[WARNING - this post contains the true events of Lemony Slash's life and the inner workings of her brain. She does not, I repeat, does NOT, request pity or false sympathy. If you do not have something to comment make sure it has meaning. It would be a terrible thing for her to get mad because people once again produce false emotion. That is all.]
Time: 11:02 PM
Music: All Of This
By: Blink 182
Mood: Hurt...
-----Lyrics-----
With all of this I know now
Everything inside of my head
It all just goes to show how
Nothing I know changes me at all
Again I wait for this to change instead
To tear the world in two
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you
Use me Holly come on and use me
We know where we go
Use me Holly come on and use me
We go where we know
With all of this I feel now
Everything inside of my heart
It all just seems to be how
Nothing I feel pulls at me at all
Again I wait for this to pull apart
To break my time in two
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you
Use me Holly come on and use me
We know where we go
Use me Holly come on and use me
We go where we know
She's all I need
She's all I dream
She's all I'm always wanting
She's all I need
She's all I dream
She's all:
I'm always wanting you
Yeah I'm always wanting you
I'm always wanting you
Use me Holly come on and use me
We know where we go
Use me Holly come on and use me
We go where we know
She's all I need
She's all I dream
She's all I'm always wanting
She's all I need
She's all I dream
She's all:
I'm always wanting you
Yeah I'm always wanting you
I'm always wanting you
At all again I wait for this
To feel the home
To shake the sky in two
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you
-----Lyrics-----
+Bad Day+
Today was pretty crappy in more ways then one, and I held it in all day. Wanted to breakdown so bad, and it didn't help with what happened last period. Thanks to the stupid sub and people in my class, I walked out. I wanted to keep walking, but the stupid teacher was like come back before I write you up. She gave me this bullshit explanation of understanding and what-not. Bull. Shit. I hate this school so much.
Sometimes I don't feel like working and all my teachers get on my case about it. "You're always a good worker, don't stop caring because it's the end of the year." Bullocks!
If I have a headache chances are a.) I'm in a pissy mood b.) I'd rather be sleeping. or c.) Both. And you know that everyone has to bug me when I feel like crap. That being the utmost cause leads to my painful affect - sickness. Physically...mentally...all was possible. I ache...I can't sleep...I'm just tired! >.<
Siris: *stirs in sleep*
He's been like that all day. Poor thing.
I'm just tired of all people and all their crap that comes with them. People are all so fake and I'm sick and tired of putting up with them. I just want them to leave me alone! *screams*
This problem has been escalating for the past two weeks now, and still I'm putting up with it. Barely. Sometimes, I really think about just taking off and disappearing for awhile. It's not like people would care. Argh.
I hate being like this. I THEN people love trying to barge in on me and be all 'what's wrong'. If I don't say more then two words to you in a day, you have no right to ask me that, like you'd actually care.
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Til then I walk alone
All so frustrating...you know. It's like people say they care and all, but do they really? You can't prove that, and things that aren't factual might as well be forgotten...Trust can only go so far...as well as wearing a mask. Today was one of the hardest days for me in terms of keeping my mask on. I almost broke down. The only thing that kept me from breaking down was the fact that I know that I have Siris there to talk to as weird as that might sound to some of you. I can always go to join the blanket pile with him and just be lost.
Siris: *hugs pillow*
*sigh* I went on way more then I thought I would.
I need to lay down before I fall down. Hope everyone is fairing far better than me.
Have a good week, that way it'll replace my Monday.
Lemony Slash <33
