Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Do you ever get the feeling....
I want a sub from publix.
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Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Dawgy
We're putting Brandy down next monday
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Sunday, February 3, 2008

We want what we can't have
Infront of you is a door. Walking through it would bring you face to face with your greatest fears. Making you look into your own hell. But once on the other side of the door is your greates desire. You'll be given the one thing that would truly make you happy. Would you go through the door? Is it worth it?

The drills and jack hammers are making my skull bleed. But the blood is not mine. It belongs to those that inhabit me.
Have you ever fallen into your own mind and the hole you fell through closed before you even hit?

Sitting with nothing on your mind. Clouds are blocking every thought. That would be a wonderful thing right now. To lay under the tree in my head and look up at the stars. But who will stargaze with me?

Being locked in your own insanity is only fun if you have the key.
I lost that key a while back ago.


You are a creation of yourself. What is reality? What is actually there and what has been formed by your mind? I can't tell anymore. I have lost then line and am stuck on that bridge.

I wanna pull an escape out of my pocket and fly through the grains of sand.
I have let Time erode my vision away.

I can't remember seeing my shadow. The poles have formed a box.
The wolves have turned and need to get rid of the weakest. They chew on him like bubble gum.


I can no longer stand this feeling of sinking inside myself.
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Monday, January 21, 2008

There's never a dull moment when you're running with scissors
You gotta love Bogie. So far this year we've had about 3 lockdowns, a bomb threat, and bullet holes have been put in the window of my history class. And yes it was by a gun. Guess who found the bullet? Me! :)
That's nothing to be proud of. Just shows how bad my school is. St.Pete would probably be a better place if Bogie did blow up. But then again where would all the local drug dealers go?

One of my favorite words in the english language would have to be APATHY
-Lack of emotion
-Lack of interest; indifference; listlessness

I've been in desperate need of inspiration. I just really need my own perssonal space where I can think and reflect. And write! without being surrounded by people. Even if there's only one other person I still feel surrounded. Might just be my need for space.

Why is there so much shit going on? It's not even worth talking about or wanting to talk about. I think I'm going to start writing. I wanna write a fairy tale type story. It'll give me something to do instead of sitting around my house all idol and shit. I really need to keep myself busy with something. Help me keep my mind off and away from things. At least I have something to keep me busy for the next few days. I'm designing a tattoo for my biology teacher. It's of the fertility goddess.

New topic
I'm laying in bed one night and I wasn't tired. I was just hoping to passs the time until my alarm went off. My eyes were closed and I was thinking about random things when I see this soft yellow light to my right and eventually all around me. Above me starts to fill in with sky blocked by a tree and it's leaves. And it really felt like I was laying on the ground under a tree and looking up at the sky. I was like "what the fuck?" and turned my head to look around but I was back in my own room. I think I successfuly astraly traveled for a split second.


I've accepted the fact that I'll have a hole in my stomach by the time I'm 20.
I really need to save my money. I wanna make sure I'm out of this house by the time I'm out of high school. I'm going to be 16 subday and I plan on applying at Animal house, Home Goods, Micheals, Marshalls, and even the library. I don't care if it's crappy pay. As long as it's something for now.
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Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Some day
I will get out. What is this lock?
The key is in the tree again.
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Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Now I know why
I need a listening ear but I am terrified of fully opening up to someone.
I can't fit anymore. The bottle is breaking.
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Wednesday, December 26, 2007

I think I love you so what am I so afraid of words I dont know....
Oh damn you. Songs that get stuck in my head.
Anyways
You can not watch Superbad with you your parents and grandmother. It just doesn't work.
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Saturday, December 22, 2007

The bombs are calling
Yesterday there was bomb threat on the school. Everyone had to go out on the trail. After being out there for about an hour they told us that everyone who rides a bus go to the corner of 58th and 11th because the buses will be out there and everyone who dries walk the trail to the 58th side and get into the parking lot from that entrance. You had to stay on the trail if you walked or get picked up. I was with Alex and she had her car so I was going to get a ride with her. By the time we got to the parking lot and to her car they were locking the gates and said we couldn't go. Half the school already left but now they were saying we had to go the 4th period and stay there the rest of the day. It was such bull shit.
Later that day when I was home I fell asleep at around 8pm and woke up at like 10am. It felt so good to sleep for once. Even though I woke up sweaty and still in my day clothes.
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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Give me a 'K'!
I went to ringling today. It was pretty cool. I really liked the Goya exibit.
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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Open wide
Jan. 10 a project is due for my art class. It's for an art show coming up and there isn't a theme. I really want to do something making fun of political correctness or just politics in general.
I have an ised of doing the elephant and donkey sitting in separate corners with dunce hats on their heads.


5 more days till ringling!
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