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myOtaku.com: Lilith Knight
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Thursday, October 14, 2004
Life Can Be So Pathetic...
Everyone in my group is in turmoil... cept for those who're baka, and have know idea whats going on, but then again most would think they're the lucky ones... me and my best friend whom you all know as bleedblack are tired of this game that most everyone seems to be playing... i hate how i feel as if i'm being used because i can be more 'understanding' as someone whom will remain unamed told me, when really im just holding everything in to avoid conflict, but i guess thats not the best thing to do...
yare-yare... part of me doesn't wanna do anything about this stupid chaotic fighting but the other part of me just wants to go kamikaze on the bastards who started the bloody thing with the backstabbing and unrealistic friendships... i'm tired of my fake smile and trying to look at the bright side of things when there isn't one.
but then i think and maybe these godforsaken people do have a chance, but im tired of giving them... i don't like fighting i hate it really, but this is just one of those unavoidable screw ups in life where nothing you can do will make it better except give in... however i would rather shoot myself... i know it sounds selfish and cruel but i'm tired of being the first one to crawl on my knees apologizing for something i didn't have anything to with in the beginning, i'm tired of feeling as if i'm being walked over and over again, being that fricking doormat that one person just loves to beat... but little does this person know about me, little does this person know that what they think they know everything about me isn't real at all... yare-yare only time will tell...
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