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Well, do you!?!?!?!
Honest to goodness, I am going to start making up songs and start dancing to those, instead of trying to bother other people's headphones that seem to be dissapearing as well.
How come no one knows where their headphones are? At least, the people that answer. The oldest cousin makes a point of ignoring me u.u *shakes fist at him*
I have this catchy beat in my head, I need to dance it out.
I have a huge huge problem. I am incredibly happy inside. Blissful and satisfying contentment, because there is stuff happening, stuff is starting to go my way.
Waite, let me finish. The problem here is that this feeling of extreme guilt, sadness, self loathing, a general feeling of "I am a very very bad person", all this is co-existing with all the good stuff.
I think...I dont know what to think.
Babysitting was changed last second from this morning, to in the evening. I am going to tell the math teacher that I have to leave early-ish, so I can make it on time. I might end up babysitting most of the night.
When I get home, I have some important things I need to do, stuff to explain to persons that I hurt. God I hate myself. =\
*tries to calm the raging butterflies in her belly*
I think I need a good cry afore I even step foot into math class >.<
Did you know:
In cells, there are things called Lysomes that clean stuff out of the cell. When I think of Lysomes, I think of Lysol, the brand of cleaning agent stuffs. <.<;;
Helps in the test, I'm sure.
Edit:
Next Wednesday is my birthday.
So...I have less than a week left as a teenager. End of a book, end of a chapter.
...And I somehow managed to fail the easiest math quize of the year. That kinda sorta completely drowns out the fact that today the English teacher read my essay to the class, saying that it was a perfect example of what she had wanted, and that last class she had read parts of 3 different lab summaries, and mine was one of them.
I mean, yeah, those are very good things, but I already knew I am very good at English. There is no use in excelling what you know you are already good at, and sucking worse at what you know you already suck at.
The only good (or bad) thing is that the quiz scores dont count towards the final grade. The only scores that do are the mid-term and the final, the final being this ultimate test that if you fail, you fail the whole course.
.....
That's all I have to say on that matter.
...If I get any more anxiouse, I swear I'm going to burst out crying and explode everywhere, you just watch me.
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