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My poor tummy is all tied up in knots. I am freezing cold and it is hothot outside. I feel all dreading-ish and such. =\
Rwar. I just came from the doctor's office. I found out the reason why my all my dreams have been so incredibly vivid, to the point where I can't tell vivid dream from actual memory is because of the medicine I was taking. lol, you don't know how happy I was to hear that. I was afraid I was slowly going crazy, and next I wouldn't be able to tell living reality from imagination X_+
Enough about that. *cough*
The doctor taking me off of Zoloft, as it has prooved it doesn't work well for the anxiaty stuffs. I got stuck on another drug, one I never heard of before.
I think the reason why my tummy is all in knots and I feel the way I do is because the doctor gave me a sort of ominouse warning about the new stuff. He said that a slight OD on this is highly potent. I mean, yes, duh, if you OD on anything, it is going to hurt you, but with Zoloft and others, the chances of recovery are much much much higher. (No, I am not assuming, the doctor told me that himself.) With this stuff, not even immediate medical attention can give you a very good chance.
I mean, not that I plan on doing anything like that, no no no. *shakes head quickly* But it just makes it seem much more..dangerouse. Risky. =\
And yes I know, every drug you take is risky, illegal, legal, OTC, but this seems moreso. Very much moreso.
When I was driving yesterday, this guy in front of me was driving a good piece off of the road, on the grass. All of a sudden, this thing flew out from under his tire, and bounced to the side of the road. I pulled over, and saw it was a little baby bunny. I remembered when one of our cats caught one, and tried to give it to us. It was still alive, but it was pretty hurt. I took care of it, treated and bandaged its wounds, and it recovered very very well. (Shhhhhh...I spoiled it with lots of baby carrots from the fridge and plenty of clover from the field. :D
Mum doesn't know about the baby carrots. *sneaked the carrots* <.< =X )
I was thinking that maybe it's legs got run over or something. I have seen that done before. I could help it, if that was it.
When I got there, I just had this bad hopeless feeling. I bent over, to get a closer look at the baby bunny. The thick heavy smell of blood hit me, and I felt funny. I took a quick glance, and knew it was a lost cause. The bunny was shaking uncontrolably, its guts were torn apart and strewn about. Somehow, it's one eye was on the road. The other eye was still intact, fear flooded, and was blinking at me. It was making funny noises.
Rwar. I felt so helpless =(
Yes, I was very upset driving home.
No, I didn't cry. I felt like it went beyond that.
I think...I dont know what to think. I do know that many would say I over react to things like that. Yes, it was a gruesome scene, but it tore at me. It also doesn't help that in the past month, the rabbits at our house were just suddenly dying. Out of fifteen baby bunnies and adult rabbits, there are two adults left. Both aloof and mean-ish.
My mom says "It's just a rabbit. Just an animal. These things happen. It's a part of life."
I dunno, it might be silly and stupid, but I don't see things that way =\
Yes, it is a part of life, but...
Bleh.
I dunno. >_<
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