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Hmm...I think I want to change my layout. Not sure what to do with it though. Suggestions are welcomed and acutally encouraged!!!
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Many things have changed recently. So much so fast. The way I felt about somone, the way I viewed them, changed very, very drasticly. My job takes a lot of my time and energy *whimpers =(* and my relationship with my brother, I think, is going to be different from now on. Which is a very very good thing, by the way.
<_<
I went to get him from his trip last night, around 12 something in the AM. Mum was working today, and when I finally woke up this morning (Ok, ok, afternoon >:\ ), we had a long long talk, about many many things. He isn't the complete jerk I thought him to be, and he gained a lot of insight as to why things are the way they are, in the situations that I knew of, anyways. I think things are going to change for the better, at least for the both of us (Yeah, he is leaving for college, too). It is a bit odd, though, that I am getting closer to him as we are both going to leave home. Better now then never, so oh well. ^_^
Know what another weird word is?
Endoplasmic reticulum.
I believe it's little things that clean up stuff in cells...either that, or it is a process of cleaning in cells. Biology stuffs. It is neat to say, anyways.
Last night, I learned many things.
Like Senny hates Biology. 0.o
And that Azure...nevermind. *laughes*
And some...new..words. #_@
*cough*
Yes. Intriguing stuff.
I sent somone an e-mail, and I wonder if they even read it. I mean, I could ask, but they don't come online, and calling them could be a bother for them.
I realize I have a fear that I could become a pest to other people. That fear alone could be annoying other people ("Am I bothering you? Am I being a pest? Are you sure? I really don't want to bother you if you are busy....") so....I don't know what I am doing. <_<;;;
*needs good advice*
Things feel more real. Going to Egypt (Vacation!!)feels real. Going to college feels real. I know for a fact when I go to college, it will be the end of my old life, of living here at home with this miserable negative energy. You can feel it all the time, living here. It sucks you in, holds you down, and when you break free for a few days and come back, you always feel dreading, soberness from any happy high you have, knowing you will be stuck here for a long long long while. Going to college is going to end that. Once I go, I never have to come back. My life as I know it will change forever, the end of the old and the begining of the exciting new, the unknown.
I think I could grow to love life.
*hugs everyone*
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