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For some reason, there is stuff I am still stuck on.
I found out last week that my mom's cousine Mike commited suicide. Of course I didnt find out from a relative; I found out from calling David's mom, who still lives in Three Springs and knew from the rumor mill and obituary combined.
He had a wife and three kids; he commited suicide because he found out a few months prior that he had cancer and the doctors had no hope for him. He had become extremely sick and weak from his cancer, but I dont think that is a good enough reason for that. His wife found out he had cancer from his suicide note.
I knew Mike because he was a bus driver for the school, and he was just a really nice guy. I mean, considering how the rest of his family is, his personality made him a black sheep of sorts. Rarely can anyone honestly say the name 'Detwiler' and 'nice' in the same sentence, without stepping on the borders of "Boy, isn't it nice that the Detwilers aren't here/are gone?"
The ones I am associated with, anyways. I know there are some with the same last name that say they arent related, and they are pretty decent, though many of their relatives that say they arent related exibit the same exact characteristics.
Ok, I'm gonna shut up about that now.
What I was saying before is that I am still really stunned. I mean, I wasn't close enough to him for me to be completely devestated, but I was close enough to care. Sometimes I feel like crying, but nothing comes.
Somone I know says they dont have any sympathy or pity for people who do that, commit suicide. I can't say that, especially if it concerns people I have an emotional tie to, anyone I care about. (Ha ha, that only applies to just about everyone I freaking know T_T ) I dont think I have it in me to cut off emotions, even if it was for the better. I guess I am stupid that way.
The hospital applied to is called St. Mary's Hospital. Now that I remember the name, I have the option of bombaring them with a phone call daily inquiring about my application.
And get yelled at before I even possibly get an interview. XD
Ack. I will find a way. ^_~
What makes a person deep?
I have a secret fear that I am shallow. There are some concepts I can't understand, and it frustrates me so much. I mean, I try and try so hard to try to comprehend them, but there is a block or something, and it feels like I am incapable of doing so.
And in the end, my efforts make me a mess. God am I pathetic.
*cough*
So, anyways...
On Saturday, my aunt from NY is going to take me and two of my boy cousins to the MET (Metropolitan Museum of Art) Saturday.
*does a dance*
I went there with Anatema-Sarah, and that place rocks. ^_^
We're going to go to other little places and stuff, then we are going to sleep over.
Which means I will be on AIM, internet willing, of course.
Yeah. Saturday. Aleia. AIM. ;D
Did you know:
The average woman consumes 6 pounds of lipstick in her lifetime.
The average speed of a house fly is 4.5 miles an hour.
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