Friday, August 19, 2005

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Here is my story, I couldn't find the edit version of it sorry. I have chapter two edit which will be realsed tommorw

It was three years since my mom died. I still haven’t been about to take it. Today was my high school graduation; no one would be there for me. I didn’t want to go to school today. All my life I felt like a failure and today was worst of all days. Alone I walk to school; it was a time to think. Think about would it could have been if things didn’t happen. I also though about what could happen, if only dreams did come true.
“Dude, hurry up!” exclaimed my friend. “It’s the last day of school, just let what happened in past go for one day.” I take my friend, push him right into the locker, in anger, I told him “What do you mean forget? How would you like it if you saw your mother died in your own hands?” Everyone in the hallway was looking at my by now. I gently loosen the grip I had on my friend. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said that.”
“You’re right! You shouldn’t have” I start to walk away from my friend going to my next class. As I walked, blank stares were upon me. I felt embarrassed.
“Legendary, these last years you’ve changed…” said my friend, all I was able to hear as I walked away. I felt like I was about to have an emotional outburst, for many years it seemed I was keeping me feelings in. Others have said I was getting worse, that I have changed. It was also said by one of my teachers that I was losing control of myself. I didn’t care.
I sat in dismay, I couldn’t believe myself. What did I just do? Did I always do this? While everyone was signing each others yearbooks, I was just sitting there thinking. Thinking how I could escape from my life; I needed out of this place.
“Legendary, what’s wrong?” my teacher said, while he was walking towards me.
“Nothing, just go away!” I yelled.
“I’ve known you long enough to know when something is bothering you.” He said in a gentle comforting tone.
“Look you wouldn’t understand, now just go away!” I shouted “I don’t need you or anyone in my life anymore.” The clamor in the classroom instantly stopped. The teacher walked away from me, it had seemed he felt ashamed that he couldn’t help me. As he went back to his desk, I quickly ran out of the classroom. I shoved the door as hard I could, a loud slam could be heard from down the hall due to all of the impact. I couldn’t handle myself anymore; everyday I wished I was someone else. All the pain inside of me leads me to my knees. My friend gently touches the back of my shoulder and says “Legendary, if there is something bothering you can tell me.” She said in a comforting tone. “I’ve been your best friend for years, I can keep a secret. You know I can.”
“It’s nothing, please leave me alone Katrina.” Katrina was my best friend since I was in seventh grade. I considered her as my closest sister; I needed her as my sister. She had a smile on her face everyday; I never understood how she was able to do that.
“Legendary don’t try to tell me it’s nothing.” She said in a parental tone. “You wouldn’t be here crying if it was nothing.” While crying I managed to say.
“You don’t know how it is to wake up everyday without anyone to wake up to.” I paused then also murmured “Everyday before going to school I wanted to tell someone ‘I love you’, I can’t, and God has forbidden me to. I have no life, I am better off without it.” As I finished my sentence more and more tears run down my cheekbone.
“Legendary! How can you say that?” Katrina exclaimed “I need you. My life wouldn’t be complete without you.”
“Life isn’t fair Katrina; I am a perfect example of that.”
“You know what Legendary?” Katrina exclaimed in anger. “You need to cut your shit out! Your graduating today, you need to be happy, alright?” She gently lightened her tone. “Now lets get you home so you can graduate, you’ve waited eighteen years for this. Don’t throw yourself away.” Katrina held out her arm. I looked at stared for awhile, I took her hand and got up. She hugged me, and holding my hand we walked out of the high school.

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