myOtaku.com: LiquidSilver

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1990-03-17
Gender
• Female
Location
• Inside 'The World'
Member Since
• 2005-04-24
Occupation
• Professional Sheep Critic.(is your sheep good enough?) And a waitress.
Real Name
• Brandi!

I managed to ditch a whole semester of school. DITCHING IS BAD!
Anime Fan Since
• Since i was little, But realized what it was around 6th grade.
Favorite Anime
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Goals
• Get my GED, The Licsense.
Hobbies
• WRITING, reading, internet, music, culture, vampires, mermaids, art, subeta, harry potter, fantasy, bitching...mya you all know. xD
Talents
• Im good at writing. at least i think i am lol. its my passion, without it i would wither away and die.

myOtaku.com: LiquidSilver

Monday, February 4, 2008

Heya

New background is finally up ^^ see! not very different! :3

So, i really dont have anything to mention on here O.o my sunday- really really boring.

Oh, i know. So, coming this 15th, i will have known an online friend for 5 years. It makes me excited and it makes me think of a lot of things. For example, now we're both turning 18 this coming march and she will be going off to college. She'll be moving away from her family, from her town.

And here i am lol. While i may just go to the community college thats half an hour away, im still...stuck here? Im still struggling with the things i struggled with back then its just that now....now i know how to handle it.

I never could have imagined that i could grow such a strong bond with someone that i have never met. And these past 5 years this online friend...well, she knows everything about me.

While those years passed and we became close, i never thought about weather or not it was odd that i could get online and suddenly im spilling everything out to this, person that lives half away across the country. And, the fact that i could do that, well, i just feel really thankful.

So many things happened the past 8 years of my life, and i dont think i would even be alive today if i hadnt had my online friends, especially her. I mean, there was a time where i felt incredibly ostracized from my friends and there was a time where i felt like i had no one. the only thing that kept me from....i dunno... going over the edge was those online friends because they made me feel.... like i wasnt alone. they made my think that even though i end up spending a whole day, a whole week, a whole year, without someone physically close that i could call a friend, that i had someone out there that cared about me. That could say i love you and i hope your ok and really meaning it.

And it was even more wonderful when i knew that i could was bringing that feeling to someone else too.

While im completely grateful for...my online friends....for her.... Im scared as well.

she's moving on now, she doesnt need me to be there for her. Much like codey(an online friend i knew even longer then her) Did. And you know what? Codey is now...nonexistent in my life. Not only is this going to happen to her when she leaves, but it also makes me realize how...im not moving on. how i still need someone to tell me that they're there for me and you know what? I cant stop wondering why im not moving on. I cant help but thing, god this is unfair, i should be moving on too! not stuck here! writing in my blog about how i hate the world.

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