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Hmm. Walked to computer class today.
Ever walk up a hill that is mostly covered with a thin layer of slipery ice?
I have, many a time. And I cant tell a difference whether it's worse going up an iced citified hill, or an iced country hill.
*remembers when she lived in PA*
Siblings: *walk walk* *slide on ice* Wheeee!! <-- (squeal of glee) ^_^ =D
Aleia: *carefully tiptoe* *skid skid* Eeee!! <--- (squeal of terror) >.< >:O
*remembers how siblings slid by, laughing at her, while she opted to trudge through knee deep or higher snow*
Ah, those were the days...
<.<;;
Mhm. About computer class.
I believe I am getting the hang of this silly Excel program.
Which is good. Because midterms are next week.
Seems my teachers might've been overly excited about midterms in the past few weeks.
Teachers: Be prepared for midterms! Next week-ish! VERY IMPORTANT!111!
Aleia: *lightly panicks and plans to study*
Next week:
Teachers: Be prepared for midterms! Next week-ish! VERY IMPORTANT!111!
Aleia and everyone else: ...Didnt you guys just say that last week? 0.o
Teachers: Midterms! Study! >:|
Aleia: *panicks*
Next week comes along:
Teachers: Be prepared for midterms! Next week-ish! VERY IMPORTANT!111!
Aleia: *roles eyes* You guys have been saying that the past few weeks.
Teachers: *gives date of midterms, the actual date being next week*
Aleia: *overly panicks*
Not quite panicking... more like getting anxiouse? I mean, I am not so anxiouse about anything except math class, where the only grade that counts is the midterm. There is a final end of year test that determines whether you pass or fail the course.
And as I found out, I am in that painfully basic class because I dont do well with the mix of math+test.
Wooo.....
Mhm. This morning I felt...odd (Odd meaning I felt my brain was going to melt down/fry, so I was feeling a lot of things at once with a dull tone X_+). I was (actually, I still am) thinking hard about the present (classes, situations, finding a job, ect) and the future (Where I am going to be in 5-ish months, because I cant stay here)
I dont think it helped that I spent a long time searching for schools, searching/applying for jobs/printing out applications and stuff. And dwelling. Yes, dwelling. And pro-worrying.
I wouldnt classify myself as a constant worrier. I only do so when I have something legitimate to do it about.
And using the word worry so much, and saying it every time I wrote it in my mind, now I think it's a really weird word to say. It's become a non-word in my small but constant use. Ack. Now I cant say it properly anymore. 0.o That's weird when that happends. /ramble
Mhm. And I feel so incredibly overwhelmed, because everything feels way too much for one Aleia to handle.
At this point in the past, I would have become antisocial, pull away from AIM and the phone. Inside, I feel it's a dangerous habit to indulge in, when I do that, the way I do it. I dont know, I feel if I am not carefull, I'll lose controle or something, and I wont get out of what I fell into.
If that makes any sense to anyone at all. =X
;;;
But here I am still. And I am ok. =)
I think the best way is to try to handle everything one small part at a time. I am trying to get a hold of things, so I can try to organize it that way.
...I said try! *laughs* I'm still working on it ^_~
So...
I'll prolly end up going home to the bank, to find out what's up with my account *fret fret, worry worry*, home, find something to eat, then lock the bedroom door and dance away some anxiety for a few hours.
Then actually honest to goodness finish my English assignment tonight XD
*cough* And research for the Bio report due Friday <.<;;;
Geez. Being a sucessful procrastinator...takes a lot of careful planning. And good timing. *grins*
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