Sunday, August 6, 2006

   damnit.
I'm heading out to scotland on friday and.... I DONT WANT TO GO. why?? the following saturday is my birthday. WHY THE FUCK WOULD I WANT TO BE I ANOTHER COUNTRY WITHIN ANOTHER NATION ANYWAYS?! I MEAN IN ALREADY IN ENGLAND, WHAT MORE COULD I WANT? geh, old people are too hard to understand. >_<

it's only 1610 hours and I'm heading up to bed.
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Wednesday, August 2, 2006

diagnosis
Unrequited love is love that is not reciprocated, even though reciprocation is deeply desired. This can lead to feelings such as depression, anxiety, and mood swings such as swift changes between depression and euphoria.

Symptoms of depression
According to the DSM-IV-TR criteria for diagnosing a major depressive disorder (cautionary statement) one of the following two elements must be present for a period of at least two weeks:

Depressed mood, or
Loss of interest or pleasure in nearly all activities.
It is sufficient to have either of these symptoms in conjunction with five of a list of other symptoms over a two-week period. These include:

Feelings of overwhelming sadness or fear or the seeming inability to feel emotion (emptiness).
A decrease in the amount of interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, activities of the day, nearly every day.
Changing appetite and marked weight gain or loss.
Disturbed sleep patterns, such as insomnia, loss of REM sleep, or excessive sleep (Hypersomnia).
Psychomotor agitation or retardation nearly everyday.
Fatigue, mental or physical, also loss of energy.
Feelings of guilt, helplessness, hopelessness, anxiety, or fear.
Trouble concentrating or making decisions or a generalized slowing and obtunding of cognition, including memory.
recurrent thoughts of death (not just fear of dying), recurrent suicidal ideation without a specific plan, or a suicide attempt or a specific plan for committing suicide.
Other symptoms sometimes reported but not usually taken into account in diagnosis include:

A decrease in self-esteem.
Inattention to personal hygiene.
Sensitivity to noise.
Physical aches and pains, and the belief these may be signs of serious illness.
Fear of 'going mad'.
Change in perception of time.



Depression in children is not as obvious as it is in adults. Here are some symptoms that children might display:

Loss of appetite.
Irritability.
Sleep problems, such as recurrent nightmares.
Learning or memory problems where none existed before.
Significant behavioral changes; such as withdrawal, social isolation, and aggression.
An additional indicator could be the excessive use of drugs or alcohol. Depressed adolescents are at particular risk of further destructive behaviours, such as eating disorders and self-harm.

One of the most widely used instruments for measuring depression severity is the Beck Depression Inventory, a 21-question multiple choice survey.

It is hard for people who have not experienced clinical depression, either personally or by regular exposure to people suffering it, to understand its emotional impact and severity, interpreting it instead as being similar to "having the blues" or "feeling down." As the list of symptoms above indicates, clinical depression is a serious, potentially lethal systemic disorder characterized by interlocking physical, affective, and cognitive symptoms that have consequences for function and survival well beyond sad or painful feelings.

that's all for now.

just letting you guys know what type of physiological hell I'm going through

and....

I AM NOT EMO

thank you for your time.

- Fury

Now: Plans [Replanned By Mogwai]
Artist: Bloc Party
Album: Silent Alarm Remixed
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Sunday, July 30, 2006

1 week and 5 days

Hello, I am Mr. Fury's secretary, bob.
He's only got 12 days. So, that means I
will tell you what he's done so far:
- saw Mission Impossible III. [it sucked]
- ran into old friends.
- still planning his party.
- having rather nasty visions, of
classifed nature.
That is all for now. He will be back
shortly.

Now: Romantic Rights [Jessica Wesker's Love From Below ReEdit]
Artist: Death From Above 1979
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Sunday, July 23, 2006

   deadlocked leon.
ugh, I was going to take my two closest friends out to london, but finding out they have preformulated plans. v______v

I thought of renting out a place to myself, but knowing that I have few friends in London, I'm at a deadlock.

any sugesstions guys?

we've got less than 20 days.
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23July06
Hi guys. just to let everyone know the next couple of days will be very odd ramblings and such, dont be scared to put your input in, for I may need it.

to sum it up in short: the next few days, I wont "be here".

______________

Leon Fury.
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Sunday, July 16, 2006

   16July06
hey guys, I gto back from the barrio fiesta.

most boring party, by far.

it was a carnival with camping grounds.

yeah some of the rides were ok, IF I DIDNT FALL ASLEEP ON THEM.

and I got bombarded by a bunch of british kids possibly thinking the same thing:

OMFG I'M HANGING OUT WITH AMERICAN, I AM LIKE UBER 1337NESS SEIRIOUSLY.

-____-'

the only cool part [which might gross out a certain percentage of my readers] was when I forgot to use the restroom and had to make a stop in a desolated area to go behind a frieght container.

they tell me there was a security camera, I didnt care, when nature calls, she wont leave me alone.

yeah, then I talked with my ex. the odd thing was I wanted to get back together with her.

I think I still do.

we broke up because she found out that I liked smith and that another girl ikes me, but it isnt proven that I like her back.

I really want to get back together with her, but the other half says no.

ugh, confusion will ensue for the next couple of days.

-________________________-'

sometimes I hate being such a flexable and easygoing guy.

now: Wash Away Beneath The Shadows
artist: alkaline trio
album: tony hawk's american wasteland soundtrack
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Monday, July 10, 2006

   10July06
what's going on guys?

I've broken up with a girl I had an internet romance with that lasted three years.

I've found out that a girl back home in Vegas, likes me, and vice versa, then found out that she has a boyfriend 2000 meters from veags

I've finally accepted that smith no longer likes me either in a romantic or friendly way whatsoever, and that I should do the same.[which I am. no joke, I'm dead serious]

I've gotten back into my love of cars again, by purchasing need for speed most wanted for the xbox, and taking part in a fast and the furious-esque rp at the OB.

I'm going to a barrio fiesta in London, on saturday, basically[and possibly] the biggest gathering of filipinos in London, but in order to get there I have to take a train from ely to london, and from there take the tube to central london *prays that 7/7/05 doesnt happen again* then party my brain out.

^____^ happiness is in an eggroll.

and that same saturday will be my sister's 25th birthday!

I hope I'll be able to "talk" with my niece ruthann. she was born on 10May2006.

So I, Leon Alexander Fury, am an uncle.

^___^

and I came up with two nicknames; The Doctor [due to the fact that I'm pretty good at physics] and.....

this one'll sound weird...









whitey [due to the fact I am the palest filipino in my group of friends back home in vegas]


that's all that's happening right now.

see you guys again, when I feel the need to update my journal.

now: Compilements [Shibuyaka Reworking by Brian Walker] / Tulips [Diana Alexandra's Shock Mix]
artist: bloc party
album: silent alarm reactivated

- Whitey
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Monday, July 3, 2006

   july
hey guys! how's it going, I hope you are all well.

well june's made her mark, she didnt leave anything nice though.

'cept for three parties.

only one of them were good, it was in ipswhich.

the host of the party works with my mum in the housing bussiness.

well it was their daughter's 10 birthday. I had to get out of the house at 0700 hours.

the first thing we did was go to some cardiologoist, but it wasnt for me.

then we left, the hopsital and headed out to ipwhich.

we got lost numerous times, that was the fun but boring at the same time part.

I ended up screaming the directions the irishman was giving to my mum half the time. she said it helped.

it took us two hours to get there.

I finally got there and ran into the backyard and lounged around.

since all the kids were british, they found it weird that an american punk was there.

then I went back into the house, and met this girl, by the name of rio, we're a year apart in age, the partygoers speculated that we liked each other.

stupid fucked up akward silences.

I dont like her, well yah as a friend, but not as a girlfriend.

we were caught jumping on the trampoline, and all the little kids gave us weird looks and stuff.

I didnt do much at that party, just lounged around and jumped on a trmpoline.

then we drove back home which only took an hour.

I checked my inbox, and to my suprise, the girl that likes me back home in the states, mailed me back.

^___^

I was so happy, but it took her eight days to mail me back, because her comp. broke down and she too lazy walk from her place to the library which was recently built.

if you dont know who she is look at my OB sig.

she's really nice.

I'm thinking of taking our relationship as great friends even farther, due to the fact that smith is fed up with me.

only four more months until I'm out of this hell hole.

then my consciece wont be so full of guilt, cos that girl in my sig, is going to the same school I am going to!

^____^

ok, everybody that's all for now, have a killer indie day weekdend!

Now: Like The Angel
Artist: Rise Against
Album: Revolutions Per Minute

Leon.

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

   hello again.
as we all know, I've been talking about my trip to france, I just got back.

Let me tell you; London's 20x better than Paris.

Most of the four day trip, was sightseeing trips.

Lous XIV's castle: boring.
Louve: +16
Tower: +20
Hard Rock: +6000

intial: 6000

grand total: 12036.

which translates to: not too fun.

O_O I got to drink wine too!

that was the best part!

+6000

new grand total: 18036

which translates to: a little entertaining, but most of the trip being a bore fest.

plus I got sick out there too.

>_<

great way to start my summer, huh?
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Thursday, June 15, 2006

   yay.
Finally school's over!

woo.

I was trapped in physics for four hours today.

I didnt care cos half the students called in sick, or ditched after the second half.

at least my physics report is finished, so no worries.

wait.

one.

are they still angry at me?

no.

two.

am I still angry at her?

I dont know yet.

I'm leaving to Paris tommorow.

for that one place.

woo.

in other news.

I'm recolouring my hair.

white

grey

or grey blonde.

I want your guys opinons!

and I'm also getting contacts

crimson red.

clearwater blue.

......

I can not think of another colour, I want your suggestions.

eh, not much else.

I'm going to try to enjoy my summer hoilday.

Later man!

Leon Fury.
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