Friday, October 6, 2006

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Yes!
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Thursday, October 5, 2006

Celeste...

Things aren't really going so well lately.

I've taken the percautions to make sure that I don't do anything dumb.

To be brutally honest with everyone:

I used to be a cutter. I still struggle with it. But after lots of help from friends and family I'm doing really great.

If anyone else is struggling with this, tell me I want to help you!

I am healthy and happy, but now and again we all have bad days. Fear not though, I am quite happy with my life as it is :D

Thanks for the concern, love you much!!
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Wednesday, October 4, 2006

All I have to say are lyrics. How "original" ¬_¬
There is mindless clutter my path
Oh these thorns in my side
I know I have something free
I have something so alive
I think they shoot ‘cause they want it

I feel forces all around me
Come on raise your head
Those who hide behind the shadows
Live with all that’s dead

Look at me…look at me
At least look at me when you shoot a bullet
through my head
Through my head
Through my head

In my lifetime when I’m disgraced
By jealousy and lies
I laugh aloud ‘cause my life
Has gotten inside someone else’s mind

Why do you have to live with so much hate inside?


..sometimes lyrics say it best.
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Monday, October 2, 2006

o.o
I had to put the contact lenses today.

This is because my glasses decided that they have had enough trying to let me see. My lenses are stronger anyways.

I'm glad I can see better and everything, but it takes some time to get used to them...


Legacyof:

....That rabbit's dynomite!!!
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Sunday, October 1, 2006

hmmmmm
I might change Myotaku to another theme... but I'm pretty attatched to the Vincent one.

Any opinions?
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Friday, September 29, 2006

Of dreams and heroicness...
I know this is like my 3rd post today.. but I wanted to share a dream with you guys.

I am not usually the hero of any dreams that I have. Mostly I get taken captive and die or just keep running away over and over again. Last night was completely opposite.

I remember it like this:

Dr.Pappas (one of my favorite teachers) was giving a lecture as usual and after our 12-1:50 class Rob and I were walking to my geography class. All of the sudden, we hear helicopters and turn around to see what it was. We watched in horror as these large black helicopters flew into AB4 causing all kinds of explosions.

I remember that even while dreaming I could only feel the despair of losing anyone or anything that I was attached to at this moment. All I could think about was Dr.Crimm and Dr.Pappa's. I cried and cried just torn apart at the thought of their deaths. I wanted to rescue them so bad, the building had only been hit at one side.

I decided I was NOT going to lose someone else. To Rob's dismay, I raced as hard as I could to get to Dr.Pappas' class room. I had to climb through rubble, but I was going to do it even if it killed me. I reached his class room where he had been hit minimally in the head, and he was bleeding pretty bad. All I remember was yelling "get up Dr.Pappas, please get up!" and pushing his unconcious figure for several minutes before he came to. I helped him up and told him I was not going to let him die. I litterally pulled his weak and wobbly form through the wreckage of AB4 and eventually outside.

I was so hapy the only thing I could do was cry and hug Dr.Pappas as tight as I could. Dr.Crimm was also waiting outside, and so I gave her a big hug because she made it out alive.

The rest of the dream continues... but it had nothing to do with this.

Thus was the first dream I was ever a heroine in. I actually didn't die and didn't get hurt.
I am still really ill-feeling about that dream. I hope it wasn't an omen of some sort...
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:D
Hah. I totaly changed my avatar!! I just made it.. is it too dark?

Legacyof: Thanks for the concern. I'm staying right here!!
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On that thought....
Sometimes... I sit back and remember everyone who has ever done anything for me.

I also remember a man who litterally died for me.

I cannot forget them, and feel terrible for all the times I didn't spend with them. All I can do now is look forward and feel the future's bright light on my face.

We all need to keep our eyes on the prize. Remember that you reap what you sew, and you yeild what you plant.

I wish the best for everyone.

Thanks to all of you here who keep me going when I am in need. Thank you all for being my friends, every last one of you.

Thank you still to my original Otaku friends, who are still friends with me today (thanks so much guys!!)
I heart you ladies!!

Celeste
Mota
Emily
Chikero

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Thursday, September 28, 2006

w0rd
Things will be changing soon...

Like my grade in spanish if I don't study this script...

and also my avatar. But you know... both are of equal importance (if I was insaine).

Seriously, the point of this little post... is to waste time not studying. I am SO procrastinating... which is BAD.


I'm going to stop now.... after this:

Legacyof:

Land of the dead got story line into my Zombie movie. Zombie movies shouldn't have intelligence!! I say you nuke the zombies and still live in your happy high-rise tower. I like the play on words for the title though.

...even if there was story line in my zombies.


:D
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

....Valentined.....
Summer is a word hardly known in this land,
Fall and winter grow here.

The nights are fresh and crisp,
and you dance in the wind around you.

I cannot tell you the happiness that lays in here,
but I can only tell you of the sadness that lives not in my heart.

For there is something inside me destined to grow,
and it will grow into a mighty tree that will dig it's roots into this earth.

May it always prosper,
May the dream live on forever.

I want you to see this land of winter,
This one with no sorrow but joy.

May you dance in the essence of light,
and bathe in the crisp air around you.

Visit my summerless land,
and view the mountains.

Here you will find peace,
and everlasting snow fall.

-L.V.C-
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