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I went to the doctor's or whatever yesterday.
She told me she thinks that my migrains are tension headaches. She said that migrains don't occure every day, all day. She said that tension headaches are fueled by stress. Which, I guess, makes sense...
I found all these silvery hairs attached to my head last night. My sister was with me, and now she calls me an old lady, stupid old lady if she is angry. -_-
As I found out, I misunderstood my mom. I have to do dishes when I am off, and it doesn't matter if I have a headache or whatever. When I told her what the doctor said, she asked me what on earth would I have to stress about. When I tried to explain, she told me I am making stress on my self, that there are things I am stressing over that I should be over with by now. She says that all my stress is brought on upon myself. When she said that, I was rendered speechless....It made me so angry, that she thinks that I am making a big deal out of what happend before. Yes, my god, it is a big deal. What on earth is she telling herself that it isn't?!?!?!?
My mom was angry at me this morning, because the dishes weren't done from yesterday. I am honestly starting to not care about chores. My sister woke up grouchy, and yelled at me this morning. I told her to shut up (I was in a bad mood from my mom yelling at me about dishes and whatever, and had no patience for her seemingly unreasonable grouchness) She screamed for me to do a certain something, and it was pretty offensive. She said it right in front of my mom, and she didn't say a thing....so I pinched my sister. Then my mom yelled at me.
I am so stressed, I honestly feel that it would be very ok if I just fell asleep, and never woke up. In a way, it will be interesting to see how else my body is going to react to stress.
Actually, I don't really care anymore, so it doesn't matter. Nothing matters.
Heh, I found out yesterday that certain things aren't as they seem....it hurt, to know that I was at the more extreme of what I thought to be a mostly equalness of feelings. Now I am starting to not care about it, just trying to forget, and not ever bother.
Gotta go to work. >_<
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