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Today, I finally got my classes done. Went in at 11am, finally got out 4:30pm. Upstairs downstairs up down change buildings gimme this sign that sit here stand there wadaya want?
It wasnt all that bad, but I feel really really really sick now. =(
Somone told my dad about my "lack" of religion. He wrote to ask me if it was true, and if it was, to give lots of details that led to this result. I was really scared, when I got the letter, because the envelope was so light. He has never sent me a one page letter, they are always huge, like 5-17 pages. I was afraid it was...never mind what I was afraid it was. But yeah, his letter was 3/4 of a page, a record since I was 8. Very blunt, brief.
Of course I am going to tell him the truth. But I wonder if the next letter from him will be one where he tells me he doesnt love me anymore, that he doesnt recognice me as his eldest? I figure if his love is that fickle, I dont need it. But I am scared of being abandoned by another parent; I'll prolly be an orphan in every sense of the word except legally. >.<
I wonder why it is that when I think of some of the friends I have that I need, I feel ok about myself. But when I think of other friends that I have that I need, I feel weak and pathetic.
Heh. There is a lot of stuff on my mind, but I cant find the words to release them. I need to talk to somone, but I dont want to.
Did you know:
The first ballpoint pens were sold in 1945 for $12.00.
August has the highest percentages of births.
(Hah. The two youngest siblings were born then. 0.o;;; ) |
