Friday, October 27, 2006

   heyyyy guysss
october 24th was the best day ever...
soo i gte to schooool. heres what im wearing.
my i heart gerard way shirt
faded black'drk gray tightttt pants
black slip on converse

annnd my hair is perfectly straight
and i have the black parade written all over my body in sharpie.
i am excitedddd!!!


in algebra, mark comes back, after being absent for over a week..
his seat got moved. now he sits between me & emily, diagonally.
so like, he's in official note passing position.

i bet he was like 'ohhh shitz'
cuz that was what i was like!


emily asks me if i have decemberunderground by afi. i say no. she asks if i want it. i say yes. she says she has an extra copy in her backpack..she pulls it out & gives it to me. mark thinks were crazy.


6th period/conceptual physics/ADD class.

Jaylin has a survey he wants me to sign. i sign it. my wifey April says 'im number 18. my lucky number is 9'
i go to count, to see what number i am. im number 26. my lucky number is 27.
i am kinda sad. i see jaylin crossing out some numbers. he tells me that someone wrote the same number twice. I REALLY AM NUMBER 27!!!!
at this moment, i know i will have a very good day, a very good week, a very good halloween!!

7:00 at nite..me, sissy, & our lil bros walk to paris house so we can go get TBP...
on our way back, we pass marks house..marks brothers run out..now i know he lives there for suuuuuuure.

TBP is the most awesomest CD ever. i am in love. nothing can go wrong.
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Monday, October 23, 2006

   CHLOEEEEEEEEE!
<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333


i love herrr!

ohh and i was texting Sunday Airline todayyy<3
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Thursday, October 19, 2006

eh
joedalan & paris broke up on tuesday.

&& he's still hangin out with us, sayin hi, teasing, being norm.


annnd, my guy hasnt come to school all week. and neither has makaya. =[[[



Luis:whats your religion?
me:i dont have one
luis:so you can have sex whenever you want?
me:yea
luis:lucky...



hahaha he has to wait for marriage!! i asked him why he goes by that & he said something like...'i dont wanna go wrong..'
uhmm ok i still love him!!

oh yea antiworld thatw as the best thing ever that you said!! i loved it!
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Monday, October 16, 2006

   FOCKKKK YOUUUUUU
screw youu im not walkin home no more!!
lol why am i laughing?
i should be screaming, crying, worried! i have a freakin speech tomorrow...
and he just..gahhhhh


i suppose the reason im laughing & not bawling would be..she's a long distance gf i think, and its not, NOT the chick i hoped it wasnt!
trust me tho, i have NO COMPETITION.
im so freakin self centered(its called high self-esteem) that i dont give a shit who she is, she aint got nothing on me.
and besidesss, he's heard how crazy i am..and how i have to take meds, and all that crazy shit that goes on.


JoeDalan..i dunno! people are like you & joedalan should hook up & im like thats paris's man & theyre liek if he wasnt you should..
no i like someone else!


dudes i am so sick of boys,


byeee
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Monday, October 2, 2006

   ANNIVERSARY!!
Lovers! Guess what today is???
That's right! Today, October 2nd 2006, is the one year anniversary of the last time I saw MCR live!! I dont quite know why this is so important, but it is!! Today, also, Amanda is officially 14! Which is weird cuz im about to turn 15 in like 2 or 3 months...
sighh..i still dont know his name. But i absolutely ADORE THE WAY HE WALKS!!!
he walks kinda like a gangsta..

well im incredibly bored, and you guys havent seen a recent pic of me, so here. enjoy.





boo
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Saturday, September 30, 2006

   I dont know how to handle thisssss
lol you guys have no idea. thnxx crimson rose fer the comment, but i am a crush maniac. ive just never gotten so uhh..err embarrassed over a guy?? like i usually am always smiling at guys but now im all choked up..so yesterday, the bell for 5th period to be over rings & i leave without jess cuz she taked too long...and here he walks by & like always, i stare at his tattoo, and he stares right at me straight in the eye & i smile the biggest freakin smile i ever have!!! its one i couldnt help!! like it just happened. its not one of those usual hey cutie smiles, it was an im sooo happy one!!!eeep!! and so basically, he pretty much knows..or is very close to knowing..in the mrning, when me, paris, & crys walk to her locker, we pass him, routinely..i cant smile at him or else paris will suspect, so when we get to crys's locker, i see him looking at us..yea see i want him to know. okay, monday!! if he comes, cuz he never comes on monday, i'll talk!! yea right i said that about russian & i never did....
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Saturday, September 23, 2006

   Totally friggin blog worthy
*deep breath*


so...Today, Friday, i was supposed to stay after school for Fashion Club, but it got cancelled =[[.

soooooo i was looking for euro club, but couldnt find it so i left crys a message & left. my daddy came to pick me up. I was wondering if i'd see him walking home, but i didnt..i dont know where he lives ya know.
We turned on the main street of where i live, and gasp, i sees him!! remember i said i saw that other guy over here???? damn i could be the next sherlock holmes.... and as soon as i got home, i checked the mail & he was already down the street that is off of mine, so basically, he lives by Paris, my one & only.



wow....i lucked out...so basically, i am set for the weekend. i am happy. I might get to see Meg this weekend too.

In class..Algebra 1, 4th period..
we tooks a benchmark test, riiight?? and when we finished we could just sit or sleep or work. i was doing the usual, daydreaming, tapping my feet, laying my head down & he does his usual too, which is pretty much the same as me.
then he was laround & he stared right at me!! i got so uhh..startled?? that i smiled real quick then turned away..you know like those shy embarrassed smiles that lil girls give their crushes???? i need help...haha
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Thursday, September 21, 2006

   Its kinda just gonna go which ever way it wants to!
I know this makes NO SENSE but its the perfect way to describe my life right now, NO SENSE.


Okay first off, I told Jessica that if i ever stop liking Dima, she can slap me & say 'i told you so'

well, a couple months back, i said i was through with skaters & jackasses..apparently not. Well i am. For good.

I guess i'll be getting slapped soon..


So there's this guy, right?
and he's like, perfect for me...
and he looks almost EXACTLY like MIxe, which means he looks like Sonny. Except, he's taller than me. And he's not emo or rocker, or whatever you call their style.


He's a loner. He has long black hair, up to hus shoulders. He wears a friggin white tee every day. I have never seen him smile. I stare at him all day in 4th period & i KNOW he's noticed because a)i make it obvious. like REALLY obvious. on purpose and b) ive seen him look at me through the corner of his eye. And im like 'just fucken go!!' but its not his fault. I know how he is, even tho ive never spoken to him. Im the same way. The other day brunch was over & me & crystal were going to class. She went to hers & i went to mine. The door was open & kids were standing there, finishing brunch. me & him walk in at the smae time. I go in first but he's like right there, and i look up & i give him that goddmaned fucken smile. That fucken smile of mine!! i hate it. its one of those 'you know what i want & i want you' smiles that i always give to the guys im really into. You know im into a guy if i smile at him like that. ANd he looked down at me, cuz he's taller & stuff & he gave me THAT look. I always get it. and i got it from him today, except it was slightly different. Its kinda like an 'oh shittt' thing. or maybe its like 'oh shiznitz!'
its so funny, i'll look at a guy & he sees me & his eyes like, widen. hahaha yeaaa im lookin at chuuu boii. hahaha. He's the only one i wnat right now. He is that rare kinda guy, who makes me just wanna scream. or bite my nails off. Many times i have been tempted to just get up & class & go over to him & steal his homework. I dunno, dont ask, i couldnt answer anyway haha. Today at brunch, i was walking with my paris & my crystal, and we passed him. i was closest to him. but i didnt look at him or smile cuz i didnt want Parsi to see. She cant know. not until im sure. But when we had passed, i looked back & smiled. and when we stopped at Crystal's locker, i saw him looking my way. duh.
I wanna get him wrapped around my finger. I want him to loosen up my buttons. haha. i want him to know that i need him. But how do i do any of this??

Yesterday, i realized i really do truly want him. Its not just a weekly thing. We were at the bank & i saw him & this dude at this resturant & i froze up. That dude, ive seen him by my house, a lot. And they left together too, with one of their'or both of their parents. I really dont know.


But i know one thing, maybe i should LEARN HIS NAME.


thats right, i dont know his name. He might know mine, cuz he sits by Emily, and all day in class she was saying 'Hi mana!!' really loud & waving, then going 'she said hi to me'
but he's not the type to pay attention to stuff. He's distant, like me...and when he walks home, he walks on one side of the sidewalk, like i do. but i do it cuz i have OCD. i dunno why he does it... he doesnt even look when Jesse does something totally weird, totally funny or totally loud in class. Thats why i like him. Any guy that can ignore Jesse is my kinda guy. Even tho me myself cant ignore Jesse. He's just too darn cute with his ADHD!!!
but this guys much cuter. to me.
Maybe, if i get over it, i'll talk to him tomorrow...
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Saturday, September 9, 2006

   Lapdance heheh
OMFG is the word of the day...

sooooooooo...we have our first rally of the year! and god, it really hit me, joey is a senior!!! and he ran in with his stunna shades on, "going dumb' to that stunna shades song, with all the other seniors..after the rally, me & paris went to the rock n roll club meeting..joey was there, the lil cutie!!
we stayed after school for like 2 hours waiting for nacho's band to play, but we left...

FOOTBALL GAME..
when we got there, me & paris went to hang with nacho and josh for a bit, then when i was listening to Queen, joey came & said the game was gonna start so me & paris left..we were walking with Chloe & Paige, and then paris askks me if i wanna sit with dimitri.
i look up & see dimitri's curly head so i say yes...as were walking up the bleachers, i see 2 hot guys doing a coordinated dance..omfg its Dima & one of their friends..and i start panicking & paris is giggling....thennn dima comes & gives Paris a lapdance, cuz they were all giving her lapdances today, and he was saying 'lapdances for a dollar!' and chloe is like 'how bout a dime?'
then after he finished with paris he asked who else & pparis is like 'she wants one dmitriy!!' and points to me so he's like 'ok' and he come s& gives it to me...like, front & back omfg.
much much more but im too lazy to type it all.
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Saturday, August 26, 2006

   I won't forget to take deep breaths!
I promise. kay??
okayy so what's up with Obez you ask??
ehh, had an emo day today at school. I'd really rather not explain, okayyy??
yea not to be rude, but i don't feel like it. But on a happier note, MCR's next disc drops October 24!! Ohhh but lucky me! and lucky Paris!! And lucky Lily!! Lily(paris's sis) woks at Best Buy now, & I IMed her today & asked her if she knew anything about their new CD & I told her everything I knew. Then she asked me if i wanted her to get it for me, cuz guess what?? The stores get them early(durr) and Lily is gonna get it for me!! before OCT.24!!!
haha she rocks i lufff herrr!!

okay so whats up with school?
Nacho...PAris's nacho...I can't even look at him without cracking up & i know he's noticed!! Ive seen that way he looks at me!!
well it was funny, this morning when me & Paris got to school, i had been crying, which made her want to cry, & we were sitting there on this cement thing, & i was just staring off, & I sees Taylor coming. Yeaaaa emoo Taylorrrrr.
lol i always joke around & say 'taylorrrrrr!!'
cuz i know it confuses Dilly.
Taylor is so hot.
anyway, me & Paris both look at each other at the same time when we see him & start cracking up. Taylor is part one of brightening up my should have been a crap day!!!
Let me just say, I CANNOT HAVE A CRAP DAY WITH DIMA THERE!!!
It is absolutely IMPOSIBLE to have a bad day with him there!!!
everytime i see him I get all smilie & happy & stuff, its weird...

After school, i was supposed to meet Paris in some spot, but i couldn't fine her so i was just walking around asking people if they knew where she was. Then she called me on Ashley's phone & we all found each other, yay!!!
Ashley had to get something from her locker, & the school was mostly empty so we were standing there & Andrew came over with his friend cuz i dunno whatever. I love Andrew. He's muh hottie hottie.
but he's not your typical hot guy.
and neither is Stockton XD but they both turn me on. Thennnn Ashley left & me & Paris were walking out of the hall & Dimitri(the other one) came out of a classroom & I waved at him & he pointed at me & acted startled, which scared me.i dunno dont ask but i kinda screamed. He's so cute lol. i was looking at his pics from 4th grade. awwwwww how adorable. Then before we kept walking, Paris goes "wait" & she pets his hair. He has the best bouncy curly hair everrrr.


GOOD DAY, minus that suck incident this morning, and minus the fact that I had THE WORST HAIR DAY EVER!!!
haha wont happen again.


and guysssss, as soon as Dima texts me, i'll speak up.
AND I WONT FORGET TO TAKE DEEP BREATHS!!!!

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