Tuesday, July 26, 2005

New layout
Mood: Happy
Time of Post: 12:00 am
Listening to: Four Seasons from InuYasha

Hope you like the new layout!! I love it. Lacus looks so pretty in that deep Pink. And I must say I have warmed up to the color pink. I used to say I hate it but it always ended up that most of my layouts are pink, so what do ya know? Also song is called Invoke, it’s the first opening song to Gundam SEED. ^_^ Love it. Every one has put the end song on there site so I wanted a different song, so Invoke.

Well also I read a very sad post today, I’m not going to say who’s it was, but said site hasn’t been updated since then. And I hope they are doing well. Well here’s the post in brackets because I didn’t type it. So please read and pray for this person.
[ im leaving my house, i dont think ill be back, my parents are fighting again, my mom blames me for whenever my brother is mad. I hope that in some miricle that they find this and read this article. Im not writing anymore posts i dont believe. I dont know where im going, but i know that im starting @ the catholic church..... there are things i need to take care of before i go. ive wanted to move from here for so long, i dont remember. I dont believe that no one understands my pain, what has happened, what ive done, what ive seen, what has happened inside of me a long time ago. I was really happy, once. I blame myself for the incident with austin, i blame myself for jessie's turning into the thing she hates, i truely dont believe that i was really wanted and that i was a mistake or an accident, surely enough, i dont care. Its not like any of this shit i put on this page matters, everyone else will go their own seperate ways and live there lives. Unfortunately my life is on the verge of reconing. I said this once before, " Assumption is the begining of all wars ". I think i have lost this war and now its my time to retreat. if i was an accident and magically i sum how pleased my parents with my good grades for them to treat me like normal, i hope ur reading this now. Im losing parts of my memory and i dont remember much. Jobs and Straight A's dont matter to me nemore. if life is going to be horrible and unending, why should life go on by passing. If death is apperent to neone, let it be cancer, or some unorthodox reason, and to all those lucky readers who are reading this, and you say taht this doesnt make anysense to u, listen, the world doesnt make sense, but life goes on unfortunately and it sucks. But if it happens it happens , and sometimes, ITS AN ACCIDENT LIKE ME, or is it? let me know when u find the truth.
there is none is there..... how can something be true if its taught to u and not proven? hmm.... i dont know but ive been trying to solve this question for a while. I give up. So mom or dad, if ur reading this by some apperent anomoly, think about waht i have gone through and waht i have experienced. read all my other posts. Ask brother, he's the gifted child right?]

I feel so bad reading that. It almost made me cry. To feel so bad about your self and to feel that you are to blame for everything. I’m kinda glad they left, but I can’t say now can I? I have never felt that bad about myself to run away. The one time I was deep in my depression and I want to slit my wrist. But that is something else. I’m glad I didn’t though. I am loved by so many people that I never saw then. And then I joined myotaku.com and I met more people who care for me like sisters and brothers would. *Tears* I love you all so much!!

Well I added two wallpapers yesterday and two wallpapers like two days ago that I forgot to mention. Also updated my one story on fan fictions. net. And I finished a drawing of stellar. *claps* Well the out line. I sent it to sissy (2lov). So I hope she can color it for me. And I also made it smaller and added it to my images. Well that’s all the news on updated stuffs.

Joined the Lacus Clyne fan club. ^_^

Also Kagomegilter1got the layout from yesterday and go to her site to see it. Looks very nice.

So changing my end thing to Family Guy quote of the day. Because I have seen enough Family Guy to have one for everyday.
“Stewie- And the Grammy winner is Justin Timberlake. *smacks Justin over the head with the Grammy* Ha! The real winner is Nelly. N-E-L-L-Y.”
Ha from the new one. Okay. I’m done. Laters.