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Bleh. I don't know what is wrong with me today; I just feel all bleh-y and whatever. I am just going through the motions of what I have to do, including college stuff.
I found out today that I lost a total of 20 pounds. I overestimated from last time, and I had only lost 17, 18 pounds. I think I need to do something different, it doesn't seem like I am losing enough fast enough =\
Feeling anxious all the time takes so much out of me, so much energy.
I just want to go to bed and never wake up. I feel like crying, but there aren't any tears left in me. I am so angry, I want to punch something. I am so frustrated I want to scream untill I black out. I want to run away, but there is no where to go. And if I suddenly found the guts to go, I am bound by a tight invisible chain. All of this is swirling around hopelessly indside me, building up intense pressure I can't release. I feel like a pathetic hopeless mess. Go me.
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