Saturday, December 23, 2006

Welcome Home
yep, after 12hrs and 52mins on two different flying metal boxes, I am home.

the flight was almost unbearable, but thank goodness I had sleeping pills. alot of things ran through my mind. like how my family back in England is doing, and how my family here back in the states will react to my return from my assignment in London.

and how Ash is feeling, I worry for her.
I've moved on. weather I like it or not.
I was so happy when I got to see my brother, at the airport. I cant wait to see the rest of my brothers tommrow morning. ^_^

I dont want to sleep anymore.

I want the rest of my family here.

If we could have everything we wanted, life wouldnt be so interesting.

Now: Tears Dont Fall
Artist: Bullet For My Valentine
Album: The Poison
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

one year
wow, the year has come and gone faster than a speeding Lancer. it's had its ups and downs, people have come in gone, and things happened weather we liked it or not.

but what I dont understand is why does the final week come slower than semi thawed honey? well, I've been packing up and finishing up academic stuff. this week, the world is trying to eat me alive.

mom has fallen ill, from the cold I contracted from school, which I have recovered from.
and to make it worse, the biology teacher hasnt been able to get to my papers.
by next monday I will move into TLF, and that will be my last day of school, I will have to say goodbye to so many people. it wont be that hard, but the hardest goodbye will be to the girl I cant stop thinking about.

I will be disconnected from the internet in two days, but I will try to update my journal as much as possible.

have a safe, and joyful christmas everyone.

Now: Feel The Rush [Brian Walker's Need For Speed Rework]
Artist: Melody.
Album: The Nervous Return
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Tuesday, December 5, 2006

wtf,
my PM box says I have one unread message, when I try looking for it.....I cant find it! I must of deleted it. it's going to bother me.

Now: The Prayer
Artist: Bloc Party
Album: A Weekend In The City
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hey look, leon confessed!
yes, I just did. [confessed my feelings to one girl]
it looked to be a paragraph long.
my hands are quivering.
I cant think straight.
my anxiety's kicking in again.
I just hope I wont be
losing sleep over this
there are more pressing manners at hand
like my finals; and turning all my work in
but this is going to probably stick in my mind for quite sometime.

damn emotions.

Now: Hunting For Witches
Artist: Bloc Party
Album: A Weekend In The City
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Sunday, December 3, 2006

stop thinking about yourself for a second.
A Soldier's Christmas


TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS,
HE LIVED ALL ALONE,
IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF
PLASTER AND STONE.


I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY
WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE,
AND TO SEE JUST WHO
IN THIS HOME DID LIVE.


I LOOKED ALL ABOUT,
A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE,
NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS,
NOT EVEN A TREE.


NO STOCKING BY MANTLE,
JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND,
ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES
OF FAR DISTANT LANDS.


WITH MEDALS AND BADGES,
AWARDS OF ALL KINDS, A SOBER THOUGHT
CAME THROUGH MY MIND.


FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT,
IT WAS DARK AND DREARY,
I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER,
ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY.


THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING,
SILENT, ALONE,
CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR
IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME.


THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE,
THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER,
NOT HOW I PICTURED
A UNITED STATES SOLDIER.


WAS THIS THE HERO
OF WHOM I 'D JUST READ?
CURLED UP ON A PONCHO,
THE FLOOR FOR A BED?


I REALIZED THE FAMILIES
THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT,
OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS
WHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT.


SOON ROUND THE WORLD,
THE CHILDREN WOULD PLAY,
AND GROWNUPS WOULD CELEBRATE
A BRIGHT CHRISTMAS DAY.


THEY ALL ENJOYED FREEDOM
EACH MONTH OF THE YEAR,
BECAUSE OF THE SOLDIERS,
LIKE THE ONE LYING HERE.


I COULDN'T HELP WONDER
HOW MANY LAY ALONE,
ON A COLD CHRISTMAS EVE
IN A LAND FAR FROM HOME.


THE VERY THOUGHT
BROUGHT A TEAR TO MY EYE,
I DROPPED TO MY KNEES
AND STARTED TO CRY.


THE SOLDIER AWAKENED
AND I HEARD A ROUGH VOICE,
"SANTA DON'T CRY,
THIS LIFE IS MY CHOICE"


I FIGHT FOR FREEDOM,
I DON'T ASK FOR MORE,
MY LIFE IS MY GOD,
MY COUNTRY, MY HOME."


THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER
AND DRIFTED TO SLEEP,
I COULDN'T CONTROL IT,
I CONTINUED TO WEEP.


I KEPT WATCH FOR HOURS,
SO SILENT AND STILL
AND WE BOTH SHIVERED
FROM THE COLD NIGHT'S CHILL.


I DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE
ON THAT COLD, DARK, NIGHT,
THIS GUARDIAN OF HONOR
SO WILLING TO FIGHT.


THEN THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER,
WITH A VOICE SOFT AND PURE,
WHISPERED, "CARRY ON SANTA,
IT'S CHRISTMAS DAY, ALL IS SECURE."


ONE LOOK AT MY WATCH,
AND I KNEW HE WAS RIGHT.
"MERRY CHRISTMAS MY FRIEND,
AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT."


This poem was written by an unnamed Soldier.

and it touched me alot, being in the service and all, so this christmas, just think about the men and women out in remote outposts risking their lives for our freedom, and pray that they come home safely.

happy christmas everyone.

- Fury

Now: The Prayer
Artist: Bloc Party
Album: A Weekend In The City
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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

A Weekend In Wales - Postmortem Analysis
this past weekend I went to wales:

I really didnt like it, all we did was go castle seeing and shopping, not too fun on my part, but the cool twist was I didnt stay at a five star hotel, instead I stayed in a cabin in the middle of nowhere, with accomedations that were like basic training. most of the other campers [who were all older than me, mind you] didnt like it, I dont think, a majority of them I could stand, but there were two of them, who were about in their mid thirties tried to be younger by being loud and obnoxious, it just really irritated me. The scenery was quite interesting though, that's all I have to say about that.

everything else was a hit or miss type of thing, the other campers? a miss. shopping? a miss. [for the most part, the only things of interest were a hat, a shirt and a golfer's mug for my father] I also thought of the trip, not just as a bad camping trip, but as a rehab trip, it made me think of certain people and what would happen to one of them after my leave, I also thought about the relationship between me and her, but it just put more mental anguish on my being, so I've put those types of things on hiatus til further notice.

on a final note: Yes, juilan, was right, some of the girls did look good.

hold fast hope,

Lt. Fury

Now: The Prayer
Artist: Bloc Party
Album: A Weekend In The City

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Monday, November 20, 2006

Vegas Con And Update
I LOVE VEGAS! why? other than the loud neon and bright noises, the cashman centre will be the place for this year's biggest otaku gathering ever. for more info: click here

I mean wow, I get to meet most of the people that keep the boards going and such. plus we wont be too far away from the casinos and partying. ^_^ me and my mates are going, but there is one problem....

what's Leon Fury without his Tifa Lockheart?

I'm taking any invites for a Tifa Lockheart cos, I dont want to go with the girl back home, she's a little odd to say the least.

________

in other news: this has been going on for quite sometime now, I think I suffer from musically induced Synesthesia cos when I stream music from my psp or hard drive I keep seeing these weird colours, they change with every song....I mean it's really hard to describe, like I be seeing dark orange and like sky blue while listening to Dance, Dance by Fall Out Boy or while listening to Sugar [Jagz Kooner Remix] by Ladytron I'll see snow white and dark red...it's weird. But yet it facinates me, and for the record: I AM NOT ON DRUGS.

- Leon

Now: FEEL THE RUSH [Junkie XL Remix]
Artist: Melody.
Album: Need For Speed Carbon Soundtrack

2148 hours.
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Sunday, November 19, 2006

schedule.
I've just realized something. I'm booked :

17Nov - 19Nov: A Weekend In The Bases
23Nov - 26Nov: A Weekend In Whales
1Dec - 3Dec: A Weekend In The Kitchen
8Dec -9Dec: A Weekend In Ipswhich

in between those weekend dates, I've got alot of packing and exams to take, I just hope I cant let things go and pick up where I left off without too much trouble.

I've also realized that I really dont have too many actual friends. either here or back home in the states. courtney tells me that it's a good thing.

I cant belive how many people I was aquanted with. those bastards. Right now I think I only have four true friends here in England, which can be deemed sad by some, but I really dont care. Other than that I'm very excited to come home.

- Fury

Now: Glasgow Mega-Snake
Artist: Mogwai
Album: Mr. Beast
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Friday, November 10, 2006

two more years
this song describes what I'm going through:

Two More Years
_{By Bloc Party}

In two more years, my sweetheart, we will see another view
Such longing for the past for such completion
What was once golden has now turned a shade of grey
I've become crueler in your presence

They say: "be brave, there's a right way and a wrong way"
This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever

Two more years, there's only two more years
Two more years, there's only two more years
Two more years so hold on


You've cried enough this lifetime, my beloved polar bear
Tears to fill a sea to drown a beacon
To start anew all over, remove those scars from your arms
To start anew all over more enlightened

I know, my love, this is not the only story you can tell
This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever

Two more years...

You don't need to find answers for questions never asked of you
You don't need to find answers


Dead weights, balloons
Drag me to you
Dead weights, balloons
To sleep in your arms

I've become crueler since I met you
I've become rougher, this world is killing me

And we cover our lies with handshakes and smiles
And we try to remember our alibis
We tell lies to our parents, we hide in their rooms
We bury our secrets in the garden
Of course we could never make this love last
I said of course we could never make this love last
The only love we know is love for ourselves
We bury our secrets in the garden


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Friday, November 3, 2006

02Nov06
this is what happens when you have nothing to do in biology, and we didnt even get in trouble! ^_^ enjoy

bello!....lee......and leah (me)...hehe

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