Thursday, September 7, 2006

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Current time: 5:12 p.m. Current song: The Gift - Angels and Airwaves Current mood: Annoyed. --Lyrics-- There’s a strangest excitement today If you’re awake then you’re welcome to hear I’ve got a gift and it blew me a way From the far eastern sea straight to here Oh God I feel like I’m in for it now Its like the rush has gone straight to my brain But my voice is as lonely as loud As I whisper a joy of this pain And suddenly You’ve done it all You won me over In no time at all And now I’ll stop the storm if it rains I’ll light a path far from here I’ll make your fear melt away And the world we know disappear If you ask I will do what you say All we have is this night to get through With a twist of your smile your own way You left me all up in arms and confused Oh God I feel like I’m in for it now And how this kiss would be wonderfully vain I swear I’ll melt if you touch me at all But then I’ll ask you to do it again, and again And suddenly You’ve done it all You won me over In no time at all And now I’ll stop the storm if it rains I’ll light a path far from here I’ll make your fear melt away And the world we know disappear I’ll stop the storm if it rains I’ll light a path far from here I’ll make your fear melt away And the world we know disappear Oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, now Oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, now Oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, now Oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, now And now, I’ll stop the storm if it rains I’ll light a path far from here I’ll make your fear melt away And the world we know disappear I’ll stop the storm if it rains I’ll light a path far from here I’ll make your fear melt away And the world we know disappear. Make the world we know disappear. Make the world we know disappear. Oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, now Oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, now Oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, now Oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, now --Lyrics-- Another post. It's amazing. I haven't posted two days in a row in what seems like an eternity. I can't help but rant away in myOtako. Not that I really enjoy ranting because I feel that I am often wasting the time of many people. Like I care, right. xD You're going to sit here and listen to me whether you like it or not! :D Kay, moving on. My life sucks right now. For many reasons, but for once this is proving to be harder to shake then it usually is. Not that I really care, but I get tired of being on the verge of tears. It's like fuck. So, let's take this from an analytical view: Reason #1: School is extremely stressful! I thought I knew what I was getting myself into when I decided to take the course load that I did, but I was wrong...as usual. It's too fucking much. I can't handle it. I know it's supposed to die down by next semester, but that is v e r y far away and I tend to be very pessimistic about the future. Often times, I know what I want...just getting there is crazy. I'm going to be dropping one class, but I don't think that will really effect much. I know the stuff, I just have no motivation or real focus this year (maybe because I hate the school). I'm trying my best to just take one day at a time, but I don't know. I feel kind of stupid after failing stuff that should be cake for me. :\ Which brings me to the sub-reason of reason number one - college. I know it's a ways off, but I'm already freaking about it, and no seems to really understand why. Is it my fucling fault for wanting to have things go smoothly? Jeebus. I've always wanted to go to UT at Austin, but why? Because the have a good football team and my dad went to school there. Next, I decided that, since moving back to Texas, it would be a good idea to go somewhere close and with my friends - Texas State. I want to be a graphic art major so going to an art school would seem like the best bet for me. They happen to have really good art programs in the Chicago area which would benefit me scholatically and socially as I have a lot of missed friends up there. I just don't know what to do. I know I have to pick a school for me, but that's a lot harder than it sounds. I have found a solution. :D Either college I go to, I can still use summer breaks to go spend time elsewhere. Sounds good, but costly. I'll make things work. Reason #2: I hate just about everyone right now, some more than others. Everyone just getting to me. This morning I blew up in one of my friend's face, of course for a stupid reason, but I found it valid enough to say some pretty crappy things. I fault really bad afterwards, but not like I could do anything about it. I snap at people for no reason and think some real mean stuff about my 'friends'. I don't know what the deal is. I just need to take a break from them I guess. Reason #3: Oni-con. I've been looking forward to going to this con for awhile only to find out that the plans I thought were correct to be false leaving me without a ride. Meh, oh well. Not like I needing to spend anymore money, especially now that I'm saving up for a trip during winter break. They'll have fun like I'm not even there anyway. Reason #4: I miss my old life. The one I had in Naperville. That's probably because I'm talking to all my friends back up north, which is great, because they still rock my socks ten a billion. I miss someone a lot too. :\ It sucks. Central is just one of those kick-ass schools that you would love to go to and be apart. Some of the teachers are wack, but the school is great, and so are most of the people. Sure every school has it's fair share of drama, but not like the perpetual death trap they have here. No wonder there are so many goddamn emos here. [/no offense] I do almost anything to go back, but oh well. On the bright side of things, like I said before I'm going up for all of winter break to see my friends and hopefully some snow. :D I get to stay with Kitti too. :3 I miss my modnar friends and it will be fun to just hangout like we did before I left them all there. I'm trying my best to save, but I have a spending problem. xD I'm working on it though. I still have $300 buck so I think I'm good. I just can't wait. My birthday's almost here!!!! 60 days yo!! I think. *ponders* Yeah. I'll be seventeen and finally be able to see all the goddamn rated-R movies that I want. :D Well, that's like two really good things against 4 and a half really bad things, that's probably why life sucks, but I hope it won't be like that forever. I just need a weekend to myself. To sleep and do nothing constructive. Pssshhh, not with all this homework. So, my question to you is: Do you think Lemony will survive, or end up in the luney bin? Thanks for reading. <33333 Lemony

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