Current Time : 12:30 PM
Current Music : Quit Playing Games - Backstreet Boys
Current Mood : *listen to toilet flush* Wha?
Current Food or Drink : Water
-- Lyrics --
Baby...Ooh...
Even in my heart, I see
You're not being true to me
Deep within my soul, I feel
Nothing's like it used to be
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could
So bad, baby
Quit playing games with my heart
Chorus
Quit playing games with my heart
Before you tear us apart (with my heart)
Quit playing games with my heart
I should've know from the start
You know you've gotta stop (from my heart)
You're tearing us apart (my heart)
Quit playing games with my heart
I live my life, the way
To keep you coming back to me
Everything I do
Is for you
So what is it that you can't see
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could
So bad, baby you'd better quit playing games with my heart
Chorus
Quit playing games with my heart
Before you tear us apart (with my heart)
Quit playing games with my heart
I should've know from the start
You know you've gotta stop (from my heart)
You're tearing us apart (my heart)
Quit playing games with my heart
Quit playing games
Baby, baby
The love that we had was so strong
Don't leave me hangin' here forever
Oh baby, baby this is not a lie
Let's stop this tonight
Baby, ohh, quit playing games
Nah nah nah nah nah nah nah
Nah nah nah nah nah baby
Nah nah nah nah
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could
So bad baby
Quit playing games with my heart
Chorus
Quit playing games with my heart
Before you tear us apart (with my heart)
Quit playing games with my heart
I should've know from the start
You know you've gotta stop (from my heart)
You're tearing us apart (my heart)
Quit playing games with my heart
Quit playing games
Nah nah nah nah nah nah nah
Nah nah nah nah nah baby
Nah nah nah nah
Quit playing ganes with my heart
With my heart, with my heart
With my heart, with my heart
-- Lyrics --
Today pretty much sucked. Sucked hard, but you know what, it still sucks. I'll try not to let it bother me though. I can tell tonight's going to be a long sleepless night, but that's okay because I'll finally get to spend some much needed time with my friends:
Bishojo Tenshi,
Kawaii Seth, and
muun purinsesu. I need a break from life, and hopefully tomorrow (today if you want to be technical will be fun).
Here's the basic jest of my day:
I got to school tired as hell. I didn't get much sleep the previous night and my morning was oddly strange. o_O I woke up yen minute before I was supposed to catch the bus, so I grad whatever clother and ran to the bus stop. Along the way, I could of sworn I saw the shape of a wolf disappear around the corner, and some other weird things. I got on the bus and realized that my iPod didn't charge last night so I would have to use it as least as possible. That's hard for me when I listen to it every class period. It's the only thing that keeps my sane. Come to think of it, maybe that's why I had a shitty day.
SO, I got to school, and my twin had thankfully provided a source of caffeine which helped keep me awake, but that's where it went downhill. I don't know why I let something so small get to me, but it did. I rather not say what it was because I feel very very stupid for letting that affect me so. Anyway, I don't think anyone knew, but I was crying. On top of that, I had to make my way through the massive crowds of people and stuff. It was horrid.
Then TAKS came, sitting through hours of test is not fun. I finished within the first twenty-five minutes so had to sit there for a good two and a half hours. I listened to my iPod for fifteen minutes and decided to save the rest for the ride home otherwise I would have went crazy. >.> I almost broke down in the middle of TAKS but it's not like me to cry in front of people.
The rest of the day sucked...
Siris: No, it was interesting to say the least.
Yeah, you skipped. Thanks, the first time I skipped all year...I was trying to get through a year without doing that. I heard you had an interesting conversation and I really would like to know what about!
Siris: Oh, nothing really. Just...our top ten favorite desserts.
I find that hard to believe.
Anyway, I got home and cried...hardcore. I love my friends...a lot. They mean the world to me, you know. Even you guys on the internet. It seems that every friend I've had in the past has been false so I've started to believe that maybe it's me, and maybe I don't deserve the friends I have, like they'd be so much better without me, you know. In all honesty, I'm a horrible person, and I can be very hard on myself. When I break, it's in a million pieces and it really ruins my life. I'd rather not go there though. I love them, and sometimes I hate them. I want them to be my friends forever, but what I want has never come true and I don't know what's real of fake anymore.
Okay, so I went to work. It was okay, but I have to close all weekend and next weekend. My parents don't like me closing and told me to tell them to change my schedule. I just hope everything works out. =D
My parents...I really think I hate them. I first I thought that I would get over it, but I really would just like to leave. I wouldn't mess them. I'm tired of their shit and wanting me to be what they want me to be. I sorry but that's not going to happen. They want me to work and get As and have no life, but I will not let them do that to me. So a big F.U. to my parents.
Wow, I have a lot of other stuff to say, but I think I'll break it up and post the rest tomorrow.
--Lemony
