Saturday, January 31, 2004

Hands by Jewel
If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all okay
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands

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Friday, January 30, 2004

Graduation

I just read Karen's Xanga, and realized, I, too have been thinking about graduation. Oh, it's going to be so hard. I have six reasons.

Brittany Denney. Oh boy, this isn't going to be easy. I seriously don't want her to leave me. I remember when I first met her in drama, and our little 'stalker-stalkee' joke. How the past hurts.. We've had a great time together, although we don't see each other often, we talk a lot. About anything and everything. She's like my sister - although Jeremy says she's not my sister until she beats me up. lol. I'm about to cry just writing this, but oh well. I love her to death, and I don't know what I'm going to do, not being able to see her face everyday.

Stephen Sollars. He's such a sweet guy, and kinda cute too. ^_~ Anyways, he's been there for me, throughout my 'coming out' process, and has given me great courage, although he doesn't know it. I'm proud of him - I remember when he was first in drama, although I was in sixth grade. Right away, Desireè took him under her wing, and since then, I've always admired him. I hope he lives out his dreams, and I love him to death.

Brian Marshall. Oh, what a cool guy. He's nothing short of the perfect man, and Natalie is so lucky. He's the best there is, and he's not the "preppy-jock-sexy" type, either, although he is goodlooking. Although we haven't been very close, he's been a sweetheart to me, and nothing less. He's one of my idols, as he does everything he can at his best, and accepts nothing less.

Natalie Wallace. What a gal. She's so nice, and funny, and everything else you could think of that's really.. good. I see her and Brian having a great future together. She's so sympathetic, when she sees I'm down, or having a hard time dealing with someone/thing. She's so open-minded, and that's what draws people near.

Jeremy Profit. Turtle! Of course, he's a great guy. Always calling me 'Big Guy', heh. Stephanie is such a lucky girl. I've never seen him do anything that I would call bad, just like the rest of the people I'm listing. He's always smiling, or just enjoying what he's doing, and I really like that. He's so sweet.. I wish he wouldn't go.

Terry Rhea. Sigh. My first love, and at times, I think he's my last. He's so funny, and such a sweet heart, willing to do anything for anyone. No wonder I fell in love with him, right? Well, there's so much I could say about Terry, but there's not enough space here. Just know, I love you, even if you don't love me.

These people, plus some more, have made my freshmen year the best year of my life. Without them, I don't think I would've got out of the hole that I was in for so long. I wish each and every one of you a pleseant life ahead of you - remember, every time you look in the mirror, you're beautiful because you're the person who has inspired so many others.

Love, Zach.



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Thursday, January 29, 2004

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Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)


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Sunday, January 25, 2004

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Wishing It All Away
Sigh.

I didn't get a part in the play. I didn't even get chorus. Karen, did, though. Lucky her. I'm kind of mad, not at her, but at Gina. I know I didn't get picked because she doesn't like me. I just know it.

I feel so bad now, like I've failed myself now. I don't know why. I just do. It hurts. I might be melodramatic about this, but still. Some people say "there's always next year", and I know there is, but I don't want to wait that long. This is the last play for seniors - and I want to be in it with them. I hope I get crew at least.

I can't stop thinking about Terry. It's like it's happened all over again. I don't know if I can take this anymore. It's burned a hole in my heart, and I'm about to fall through. Nothing seems to be going my way anymore, for one reason or another. Maybe I'm cursed.

I find myself thinking I wish he'd just graduate so I wouldn't have to see him anymore. I hate thinking that, but it's true. It'd be better I didn't see him. But maybe I want to see him..
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