Friday, October 29, 2004

   iight here it goes
this is the second installment of the long awaited life of me. eric. if you know me then you know how cool of a person i am. i'm 16 by the way and am going on 17 here in about a month or less. but there are a few things that i would like to get off my chest.
iight here it goes. i am a realy cool guy, but i am the type with feelings, i usually don't let it show that often though, but this is so exclusive i think i will let you all in on some stuff. there is this girl right and for conversation purposes, and so i don't have to revel her name and get myself into any trouble we shall call her videl, from the good ol' GT. but anyways, i kinda got fellings for her and i dunno how to read her sometimes, it's odd sometimes i get this vibe from her.. but it may just be my wishfull thinking. so i get thease fellings for her and i'm thinkin.. woa where did these come from, cuse i had known her for about a year and did not theink of her that way, not because she's ugly...no no no my friends she is beautiful. but that was besides the point. she is a friendly person easy to get along with and thus the vibe i mentioned eairlier. but i think it was when what i like to refer to as the "eye" incedent happened. she had hurt her eye and well.. it was funny, and being the funny guy i am i ponted out the humor, she was just sooo serious about it and seemed to be bumed out so i had to lighten the mood, and so the eye jokes came. i joked on her from the firs day the eye was injures to the day you could barley tell, and there was laughing, and alot of laughing, but in the end i was sad to see it go. and i didn't know why, it was oblivious to me, i tried and tried to figure it out, and finnaly came to the conclusion that i had feelings for her. it was crasy though thease feelings were not just a physical attraction, i liked to make her feel better, and i liked being around her. but there was one huge problem she had a boyfriend. and right around the corner was homecoming. so the week goes by and all i hear from her is the he is such an #$$ hole and that she is going to break up with him and go to homcoming and enjoy it with friends. so i'm like yeah this is my ticket in, i'll tell her how i feel and everything could work out, the all of a suddden the next day she is saying how they patched things up and everything is grovy now. i'm like ##$! this sucks. and so i had to tell her the next weekend, because a friend of mine was "talking" (means trying to get the hook up with) one of her best friends, so i thought i could talk to her about it and she could do a little recon for me and so insted she goes and tells videl evry thing and now she knows. she confronts me at church and i tell her what's up and she reminds me of the grim truth that she has a booyfriend.. as if i didn't already know. but now it is after homecoming and i had to sit there and see her dance with him and it sucked. and the thing is is that this girl can dance around a subject like there is no tomarrow, and it's cuse she's so smart. but now i have to decide if i should move on and never come back to thease feelings or do i hold on to them although i might have to wait a while to talk to her but yeh didn't mean to tale up your time.

talk to yall later.

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