Saturday, November 19, 2005

Hey

Hey everyone, yesterday, i woke up at 4 PM... and i stayed up untill 4 PM today.. thats 24 hours.. ive stayed up longer but i dont beleive i could do that again X_X i was so tired, but i was doing it to try and get my sleeping schedule better but in the end i fell asleep at 4 PM and its almost 11 now so i guess i slept for like.. 6 hours >< its amazing how much sleep i dont get during the night, because i usually wake up, its like my body hates daylight and loves the night or something >_< well, i plan on getting tired here in a couple hours though so hopefull everything will get back to normal -_-;; Umm.. today i looked pretty good... i did my eyeliner super nice because i put my black eyeliner on and then on the corners i put my pink eyeliner and then smeared it with a q-tip downwards...it looked awesome... Lol that was kind of girly of me to talk about... well.. umm.. OH this morning i re-read Fushigi yugi volume 1. and full metal panic vol. 1 becuase its been like a year since ive read them and i think its time for me to get more volumes of them lol.. same with escaflowne >_< and DNAngel.. GOD I NEED TO CATCH UP ON MY MAGNA JEEZ!!!!!!!! But yeah Full metal panic gave me a pretty good headache.. but im itching for the next fushigi yugi. dad is supposed to take my to barnes and noble on sunday to buy My sister and Ivory a present.. (cause everyone loves manga..) but he has to work now >< so he said he would do it on tuesday... :/ i guess thats fine... IT SOOOO COLD HERE. its not snowing or raining or anything.. but it smells...like winter... so its coming(Winter)... -_-;; the sooner it comes.. the sooner it goes..... well thats all... nothing more to say..love ya.

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Friday, November 18, 2005

a couple hours later..

OK ITS FULLY HIT ME, HARRY POTTER IS HERE AND I CANT SEE IT FOR ANOTHER 5 MAYBE 6 DAYS!!!! SERIOUSLY LIKE A COUPLE MINUTES AGO I JUST SUDDENLY JUMPED IN THE AIR AND SQUEALED!!! MY PARENTS LOOKED AT ME LIKE I WAS MAD BUT LIKE...AHHHHHHHHHHH I CANT WAIT AND IM GONNA DIE BECAUSE I CANT TALK ABOUT IT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE T_T .... ............moment of insanity over..

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hey

Hmmmm... my day was uneventful..again... lol. My mom is all sad for some reason and she wanted to barrow my cds O_O because she remembers me saying that when im sad i always listen to my MCR cd cause it makes me feel better.. but i refused to let her listen to it cause its all emo and sad and i dont think she would understand why it makes me happier. Plus she likes rap and hip hop.. so i let her have my black eyed peas cd and my kelly clarkson cd O.o cause i honestly dont beleive any of my cds will make her happier... Ummmmm... i watched my grandmas dog AGAIN and she actually gave me 5 dollars this time *_* Wh00t. lol.. now i have 42 dollars.. i really REALLY wish they would call me inta work.. or else i need a new job... so yeah harry potter movie out today.. im sad cause i have to wait 5 MAYBE 6 more days till i can actually see it.. X_X im annoyed but i shall refrain from seeing it before my sister arrives. Oh yeah, she told me what she got me for x-mas! she got me Saiyuki dvd 1.. i think... O.o i dont quite remember. But now i want bleach because everyone seems to love bleach ^_^;;; so its yet another thing i shall put down on my wishlist.. i cant wait for x-mas when i get my giftcard to barnes and noble!!! MANGA SHOPPING!!!! and i get to do it in my brandnew Barnes and noble in town >3 but thats aways away unfortunatly... Thats it for me ya'll ..... love ya.

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Thursday, November 17, 2005

gah

GOD, today sucked.. and im trying to calm myself down by listening to MCR but its hardly working.... Im pissed cause sadly.. i havent been to school in like.. 2 weeks unless you count tuesday but i didnt even go to class on tuesday. and all this did was totally push everyone at school away and now no one even bothers with me and i know i said friends dont matter to me but its getting seriously hard being alone all the time and now my parents think im all wierd and disturbed just because ive been a bitch this whole week and i dont even know why!!!! So now everyone in the house is constantly yelling at eachother which just happened.. See my mom told me to get off and im all "FINE. but malissa's asleep" but she didnt beleive me so i got off and my dad came in my room and yelled at me for being mean to them so i just told him fine whatever.. and then mom comes back in and goes "Malissa was asleep.. you can get back on..." O.o well jee i wonder who coulda told you she was ASLEEP!!! GOD i feel like..punching something.... and i hate to say it but im sitting here smoking a ciggerete because im so fucking mad and now im even more mad that im smoking again but gosh! im really really pissed and sad and lonely right now and im sorry if you are kind of annoyed with me for saying all this but i just got to! ....i told you deppression would hit me hard... anyway.. umm... nothing at all happened today.. im dreading school tommarrow and i will do whatever it takes to NOT go.. because why go when my teachers will rub it in that i wont pass and i have nobody to even say 'HEY' to anymore becuase im such a fuck-up that my friends dont even bother with me anymore.. got.. someone shoot me..seriously.. just shoot me! ......anyway.. i want to cut my hair really short.. i have a pic around here somewhere.. *rummeges through favorites list* im always afraid to cut my hair that short but i really like it, and its just hair.. itll grow back..right?!?!?!!? i dunno if i mentioned this before but i might get a new cat... see i gave my boss one of our beautiful half-persion white cat and it had babies and 3 of them are pure white and she wants to give me one....i think its kind of annoying that my parents might let me have it because they made me get rid of my baby cat, Davis because I COULD ONLY HAVE 3 CATS and now theyre letting me have 4.. O.o grr. im so happy the weekend is ALMOST here.... not that it will be any better then but..all well... sorry if i bummed anyone out.. i honestly did not mean to.. love ya..

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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Heeeey

Hey there friends.. ^_^ im tired but im not.. O.o im currently chowing down on Pretzels and cherry coke <<;; no school tommarrow.. so..blah.. ummmm yes i went to school and sat in the library and finally decided to pick another book out even though i couldnt check it out cause i have a fine and i forgot my wallet >< terribly stupid of me i know! the book i picked was a stephen king but.. im not a fan of him at all but well.. my library lacks fictional books.. -_-;; so i chose "The girl that loved tom Gordon" or something like that and she got lost in the woods.. and like.. 5 chapters of her were wondering around in the woods and finally i had to put it back and leave and i never got to read what was scary about it O.o now my min d is racing and im tempted to look it up on the internet lol. so.... not much to say i guess.. Oh!sorry i didnt visit a whole lot of you.. i didnt get on till like 9 and then i didnt get on here til...well... now.. lol and its 11 PM. so um i watched my grandmas dog again, and she only had 2 bucks on here so i only got 2 bucks >_< that ok.. the dog followed around everyone else BUT me so i didnt really watch it much lol My cat is being attacked by a fly...its hilarious.. it keeps touching her then flying away.. heheh.. shes freaking out to.. xD fun stuff.. so.. i had an interesting convo with my buddy codey about what i would do if he got a girl pregnent.. i told him i would kick his ass and make him feel bad.. lol. and then he said he had no idea what he would do if I got PREGNENT lol.. then after awhile he said he would drag Ivory down to see me when i had it lol, but then he said it would be awkward cause my online friend and it would be really odd meeting me all pregnent and stuff lol. i honestly dunno what i would do if i was preggy.. i wouldnt do abortion.. i couldnt do that.. lol ive never really thought of this before. RANDOM QUESTION: what would you do if you got pregnent, or got someone pregnent?

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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

hey

Ah well im updating later then usual but thats ok! Lets see im on a terrible sleeping schedule where i sleep all day and stay up all night X_X hopefully me going to school tommarrow helps me get on a better once..but i just love being awake at night... >< sleep is so bittersweet....i mean i love to sleep but i also love to be awake and sleeping takes up so much time but its so nice... lol i was in a terrible mood today, i must admit.. and sadly my family had to deal with my rude comments and harsh tone all day... i cant say i feel bad..im so heartless T_T ah! dare i say it?! has my writing streak flown away?!?! im afraid it has but i have not gone into full writers block mode.... sadly its soon coming and i will once again be extremely deppressed and yet again, my readers will forget all about me and find a more devoted fanfic writer that isnt suffering from severe writers block.... seriously.. i shall be really sad..thats how important writing is to me :( 3 days(counting today) till harry potter movie!! IM SECRETLY IN MY HEAD FLIPPING OUT... like always ;) im crazy like that! oh and 8 days till my sister comes home(which is when i finally get to go see the harry potter movie) and 10 days till i get to stuff myself with food!!!YEY!!! also school break *_* i love thanksgiving. i am really dreading school.. i plan on pleading with my dad to take me during his lunch break instead so i will only have to spend like 4 hours at school intead of 7.. i hate school.. BUT YOU ALL KNOW THAT DONT YA!!! teehee.. sorry im like...really happy and bouncy and its only 4 in morning > ahaha.. i just got done watching house of 1000 corpses and remembered why its the source of me being terrified of serial killers.... well thats it for today my luvs! i shall try to comment everyone today but i dunno X_X it depends on how happy i stay(and i can feel the deppression is near me so..gah..) Love ya's!

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Monday, November 14, 2005

eh

Well thank you all, you guys made me feel better about the school thing, i love you all!! my day was boring and uneventful sadly.. and i dont really have much to say..so i leave you with a random question! If you could be apart of any anime show, what would it be? mine..of course is digimon because ive loved digimon for many years and it is a secret lil' obbsession of mine teehee ^_^

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Sunday, November 13, 2005

gah

Ok first of all college isnt for everyone and im like freaking out becuase i dont want to disapoint anyone. Answerings elvesatemyramen's question.. i could get my GED which is like a highschool diploma sort of and go to college, however it would have to be community college because i cant afford a realy college. thats another thing, i have tons of classes to make up, and it cost 100$ to take a class over and i dont have that money, neither does my family also i cant possibly make 22 credits with the next 2 years when i can only earn 8 credits a year.. right now i have 3.5 credits.. thats how bad ive gotten.... i just wish that i was like.. smart so i didnt have to deal with this. But life is hard, everyone has to work everyday and make money so its not like anyone has it easy i suppose... my whole life has been like this, and i honestly dont expect to be very rich when im older and i never did expect that. either way if i stay in school or if i dont it will be hard so now i just need to figure out what to do. i was litterally crying this morning becuase i was up all night and i was thinking about what everyone has told me.. everyone keeps telling me what they think i should do and i just dont know what to do and i dont want to disapoint my family or friends and even though i shouldnt, i keep thinking about what everyone will think..... anyway.. on better news.. since there are officially 4 guys on my proboard now.. ive decided to make a couple more layouts and right now im going with a dragon one cause well O.o i honestly have no idea what apeals to guys lol.. well..eccept sex but thats a lil inapropriate for my proboard. Ive made it so that even if your not a member of the proboard, you can view all the anime related fanfics on it. so feel free to go read the anime fanfics up there and you may even comment on the reviews section of them. there are only two, mine and Darkantonio's so nothing to great lol but if your looking for a place to put your fanfiction, feel free to join the proboard and do so! my ear still hurts, i know why it hurts but i dont really feel like explaining it right now... I went out to lunch today with my Grandma..(whoot free lunch!!)..it was an ok lunch eccept i only got like 3 hours of sleep today cause i was up all night >< so not much else to say i suppose.. nothing to great happened today however my hair looked hella good... i was happy.. Well, love ya! PROBOARD: http://missgloomy.proboards58.com

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Saturday, November 12, 2005

hi

well today i once again i did not go to school, and its now time for me to actually figure out what i want to do. this is the most important dicision of my life and its so hard. i know that this semester is ruined already, and im like 99% sure i wont graduate when senior year comes around.. but the question is.. do i really want to drop out now or keep going? its hard because you dont want to disapoint everyone ya know? but in the end i cant think about everyone else i have to think about me and they have to realise that i do have options.. and i dont have to figure it out right now.. i have all my life and you know what? its always gonna hard but my life has been hard no matter what and ive gotten through it and whatever decision i make will effect only me.. and i can only that my family will still love me. and i trully beleive that they will. in other news, my sister is going through the same thing.. she never really got to decide what SHE wanted to do..she only did what my family told her to do and its time she does what she wants to do.. so were both in the same boat right now... my left ear is kind of swollen.. T_T so it hurts bad(damn earings).. lets see well nothing much happened today, oh well this morning i was in my room listening to music in the dark because i couldnt sleep and it was like.. 4 AM and suddenly i hear this bell being rung outside and it scared that crap outa me cause at the time i didnt realize it was veterens day lol... after i post this.. and once i have nothing at all to do. i think im going to make some buttons for some of you all.. be excited!!!! mwahahaha.. i enjoyed all your guys' answers and lordsesshomaru i like yours because you said "Give LS presents day" and you know what? technically..im LS to.. so..yeah..mwahahahaha.. So i guess thats it and i was happy to hear from some of you that hadnt been on in awhile lol.. love yas!

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Friday, November 11, 2005

Hey

so my dad didnt wake me up AGAIN. lol i think he just gave up on these days since i only have 1 class. im mad cause i dont want to get off soon but i have to :( today i babysat my grandmas dog and totally earned 5 bucks..SCORE...lol well lets see..hmmm... thank god its friday..only this weekend and next week and then my sister will be home.. YEY!!!!!!!!!!! thanks darkantio for joining my proboard *hugs you to death and gives you a heart shaped cookie* im grateful cause its starting to be inactive and i ahve no idea how to get people to join!!!!! so im kinda tired today so i probably wont write anything cause usually i like to write at like 2 AM with the music on low and a candle lit... yes.. i like to write by candle light..lol. Gosh sorry i have nothing to say lol im just so boring today... >< i owe my school library like 15 cents cause i forgot to turn in a library book..darnit 15 WHOLE CENTS!!!!! >_< i blame this on a goat.. oh..yeah btw i have a big suspicion about goats.. i mean..i think theyre planing on taking over the world.. seriously.. theyre not as cute as sheep..so..maybe theyre pissed... but yeah so the way is see it..when something bad happens..blame it on a goat... Yeah..craziness... random question: if you could make up any holiday, what would it be? mine would be national government gives out free money day.. now i told this to a friend and hes all "O.o how much do YOU pay for money brandi???" lol... -_-;;;

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