Time: 8:48
Music: December Love
By: Gackt
Mood: Reminiscent
[warning]This post contains some of my recent thoughts. My thoughts come from my head. Oh what a frightful place to be.[/warning]
So far this year, for me, has just been odd and out of sorts. It's like, where did the years go? I'm almost 17, and already dread facing the harsh reality of life and adulthood. Most the adults I know say my maturity level amongst other things is that of an adult. I pride myself in my maturity, though I truly do not want to grow up, unless you look at it as getting away from the responsibilities of being a teenager ruled by the cruel rulings of parents. Life used to be so easy, if you really think about it. Middle school and the years before were filled with simple school assignment, and a close circle of friends. You know, friends that you would hang out with every weekend and see every day in class. Know it’s hard to plan a sleepover or even a hangout date. Growing up has just become a cumbersome halt at life. Everything was just so ‘fun’ and worthwhile; playing outside everyday was a must, staying out until just past dark finishing the last game of kickball, the whole shebang. Ha, I even remember the group and club systems. Me, I was always second in command to my childhood crush. Those were the days. I’d give almost anything to go back.
Siris: You forget the dismal times of pain, shadow, and anger. *sits down Indian style*
Well, if I wanted to make this an emo post I would’ve. Don’t you have something better to do, then sit here and listen to my memories?
Siris: They’re mine too, and I don’t like you in these moods…You don’t talk to me as much.
*huggles* Yeah, but I couldn’t get rid of you even I tried. =)
I love Gackt, a lot, especially his December Love Song, which I listened to a lot during the holiday.
The evening light, coloring the night's busy avenues
Down the street brings back memories of you
Now I am watching as lovers pass me by
Finding your shadows in the views of my eyes
Now I am here, all alone
Remembering the time we used to laugh (together)
In the fall of the cold, I still think of you
Wondering if you feel the same
Save your smile for me
Even although you cried for me
Remember me, and love me always
Love, and smile for me
Hold on to all that we had
Remember me, and love me again
I'm so depressed, living a quiet life now
There is no one here with which to hold hands
Or protect me from the cold
Feeling like this loneliness will tear me apart
I'm waiting and looking for your voice
To get me out of the dark
Snowflakes fall like the tears
They’re running down my face
I wanna hold you just one more time
I think of you night and day
Wondering if you feel the same
Being in the silence of the night
Fall into my hands and I'll hold you so tight
My kiss will guide our missing hearts
And tell me you'll love again
Save your smile for me
Even although you cried for me
Remember me, and love me always
Love, and smile for me
Hold on to all that we had
Remember me, and love me again
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Very tired I am
Beckoned by sleep
I drift away
Slowly
Quietly
Gone
Whilst the day end
Dreams are born
~Short Poem by Shun
I can’t believe I actually have a time limit on the computer. Newfound rules founded by parents this week. I hate having to keep looking at the clock. Usually I check and it’s like three in the morning, but not anymore. Off by ten on school nights, and one on the weekends. Teh suckus maximus.
Today’s pic:
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^Ginji from Get Backers! Ban is the s3cks though! |<3|
Love and Peace!
Shun.
