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Birthday • 1989-11-07 Gender •
Female Location • San An-freaking-tonio Member Since • 2005-08-25 Occupation • I make the world go round. Real Name • Just call me Lemony.
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Achievements • I would/could/should put some form of list containing various achievements that I have somehow miracously obtained throughout my lifetime but I choose not to. ^^ Have a nice day! Anime Fan Since • Around the age of seven. Favorite Anime • Loveless, Sukisyo, Gravitation, DNAngel, Trigun, FLCL, Wolf's Rain, NGE, .hack//SIGN, YGO, Final Fantasy, Gundam Wing, Kyo Kara Maoh, Angel Sanctuary, and the list goes on. Goals • [Insert goal here] Hobbies • Sleeping, drawing, writing, sleeping, DDR, sleeping, reading, graphics, sarcasm, toast. Talents • I can count to ten! By MYself.
myOtaku.com: Lemony Slash
Welcome to my site archives. 10 posts are listed per page.
The sky once blue
Is covered in grey clouds
Bringing small droplets of cold rain
Trees, they sway in the wind
Here I sit in front of my laptop
A hot cup of tea steaming next to me
Enjoying the gloomy weather
I love it
This is the weather that makes me stay in bed
Sleeping
Holding on to the dreams that make me happy
I love that too
The current object of my affection
Is in fact nothing tangible
Just the memories I have with you
Created in my head
Perhaps they aren’t true
Still, I love them the same
Time holds no grudges
But nevertheless I hold grudges against time
When the day comes
I know the memory of you is always there
Waiting
I love that most of all
Gloomy weather is good for something. Did you know that? For what you might say? Rain! Inspiration is a silly thing to let pass by, and for that very reason, I have gained access to a story in my head that has been lodged in between a rock and my imagination. The poem above is the first of it. Hopefully I can get all of the details worked out this week and have a hard outline to work with. One day I wouldn’t mind making it onto a manga, though I don’t really have the art skills to do so. It’s a solid story, and I’ll try to run with it. So there’s a little sneak peak on Past Memories.
Siris: Am I in it?
Definitely *pause* not.
Siris: How nice of you. *turns to walk away*
*glomptackle* Just joking, will see, ne?
I’ve been waiting for inspiration for a few weeks now, though, it more of discovery and understanding. When I write a story or fanfiction it always has something to do with my life or something I’ve learned. As lame as that might sound, it helps me get through this crummy life of mine. And no, I don’t need such comments as, ‘That’s not true’…et cetera, et cetera.
Something about me: I love to understand the workings of the human mind, and ways to use that knowledge to my advantage. And yet, I have no desire to pursue such a career professionally. I don’t talk a lot about me or my past because I feel that people will use that against me or something. I wouldn’t say it’s a fear as I fear things far worse, but my mind works on so many levels that most people wouldn’t understand, save a select few. In fact, writing this is not difficult, per se, just bothersome. So, that’s a little peak inside what I think.
Yesterday, meaning Monday, January 16, 2006, I had my first sleepover at my house here in San Antonio. I must stay that it was quite enjoyable. My friends are awesome, and they make me laugh so what gets better than that. Let’s see, it all started with Seth, Sethos, and myself pulling a small prank on dear Maki. Seth hid in the closet with a white mask on and a wig that resembled
Sadako, and Sethos was under the bed. I told Maki that she was the first to arrive and that the others would be arriving a bit late. So as we enter my room, *cue creepy grudge noise*, Maki’s all WTF; quite fun. Afterward we hung out, watched porn, and did other various teenage activities.
Siris: I don’t remember porn.
So we didn’t watch porn, that’s a different occasion.
Siris: Um, I’m going to raid the fridge. *scoots away in rolly chair*
Don’t touch my weenies!
Well, that was awkward. Rawr, I have to return to school today. Yay for taking speech. I hate speeches, but it’ll be out of the way possibly allowing me to graduate at an earlier date. If I really think about it, there’s nothing I looked forward to seeing at this sorry ass school everyday, except seeing the few people that do not annoy the crap out of me. I loathe everything about this prison of a school. If only I had an enchilada. *sigh*
"I always waste my time just wondering
What the next man thinks of me
I'll never do exactly what I want
And I'll sculpt my life for your acceptance
I feel forgotten
Feel like rotting"
By: If you don't you, then you should be ashamed of yourself.
Mood: Standoffish yet sleepy with a hint of boredom.
So, just finished taking my BCIS final. Woo! Not really, I got a 85. Next up is World Geography. Piece of cake.
I had a C in English 2 Honors, but got a high A giving my a 80 and all As and Bs on my report card. To think that earlier this year I was stressing over grades. Next semester I want to get all As like the old 2nd grade days, ya know. Ha, I remember in kindergarden where we used to get Es for excellence. Lame, nyes?
There are donuts across the table from me for this so called class 'party'. I think I will steal them and give them to the hungry. I am Ninja Hood, stealing from everyone to give to nins around the neighborhood.
Give me your souls. *maniacal laughter*
Siris: Shh...Your use of silly language and such is ruining my morning nap.
Nap? You've been sleeping for the past 14 hours.
Siris: That's what happens when you get really old.
I seriously doubt that I want to live past the age of 3000.
Siris: I like grape. *sleep*
One of these days I'll find a way to open a portal to another dimension. Until then I will be forced to sit on my lazy teenage ass and stay on the computer.
Finals are almost over. I can't wait. Today was fairly simple as far as finals go. Just had a 42 (Answer to everything) question math test and lunch. Lunch was pretty empty and eventless unless you want to talk about creepy guy splewdging (sp?) all over car windows and licking it off. No, didn't think so.
A-hem, hokai, went to see Memoirs of a Gayshow. Ginger is my favorite character.
Note: I love the actual movie Memoirs of a Geisha, and in no way am I dissing it. Kay, good.
Siris: You are very unique.
Hm, I choose to ignore that. If I'm unique, then what does that make you?
Siris: *grabs mp3 player and puts headphones on*
That's what I thought.
I really wish they had something to stick into your head that would right down what you wanted to type. It would help a.) Lazy people and b.) People who think about way too many things at once like moi. It would make writing fanfiction so much easier.
So, I'm having my first sleepover at this location on Sunday. Woot for that. You're all invited. Just joking, it's VIP only. Hopefully it'll be fun. Wait, it will be fun.
Arrrr, I have BCIS and World Geo for finals tomorrow. Teh suxzzorz.
Found a new song to annoy my mom with. Let the games begin!
Lemony doesn’t feel up to posting and I don’t blame her. Hat-ib. She’s had a lot on her mind for the past…well let’s just say a long time. I don’t feel I should tell you, as she is a very private person when it comes to her thoughts and emotions.
Oh dear. *places a box of tissues near Lem*
Anyway, life’s been quite difficult as of the year; no where seems to be a place to escape the brisk pace. Wetekh.
*long pause*
Oh right, sorry. Um, I think I’m supposed to post a song. So, I’ll post one of my favorite songs:
Niki FM – Hawthorne Heights
Let's go down now
into the darkness
of your thoughts
hurry up now
we're waiting for
us to fall
I fall to pieces now (I fall to pieces now)
a broken mirror (I fall to pieces)
in your life
The silence in black and white
falling forward as she walks toward the light
I KNOW
I'm outside of your window with my radio
I sleep with one eye open so I can
see you breathing (I sleep with one eye open)
I follow your chest home
Until I, (so I can see you breathing)
I can see you, I can hear you breathe in exhale
The silence in black and white
I KNOW
I'm outside of your window with my radio
I KNOW
I'm outside of your window with my radio
KNOW KNOW
I'm outside of your window
with my radio (so I can see you breathing)
I'm outside of your window
with my radio (so I can see you breathing)
I'm outside of your window (one eye open)
with my radio (so I can see you breathing)
I'm outside of your window with my radio
you are the only station
you play the song I know
you are the song I know
I haven’t updated, in like…forever. Why? It’s because I wouldn’t want to express all my EMOtions to you all. This month is very hectic for me, with all the things to be done, bought, sewed, learned, fixed, lost, forgotten, attended, visited, et cetera. Sucks ass; the stress and sleep deprivation is also high this week. Ah, just so much to do. Here’s my month’s schedule:
Sunday 1st – Get over hangover XD
Tuesday 3rd – Start school Ugh…
7th and 8th – Went to Dallas. It was very boring as there is nothing to do there. I lived there for twelve years and hated it very much. Bad memories yet had a lot of good ones too. I must say if I didn’t have any good memories than I probably wouldn’t be writing this now. *sigh* We saw this weirdo Star Wars obsessed geek who was obviously on crack. He was decked out in the craziest outfit; I mean he was wearing a cloak for crying out loud. Speaking of crack, if you do crack you can breathe fire…like a dragon…rawr.
9th thru 13th – Finals, Shot me now.
14th – Wanted to go to tea gardens, but must drive to Houston.
15th – Possible sleepover
16th – Chores
(More school)
21st – Baby shower; we’re going to watch porn. O_o
22nd – Birthday party to attend
(skool)
USHICON GO!
(School…Ushicon’s over…)
Have a winter guard comp.
And the weekend after that, start dog proofing the house.
And the weekend after that get dog.
And I could go on, but I won’t.
Don’t seem like a lot, this is coming from an otaku who very much so enjoys sitting on her ass and/or sleeping.
Speaking of sleep, I got to sleep today after the final, but not very long because there was this stupid guy at the door who wouldn’t keep pounding because he for walked out cause he didn’t feel like taking the test and the teacher locked him out. Ha, the stupid people I deal with every day. Freakin’ morons.
Siris: Quite busy, yes? *twirls hair aimlessly*
Ya think. *throws pillow*
Siris: *huggles pillow*
That's my pillow you know and I'l-
Sirirs: *sleep*
Even he's tired. -__-;
So this is how my years supposed to go according to astrology. com:
You won't easily forget 2005, Scorpio, for a host of mostly positive reasons, and 2006 will be much the same. In fact, right from the start -- thanks to a burst of energy straight from Jupiter -- you'll be active, busy and amazingly passionate. The best part is that just about everyone (including and especially the powers that be) will be not only open to your ideas, but also eager and anxious to know what's on your mind and in your heart. For the first two months of the year, you'll be able to talk just about anyone into just about anything -- even if you've already tried and failed in the past. Keep that in mind, regardless of whether your aims are personal, platonic or professional. Basically, you'll be logically lethal until the middle of March; even then, the odder the situation, the easier it will be for you to present it to anyone and everyone as perfectly normal. Right around the solar eclipse at the end of March, you may even be able to talk someone into sponsoring a venture that will put you in charge of your own business. Needless to say, finances won't be terribly difficult for you to manage for most of 2006 -- your superiors will be practically in love with you, and even more infatuated with your work performance.
Speaking of infatuation; be careful during September and October. A 'casual' flirtation could turn into something far more serious around that time. Of course, if you're single and the feelings are mutual, forget being casual -- be intense! (It's your specialty, after all.) If you're happily attached, be even more intense. Your partner will be delighted to get closer to you, to listen to your deepest thoughts and secret emotions, and to share their own, as well.
In addition to giving of yourself, you'll want to give back in other ways toward the end of the year. If you're inclined to spoil your loved ones with material things, especially during December, think of what your mailbox may be filled with come February. Instead of objects, fill your life and the lives of everyone around you with enriching experiences.
As for the Chinese year:
The Snake will practically meet with no trouble this year. They'll charm numerous types, and can experience many love adventures. Moreover, their levelheadedness and wisdom will bring them the admiration and esteem of all. However, they should beware of any tendency toward indecisiveness. They will like to run several risks, but things will not always end up turning out all right as if by magic if they continue to do so. If they rely too much on their luck and continue to flit about ceaselessly, they could run the risk of finding themselves in complicated or ambiguous situations that might prove embarrassing or disturb their interior peace.
La-di-da! It’s almost time for Ushicon, and I get more anxious as the days pass, yet also annoyed with the added talk at school about the happenings. What a great way to waste time though…thinking about the con and stoof! Woo! So I guess I’ve gotten 10 minutes closer to Ushi by writing this.
Today, English was actually entertaining. The person behind me and I went off on how our old schools are a million times better than good ole Warren. Great times.
The song of January:
In My Place by Coldplay
In my place, in my place,
Were lines that I couldn't change,
I was lost, oh yeah.
I was lost, I was lost,
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed,
I was lost, oh yeah.
And yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Yeah, how long must you pay for it?
Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
I was scared, I was scared,
Tired and under prepared,
But I wait for it.
And if you go, if you go,
Leave me down here on my own,
Then I'll wait for you, yeah.
Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Yeah, how long must you pay for it?
Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Oh for it
Sing it please, please, please,
Come back and sing to me,
To me, me.
Come on and sing it out, now, now.
Come on and sing it out
To me, me
Come on and sing.
In my place, in my place,
Were lines that I couldn't change,
I was lost, oh yeah.
Oh yeah.
Pic:
Well, don’t know when my next post will be so until then,
Live long and prosperous. -_-v
*remembers orchestra final tomorrow*
@_@ *dies*
I hate the class.
I’m also passing it.
^_^b
Fact: People say I draw well.
Opinion: I say I can’t draw for beans.
Quote: “If you were gay, I’d love you anyway.”
[warning]This post contains some of my recent thoughts. My thoughts come from my head. Oh what a frightful place to be.[/warning]
So far this year, for me, has just been odd and out of sorts. It's like, where did the years go? I'm almost 17, and already dread facing the harsh reality of life and adulthood. Most the adults I know say my maturity level amongst other things is that of an adult. I pride myself in my maturity, though I truly do not want to grow up, unless you look at it as getting away from the responsibilities of being a teenager ruled by the cruel rulings of parents. Life used to be so easy, if you really think about it. Middle school and the years before were filled with simple school assignment, and a close circle of friends. You know, friends that you would hang out with every weekend and see every day in class. Know it’s hard to plan a sleepover or even a hangout date. Growing up has just become a cumbersome halt at life. Everything was just so ‘fun’ and worthwhile; playing outside everyday was a must, staying out until just past dark finishing the last game of kickball, the whole shebang. Ha, I even remember the group and club systems. Me, I was always second in command to my childhood crush. Those were the days. I’d give almost anything to go back.
Siris: You forget the dismal times of pain, shadow, and anger. *sits down Indian style*
Well, if I wanted to make this an emo post I would’ve. Don’t you have something better to do, then sit here and listen to my memories?
Siris: They’re mine too, and I don’t like you in these moods…You don’t talk to me as much.
*huggles* Yeah, but I couldn’t get rid of you even I tried. =)
I love Gackt, a lot, especially his December Love Song, which I listened to a lot during the holiday.
The evening light, coloring the night's busy avenues
Down the street brings back memories of you
Now I am watching as lovers pass me by
Finding your shadows in the views of my eyes
Now I am here, all alone
Remembering the time we used to laugh (together)
In the fall of the cold, I still think of you
Wondering if you feel the same
Save your smile for me
Even although you cried for me
Remember me, and love me always
Love, and smile for me
Hold on to all that we had
Remember me, and love me again
I'm so depressed, living a quiet life now
There is no one here with which to hold hands
Or protect me from the cold
Feeling like this loneliness will tear me apart
I'm waiting and looking for your voice
To get me out of the dark
Snowflakes fall like the tears
They’re running down my face
I wanna hold you just one more time
I think of you night and day
Wondering if you feel the same
Being in the silence of the night
Fall into my hands and I'll hold you so tight
My kiss will guide our missing hearts
And tell me you'll love again
Save your smile for me
Even although you cried for me
Remember me, and love me always
Love, and smile for me
Hold on to all that we had
Remember me, and love me again
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Very tired I am
Beckoned by sleep
I drift away
Slowly
Quietly
Gone
Whilst the day end
Dreams are born
~Short Poem by Shun
I can’t believe I actually have a time limit on the computer. Newfound rules founded by parents this week. I hate having to keep looking at the clock. Usually I check and it’s like three in the morning, but not anymore. Off by ten on school nights, and one on the weekends. Teh suckus maximus.
Today’s pic:
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^Ginji from Get Backers! Ban is the s3cks though! |<3|
So, back at school and loving it. *cough* Yeah...riight. *cough* Everyone seemed to get on my last nerves and the piles of homework made the stress and problems flow back. What is there to do? Sit back and sigh. *sigh*
[sinister]I must say that I really would have liked to rip several peoples heads from their shoulders and play soccer, but that must stay in my head I'm a afraid.[/sinister]
Ahem...well aside the fact that I have five and a half months of [censor]shit[/censor] to deal with. The peaceful three day break of Ushicon this month draws ever near. I can't wait. Almost done with my costume, just have to cut it all up and pin it. ^_^b *rocks I chair* Salvation here I come.
I'm tired and now have weird dreams of burning things. o_o Wonder why.
Amongst the many lyrics stuck in my head, Coldplay seems to be a favorite.
"Ideas that you'll never find,
All the inventors could never design.
The buildings that you put up,
Japan and China all lit up.
The sign that I couldn't read,
or a light that I couldn't see,
some things you have to believe,
but others are puzzles, puzzling me.
All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
if you could see it then you'd understand,
ah when you see it then you'll understand… "
Hm, when's the last time I posted a picture. Here ya go:
I would be all Happy Freakin' New Year, but I really could care less. Never got the whole hype for a new year. So, wanna know what I did? Sure you don't, but I'll tell you anyway because 'I think I can'.
Parents had friends over, and everyone parked their asses on the couch and drank the night away. I was the designated driver for most of the night, but around 11:30 I was all, "Screw all of this." I ended up grabbing a bottle of wine and hording it off to my room. Got drunk and listen to music and drew. Yep that's it. I was bored, my parents wouldn't let go anyway, and I was in a bad mood. Next day, I was extremely hung over, but fortunately so were my parents and we went out and ate our way through big burgers at Whataburger. Yum.
So that was it...lame, yes?
So, it looks like my layout for this month will be FLCL. Woo! Don't worry if your choice did not make it as I'll probably do it in the next few months.
Crap, I still have to read that book we got over break.
I'm so happy! 
