Monday, May 14, 2007

mothers day hell

Theres major swearing up ahead, so sheild your virgin eyes children! Well, first off, me and my sister went to the library and then to the mall, we had realised that we never told my mom we had left so while at the mall, i called her and said "sorry we didnt say we were leaving, we're at the mall" she said "ok have fun" and she joked about how we should get her something. well, when we come home we find her not at the house.. we have no idea where she is because she didnt leave us a note or anything. so after 2 hours of waiting, me and my sister went to walmart to buy something for dinner, while there i called home to see if she was home, well she was, so im standing in walmart yelling at her trying to figure out why and where she went! in the end i was just like "We'll talk about it when we get home. so we get home, we're talking, we of course dont beleive her story that she was just out on a walk(On a 2 hours walk? doubtful) well, then she's like "I think i left my glasses at the gas station" so she tries to take my sisters car to go get them but when we tell her she cant take the car(she has no liscense) she gets pissed off, and starts calling us horrible names...and then walks out. well, 10 minutes later me and my sister take the car to find her, and she's sitting in someones yard saying that she fell and cut her foot. so we're like "Get in the car then we''ll go home" but she refused to get into the car. well right when she finally does get up to get into the car she decides she going to walk home. pissed, we said fine and drove home(it was only a couple of blogs to our house) so im standing on the corner now waiting to see her and when i do she starts to talk so some guy. well, me and my sister start to walk over to them, but before we could get there, they turned and started to walk to his house. so, we yell "mom?!" and she turns to us and yells "JUST HANG ON" and goes off into his house. so we go home, because i started to cry and talk whine about how she always does this and im tired of it. when she gets home, she makes up some story about him just helping her with her leg that she cut. well after that she goes "THAT GUY STOLE 2 DOLLARS OUT OF MY PURSE I NEED TO GO BACK" i go with her, and watch them as they talk, never once did they talk about money or anything, i just heard them talking about..calling eachother and i learned the guys name was carl. when we get home, im pissed because i know she's lying. so, she gets out of the car, and theres 2 newspapers in our driveway so she throws the newspapers into the street and yells something about how my dad never treats her like a queen or something like that and as im bringing the newspapers back i yell she doesn deserve to be treated lik a queen and then she goes "neither do you" and im like "I dont!" and well, i dont remember the exact words about that but she's sitting there outside, YELLING at me about how she's the mother and she'll put me in my place so..i...i went over and smacked her right upside the head. Fuck.. i hope i hit her hard to. so , course, she freaks out and tries to hit me back.. well. then i scream for my sister and run inside and just.. i dunno, i just burst out crying. ok, lets see if i can remember everything. Well, after that she was pissed, obviously because i smacked her good...so she goes about saying how i no longer have a mother and blah blah blah. O.o when did i have a mother? certaintly not when she runs around doing messed up shit like she's always done. Ive never considered her a mother. When dad gets home, he's pissed and doesnt know whats going on. i gladly tell him what i know about what happened and mom somehow created this lie about the guy she was talking to and it hardly made sense. she's pissed at me because according to her im lying about everything but im not! and its frustrating being told that your lying when you know that your not and really she lying! So we're all fucking mad. im sitting in my room with the door closed crying my heart out, like my whole body was literally just shaking. Well, she comes over and like, bangs on my door 5 or 6 times really loudly and yells something horrible that i dont remember. I just know the whole night she kept screaming that i was a fucking lying ass bitch. or i was a little skinny ass whore or whatever she could think of calling me. and she also keeps going around "Great fucking mothers day this was" O.o uh sorry, your only treated and apraised that your a mother if 1. You act like one. and 2. you deserve to be treated like that. which she doesnt because SHE'S NOT ONLY FUCKING INSANE SHE'S ALSO RUINED MY LIFE FOR THE PAST WHAT? 5 YEARS? jee, let me shower her in gifts and money and love because she's just done a fucking great job at being my mother. and hey while im at it, why dont i go dig up hitler and they both can catch up on how they have no soul?! After that, basically she goes crazy all night, yelling at us as loud as she can. she freaking BROKE everything she owned on purpose!(including a 300 dollar sterio) and she really doesnt think she's crazy? she trashed her bedroom and everything in it.. and why? Because she was mad? sane people DONT DO THAT! they just dont! Im freaking amazed our naighbors didnt call the cops, though i partly wish they could have so they could have found the DRUGS she hiding in her room and she can be locked up in a jail cell for HOPEFULLY another 2 years and i can for once, get peace. ...and you know, this will change nothing, after all this, it will blow over and we'll all go back to avoiding the problem. and she's the problem but dad refuses to live without her. i honestly think if i had a gun right now, i could shoot her. i know that sounds alittle stupid and immature and feel free to roll your eyes but i seriously could... i fucking HATE HATE HATE HATE THAT WOMEN. *sigh* and today *monday* hopefully me and my sister can get past this and go to the movies, which we wanted to do yesterday but, well, since everything happened the way it did we couldnt. todays song helped me alot yesterday. im in love with it, its another piano instromental but...well.. its special to me now xD so like it damnit! ...ill probably visit everyone. have a nice day everyone!

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