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Wednesday, October 19, 2005


hullo
Well, i think overall..today was OK. school sucked, like it always does lol. I got the 2nd book to the series that ive been reading YEY!! and when i came i did.. NOTHING.

that is untill 5 PM then i went over to samanthas house and we walked over to the park/lake. but it was awkward so then she called her friend and her friend was with us for awhile.. we saw these guys they knew in a car and like <<;; one was looking at me and samantha and her friend are all "Thats wierd" and im all "Its probably cause he didnt know who the hell i was" and they are all "Nooo thats not him.. he was totally checking you out" -_-;;; GAH!

those guys were given 5 dollars to go and get her friend ciggarettes and they never came back O_O jerks..they stole her money.

Then her friend went home and we went to her house and just sat on her bed listening to music and doing nothign O_O we did that for like 2 hours to untill i had to go home lol.

i like her, it was nice to see her again and i hope we become better friends.

Lately ive been thinking of dropping out of highschool. I have come to realize that i screwed up so bad that im not gonna pass anyway.. atleast not with my graduation class.. so it sucks big time. I dont know what im going to do.. im afraid my parents will get so mad theyll kick me out if i leave highschool. i dont know why they would but you never know. also, im afraid of my future ya know.

or else i could change schools.. which is going to be just as hard becuase i wont have any friends either in that school and it will be so tough in a new school too. so i dont know what im going to do. all i know is that i screwed up to much, and now i cant fix it.

i actually talked to megan on YIM and since i was hyper i told her about how i felt and about what i thought i should do(drop out) and that its been way to hard for me at school and that i cant stand not having friends. and once again she says she wants to be my friend and thinks im a great girl...blah blah blah shes already told me that tons of times. and so yeah she said she wants to get closer and stuff and that she knows she hasnt been trying. But i have come to realise.. megan and kalyn are not like me. They dont go through these things.. all they care about is clothes and boys. all they care about is there own problems, even when I was talking about my problems to megan on YIM i could sort of tell she didnt want to hear it. cause then when i was done she told her about how she JUST RUINED THINGS WITH HER BOYFRIEND. and totally dismissed what i told her.



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