Tuesday, December 12, 2006

   chyeaaaa
I am home early sick..i came home during 4th per...
well i dont really feel like updating, but i guess i should. i have new pics on myspace so holla, im sexy. j/k. well maybe i am, but not for you.

i think im switching to IBML im so happy.i miss raab. andd meggy.. we are both home sick, in fact, me megy & dilly are all home sick. wtf is going on..stown is getting infected i think.

welllll...i havent talked to dima in a while...to be honest, i dont think were right for each other. that much.
you wanna know something that makes me happy kinda??
im being lurked.
20 profle views in 1 day.
haha i love ittt.
but i wish i knew who was lurking me.
oh wellll im gonna go, talk to meggy, bye loves
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Sunday, December 10, 2006

   MCR SHOW!
was awesome!
even tho we couldnt mosh haha.
after they played me lily, paris & crys went to stand outside the arena room thingy to get h2o & stuff & paris was whispering hella random things to people as they pass by & this adorable kid kept passing so she goes here he comes again..and when he passes she goes 'im warning you' and he looks at us crazy & points to himself & we are nodding & cracking up hahahaha when he passed again he looked at us crazy then sad hi & he looked at me & was pointing at me & im liek huh? and he pointed to my shirt. haha my I ♥ Gerard Way shirt. everyone <3's it..but mostly lil boys liked it this time...
anywayyyyyy..yea, maybe longer update of the show tomorrow? when i upload some pics?
yea pics of the show, & all of us acting stupid on the ride home...

heyy Steph & Michelle are seeing MCR tonite i think! haha love them
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Thursday, December 7, 2006

   ahhhh kinky fuckeeng teddy!!
after schoooooooooo..
soooooo, i hafta take a test in physics that i missed so it was me jon & lennon & then i left cuz i couldnt finish it & i went to put my book away then found paris & she was arguing with maria but she was by teddy & kyle & all them....we all get kicked out because sometimes the deans kick us out after school, so its me, her, teddy, carlos, & marcel, & were walking out & we were over by the tennis courts & they are going crazy wit some dane cook shit..
soooo anyway...
somehow teddy is saying that i dont talk & he wants me to talk & then he's all over me & i gave him my gum from my mouth & hes like, tackling me!! haha and he kept messing up my hair!! =[[
because he knew it bugged me haha
dima came to practice tennis wit teddy, dimitriii & austin..it was awkward.
especially when teddy decided he wanted to 'get close to me'
wayyy too much shit happened to write right now but he was saying he knew i was a kinky chick ever since he met me..which was 2nd grade.
pffft.
w/e.

he said to paris that im always trying to fuck him in algebra.
noooope. haha


then, me & paris were leaving & teddy went to ACTUALLY PRACTICE, but as i was walking over to her teddy was holding on to me & telling me to let go of him even tho he was holding me & paris is looking at me suggestively..
then when he leaves shes like 'do you like teddy?'
and im like 'no'
& shes like 'why not?!'
and i sayy 'i already like someone. 2 someones!'
(heyy whats one more? XD)
she goesss
'ur mean! he said he liked you & he would go out with you!'
' well i like someone a lot'
'he kept saying he likes you'



-___-


gawwwwwd..
soooooo..in 3rd grade i DID like him, but he liked my friend so i was like what ev..
i leave that school after 5th grade & one day during 6th grade i was over by dimas house & iw as with my then best friend sarah & shes like 'teddy asked where you went. he said he likes you'
i didnt believe her cuz she lied a lot.


wellllll..
i guess we'll never know.
gawwd its gonna be awkward in algebra tomorrow.
he's gonna tell everyone im kinky & all that shit!
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Sunday, December 3, 2006

   Guess who's shakin???
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

here it is..again!

Im shaken uncontrollably, like its -50 degrees in here!
my nick just messaged me.
out of no where.
because i finally got the guts to add him last night.

the parade was actually kinda fun!

on the way back,
me, jessica, jaylin, justin, mark, kenneth, darin, & christian were sitting together.
they were hella loud haha & justin was doin this 'gangsta rap'
but it was like...not gangsta.
haha he is so cute!

i love my friends.
okay so if you didnt notice, ive been having a good day!
i learned something new yesterday, so i was happy.
i met some new people , which made me happy.
I talked to the most AMAZYEENG people ever.

mixe called me his mommy last night, & said he hopes i have a wonderful future, & that i should use my art skills in my career..

i have the most amayzeeng life sometimes, i swear.

i hope you all have as much of a wonderful time as i do.


bye bye loves.
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Friday, December 1, 2006

   yoor gonna haff ta get used to it!
hahahah gasjfajwefgyhz!

Ceazar taught me how to do body poses today, so expect some fierce ass designs from Mana Milk Tea sometime soon!
thanks ceazar I love him!!
cutest effin gay guy you will ever meet.
were sitting there & he's watching me to a body & he's like 'do you like totoro?'
hahaha
heckss yes i like totoro!!
totoro is tha shizzz!
hayy maybe i can get sushi tonite...
well ive been thinking, and i think i should talk to dima now..
whats the worst that can happen?
he wont talk shit to me cuz I unlike some other girls, will beat his god damned russian ass if he does!
i didnt go to meggy's house today..
and i have a stupid parade to go to tomorrow.
at least i can sleep til 10.
MCR in exactly ONE WEEK.
the time & everything.

&& fashion club again hopefully next week.
&& more people will come? hopefully?
i dont want my ceazar to be sad..
he said he loved my polka dot dress that i designed!

its an empire-ish waist baby doll dress, polka dotted, sash at the waist, tiny bow on the chest, puff sleeves, & tule ruffling on the edges!
i love it, its musch cuter than how it was just described...
well im gonna go now
gonna go do some more body sketches!!


---mana..misses nick!---
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Sunday, November 26, 2006

   oh yea did i mention i love ya?
hmmm..
well I know its true becuase I can ADMIT i never fell in love with nick..
its been 2 YEARS now since the last time ive seen him..almost 2 years exactly...he's taller now, way taller than me.
and his hair isnt blond anymore, its brown again.
of course, he looks the same in the face..but now i see he looks exactly like anthony, his brother.
what a fuckeng trip, huh?
i can forget about dima?
not yet.

i can trip..
one of nick's best friends is levonte..whaaaat??
yes, levonte, meg's levonta.
meg my best friend who i love so much.
she goes to a different high school..
im gonna go there soon tho, switch to LHS instead of going to WRHS..its nicer there anyways...


see, i never forgot about you nick!!


picture blog coming soon i hope...
i'll show you the ones i love, the ones i care for, myself, whoever...
rawr.



haaaaha wow i cant believe i found nick!
i think we're gonna meet at the mall soon.
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Saturday, November 25, 2006

   update
today, I brought a sharp object to my skin for the first time in over a year..I dont know if Im ashamed to say it, but it felt so good.
I just couldnt take another day of suffering, I had to ease it somehow...
I am not going to do anything stupid, I just need to settle down. And give my life time to heal.

He said he was ashamed of us today..that we were all good for nothings, except my sister.
I wanted to cry. So bad.
But i couldnt do it.
I honestly cannot think of anything that would make him say that.
And what did I do??
All my life, have i ever let him down?
NO. i havent.
I thought that him of all people understood me.
my own father.

I thought he knew how it felt to suffer every day, and not be able to do a goddamn thing about it.

If i could stop it, i would.
Im tired of this. They wont let me see anyone for it, I cant get treatment.
And all the while its just getting worse. Telling me to stop wont do anything.
I CANT HELP IT.


I suffer from OCD, and a minor case of ADD, as wel as border line tourettes..
but I think if this keeps going on, if i dont get treated for it, & my stress level gets higher, it wont just be border line anymore, and the last thing I want is to be like those kids on true life.

my best friend is stepping on my heart, and she doesnt know it.
On tuesday, her & jessica & cynthia, dima, dimitri, and austin are supposed to ditch on tuesday, and theyre gonna bring alcohol & weed.
I cant take it.
thats the day im gonna break.
last time she drank & got high like that, she made out with cynthia.
If she does anything with him, I wont be able to take it.


The ONE GUY ive ever loved..
my only other love was, and still is, a girl.
I will always love her in a way ive never loved anyone before. Not even him.

So please, if i break on Tuesday, if i have one more day of crying, my eyes red, save me.
I know the point will go deeper into my skin, and it will go a lot more often, but for once, im okay with that.




MCR in 2 weeks.


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Friday, November 17, 2006

   Happyyyy Fridayyy!! well i had a good one...
eh-hemmm..
1st period is almost over & I cant wait because SM's voice is so annoying & i honestly dont really give a shit about graphic organizers..then VP mr. Gonzalez calls me up to the office!! And he told me to go to all of my classes right that minute to get the rest of my teachers sigs for GATE(thats gifted & talented education, fyiiii) when I got to ms. petrakus's room, some one said hi, so i turned to say hi back & it was Jesse!! so i waved then went over to the teacher & he was telling the girl in front of him that he used to be in my class. haha I really miss having him in algebra=[[.
and when i left we said byeeee. aww i really do.
at brunch, christian called my name & i looked, and he showed me a SK3!! so i started 'bawling' on Paris's shoulder, but i really did almost cry. he didnt know why I was doing it & left. but when we got to class he was like ' were you really crying' and im like 'almost' & i told him why it hurts me whenever I see a SK3. haha im lame-o!
at lunch, jessica could tell i was happy..haha i didnt even know why i was happy really..after 5th period, i was walking, & i heard some one skating next to me slowly, & i turned to look for Jessica & Jesse is right there waving at me, so im like 'hi' and wave and i told jessica to hurry up & jesse skated past us & she's like 'awww you said hi to your husband' and im like 'haha' but i cant stop smiling & i dont want jessica to see cuz i already told her a million times i didnt like him & i DIDNT but i dont know now...
w/e.when i got to 6th per, jaylin said i looked happy..wow major blush moment!


loookk...
http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=29993504&imageID=1208114617

go see..
yep thats muh 2 niggas muh 2 boys, the ones i go for hard!!!
my main men.
Jesse on the left, d on tha right..but im kinda mad a d right now...i gotta go peace out n!99@$ ttyl8rsss

oh & april my love gave me taylor baby tater tott's numbuh
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Wednesday, November 8, 2006

   Jesse's dad...
eeew we had to do this salute to..i dunno, it might have been the star spangled banner, why should i know??
just us JROTC kids...
and it was raining on us =[[[
&& so my hair got messed up. and i was so stressed, i almost started bawling. & ifelt sick..

soooo in 3rd period, i was sitting at Luis C's computer, & Luis R was next to me & he always calls me sexy & tells brittany he can touch me cuz weve known each other since 1st grade. haha i love him he's so cute!!
thennnn, Luis C came back & he was sitting next to me so he could help me, & he's like 'my elbow is resting on your chest. i like it. do you? answer seriously. hurry up & get your lip pierced. cuz then it wont be my elbow, it will be my hand'
OMFG i love him so much hahahahahahaha
i love guys name Luis.

at brunch, i went home tho, & when i was waiting for my dad to come pick me up, Jesse's dad came to check him out & we had a little convo haha. about ROTC..he said i was a rebel cuz i have my nose pierced. well does he know jesse pierced his own lip before?? hahahaha i adore Jesse. He's like gorgeous hot, no joke. && he's the best skater at our school. nooooooo joke. he'll go pro. tyen i'll be like 'yea the first time i met him, he gobbled at me..'
haha that really happened.
byeeee
im going to san francisco tomorrow
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Wednesday, November 1, 2006

   HAPPY HALLOWEEN
right now in California, it is 10:41 pm..but i now theotaku goes by like..eastern standard time or some shit. so here on the west coast, its still halloween. But over there on the east coast & shiz, its not!! so happy halloween anyhow!!

bye, i gotta go do Stephix's b-day pic!!!
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