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I remember reading these books called A child called It and The Lost Boy, both by David Pelzer.
The books are about things that happend to him when he was just a little kid. His mom became sick mentally, and would toruture him repeatedly. She would withhold food from him, make him drink amonia as "punishment", make him sleep in the freezing cold garage every night, make him do all the chores in a short short amount of time, stuff like that. What really made me cry when reading them was that they are true...It makes me feel so sick, to know there are people like his mom out there in the world, loose and hurting people, hurting little kids who can't do anything about it..
I was kinda feeling run down and sad, and for some reason I remembered those stories, and now I feel sadder >_<
You know that feeling when you are really late for something important, like work or school? You know that if you are late, you are going to get in deep trouble, right? That panicky worry feeling, it has been the backdrop of everything I feel. I feel that feeling for no reason. I have it on my days off, I have it before I try to go to sleep, I have it in my dreams. I think this feeling is the reason why I feel so worn out all the time, so tired of life.
It makes sense, you know?
I feel a bit better now that I think I figured out the reason why I feel the way I feel ^_^ |
