Friday, February 16, 2007

   confusedd-_-

Oh my. I don't know what to do about this boy. Every other day I uhhg I like him then I don't. Our personalities are so different, we've dated before and had problems. &sometimes he says things that seem really mean, but he doesn't understand that he's being mean. He's sweet sometimes though. BUT he doesn't act like a boyfriend at all. He's never held my hand or anything like that and I feel like I'm the one macn lol.. I don't knowww. This is something I'd need to talk to my friends about. BUT they're weird. 1. Dorothea is always busy doing something, and even if I do get the chance to hang out with her it's always like I forget these things and we I don't know go do crazy things. 2. Caty, my friend since I was 4, well she's one of those women rule the goddam world girls that, I don't know, go nuts and make you feel like hating boys and their ways.. (HAHAH).. 3. Cassy, Cassy is immature and is just going through that phase of thinking the word penis is funny as hell, I love her but she's not good to talk about things with. 4. Carly, she is a new friend and we've never been deep in conversation before so I don't want to tell her my problems. 5. Chad, well he's very good at talking to sometimes, but I think he gets annoyed when I talk about boys to him. 6. Hons, well he has problems of his own &he's been busy lately. 7. Samantha, well I've tried with her but it's always strange. I don't like complaining to people . I keep it inside I guesssss.

BOTTLE UP AND EXPLODEE (boom)

Blah I feel like I always write about him on here.

In other news:
My mother is a jerk. Just so you know she's a drunk. She's a pathelogical liar. When she is drunk she tries to tell me all kinds of awful things about my dad that I don't want to believem she doesn't quit until I cry. Hmm Lately she has not been home one night, she's completely lost her mind I think sometimes. She's leaving to get a job in florida. Usually when people ask me about it they're like oh god I'm sorry blah blha blah.. But it's like maybe if she goes there she won't be as exposed to the crummy bars around here. She doesn't understand that her drinking effects people around her. I hate alcoholics. &boys are always teasing me for not drinking. Blah, sometimes it'll make me feel bad, I've drank before but it's dumb to make a big party scene of it. Anyway, she's suposedly leaving early next week but I don't know.. but we were supposed to go shopping together today and she bailed on me and made up all this stuff. &I had to yell at her in front of Zach and his college friend drew (I was on the phine with her) and I felt like an idiot. I didn't care about the shopping it's just I'm trying so hard to get along with her before she leaves so there are no cold goodbyes but I cannot help it. She makes me so mad. Any plans we have are canceled because she has to go out drinking or sometimes she's too hung over. UHG I can't believe Zach and Drew had to hear me argue with her.

I have a new favorite song^^ It's called "Snails" by The Format:D


Snailss see the benefits the beauty of every inch of lifee oh why why are you so quick to kiss :D

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