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My mom drove my 15 year old sister to the hospital, because she was acting really off, and was finding it really hard to walk. When my mom finally got there, she could barely walk at all, and was very incoherent. She was very very sick, and I dont know how she is.
Her problem was her blood sugar was way way too high, and getting higher.
The doctors found out she has juvenile diabeties.
She is still in the Intensive Care Unit, and I remember people in there arent allowed phones, so I cant call her.
And I am rather angry at myself, as I saw so many signs in her, that there was something wrong. I noticed them, but didnt think they were something as extreme as diabeties, especially since she isnt fat, not at all. I mean, I know that being heavy isnt the only factor, but they are more prone to it. She never was sickly, just I noticed her odd and strange behavior. *smacks head repeatedly*
I had a dream where stuff happend, part of it that my sister died. I woke up crying, and I feel really off. I am still really weak, and I dont know whats wrong with me. Sometimes I wake up because my lungs are starting to burn, because I guess I havent been breathing. I dont know whats happening with my body, its pretty scary and I feel like I need to talk to someone, but I really dont want to. I want...I dont know what I want. I think I want to get out of here, but I know very well that I cant, not now. I sleep so much, and I am angry at myself, that I wake up so late and go to bed relativly early, like 9ish. I still feel so weak, and I feel like a handicapped person, like I am helpless or something. I dont know. *shakes head* I'm really sad/depressed and I dont quite know why.
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