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Heh. So what if I am vague, I need to get this out so very badly. I think about this all the time, and no amount of wondering, stressing, nor crying will give me the answer.
What is it that she has that I dont? Why cant I just let go and move on? How come I get so jealouse of her, when the only thing I envy of her is the amount of attention he gives her, and maybe some of her physical features?
It's been proven repeatedly that he doesnt think of me often, if at all, when I think of him rather frequently. So my feelings are wasted. As are my tears.
And they still are.
*sighs and hugs herself*
Sometimes, my emotions are too worn out for me to really give a crap anymore. Then I crash and burn. And when I finally recover from that, I go in my same silly circle.
Someday, I will hopefully break out of this stupid vicious cycle, and my heart will finally heal. Its been broken and torn so many times, places that have barely healed are painfully done through again.
And I will hopefully be wiser from this. If that's the only thing I get from this, then it might be worth it. Finish going through it now, so I'll never have to go round again. I've already been through so much, I may as well finish it, mhm? Not that I have much of a choice, it'd be like trying to stop a train madly rushing out of controle.
I know I'll live. And you know, sometimes that really isnt comforting.
God am I depressing. XD
Did you know:
There are towns named Sandwich (Sammich. Haha.) in Illinios and Massachusettes.
Lizards comminicate by doing push-ups.
And bees by dances.
Its apparently the healthy way to go, people.
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