and I feel like such an idiot. Heh. Good thing I cant use the internet at my uncle's, eh? I dont think I will be on for a long while, even if I could. Let things fade a bit, time for me to forgive my foolishness to a tolerable level.
You know, the level where you finally stop berating yourself in your head. *raises eyebrow*
Drugs are bad for you. *nods* All of them. 'Specially the socially acceptable kind.
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