Saturday, July 16, 2005

   no sleep yet!

I am wide awake, havent sleeped allll night or morning, though I have been feeling down lol. Kashin, its the song, Take your sweet time, that I like by him. Well its a saturday morning so..CARTOONS YAY lol..anywho.. Love is a feeling that seems undescrible really Some believe its when you soar in the sky Others believe its when your heart skips a beat when they say 'i love you' Or some might think love is when you have sex Love to me is the butterflies, the ones you get when he looks at you The way your palms become all sweaty when hes holding your hand so tight in his The way your heart flutters and skips a beat when he kisses you The way he makes you laugh when your crying The way you feel so safe in his arms when he holds you close The way he feels the emptiness in your heart and makes you feel whole Love is more than sex, Love is something that everyone should feel, and never lose. I believe if you lost the one you loved, then that is not your true love. I believe he is still out there, looking for you. All you have to do is let him in, and put your walls down. Then youll find love once again. LOL I have no idea where that come from but its 5:30am and i have had no sleep in a while, and uhm yeah excuse it lol Aug.7th, Jesse Mccartney concert..woop.. if you have read allll the way down here then.. If you could aquire a special ability what would it be? Mine would be invisiblity ;)! ps. excuse any typos lol to tired to think .. heh

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Friday, July 15, 2005

   Sugar Rushhhh

I have had no sleep what so ever because I am so hyper!! I hate it when I get like this [which is every other day] I cant sleep for a couple of days because I have a sugar rush LOL. I went over to Marlenas house for a couple of days, which it was fun. We went to wal mart and then we went to b'ham to get tickets from ticket master to go to Jesse Mccartney's concert in Alabama Theatre, yeah I know JESSE SUX, I like one of his songs, but other than that he sucks. But I dont care its a concert!! I have never been to one either!! Though I do feel bad, because I had to ask my dad for money. Which I NEVER do! He gave me $40 to pay for the ticket all in all i had 50$ but this morning he needed some money to go to work on so I had to give him 10 bucks. He like cost him 100$'s to go to work a week [5days] because we live out in the boon docks, and like realllllly far from his job. Which he works in a trailer plant, and damn its hard work for a 50 yr old man. I feel so bad that he has to work there just so me and mom can live. I feel like a burden sometimes -.-; lol. Anyways QUIZ TIME!! Your inner soul is calling for help! You always seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior, but in all reality you are hurt inside and bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you wonder why are you still here when there is nothing left? You use to once be a happy, loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and seems like it never can be fixed again. However, you have yet seemed to realize that there are people out there that deeply care for you. They secretly have a thing for you because they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest person in the world! You like to enjoy your time by yourself expressing your feelings through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe. Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where you can hide out, hidden from those who gave you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have some fun! Never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with your smile :) yup..is that a chobit o0lol You are a dark person. You have a really quiet and really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't like to be around others and you'd rather be away from here. You have a get away from me look and others find you bitchy and self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a fair but that's ok because that's who you are. uh..yupz Duty and Loyalty: You serve your purpose and do what you must do. People would consider you someone to rely on, and one who keeps his/her word when he/she gives it. yeah i loved that movie it was so good!

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Monday, July 11, 2005

   ehm..frustrated but happy non the less ^^

muahaha..so true.. UCAUTION IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP LONE VAMPIRESS AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES. Username: From Go-Quiz.com got that from sky^ Am I cool or uncool? [CLICK] You are Super-Cool! Woah! Step back - the future's so bright for you it's blinding me! You are the coolest of the cool. Everyone looks up to you as the benchmark for being coooool. The fonze was your grandfather. Any cooler and you'd freeze! WOO it's chilly in here. Cool quizzes at Go-Quiz.com that is not true...ugh..i wanted to be a louzerrr :( oh well..^got it from sky.. Anyway the storm didnt get that bad!! YAAAY!! Yeah it disappted(sp) when it got to alabama, so alabama dodged the bullet *dances around happily* only 221 ppl are out of power, there is like alot of trees down and some roof tops gone but other than that WE ARE SAFE!!! Thanks to everyone who prayed, cared, and worried. xo's Okay thats all..lata

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Sunday, July 10, 2005

   Well Hello..

The Hurricane is hitting us at level 2, and we wont have power anywhere around 4-5wks. I think I will be in school in that many weeks..ugh..x.x;. Heh I'm at my grandmas, she bought me this shirt that says.."Get your Prioritys straight!..Fame Fortune and then love(if theres time for that..)" and this long sleeve white shirt that ish so pretty..lol anyways here is a quiz and some pictures I took of Lewis Smith Lake,[My digi cam is cheap so the pics look bad lol] that is right down the road from me. Talk to yawl soon I hope miss yawl and love yawl!! *hugs* Red ->Red -> Woah, chill there! You're a people-loather. You love fire and evil plotting. In anime you'd be the villan that's beautiful and most people would want to be with you (fans that is). You've got deep desire behind your eyes, secretly there's something that you do love (besides hate) but you're afraid to tell what it is. Try to like people, start with one and move on from there. C'mon, it can't hurt TOO much! Farewell..

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Saturday, July 9, 2005

   heh..

when you put your mouse over the link[to the quiz] leave it there for a little while a msg pops up..but go there okay? its a little personel but *shrugs* its fun! I'm still a little sad today, but I am trying to be happy so everyone around me can be as well. so *sucks it up*..I really dont feel like writing the story anymore ill just tell you the rest in short terms Well that night when Kiro and Kura sleeped together they woke up facing each other and in each others on, from that day on they were kind to each other, well they fight a lot of battles and when the final one comes up Kiro and Kura confess their love for one another under the moon and stars on a beach.[really romantic..bah lol] and anyways Kura defeats Darron, he dies, the world is at peace, Kiro and Kura gets married, Kura stays in the strange world with Kiro, and they have little Kiros and Kuras. THE END. Now anyways, Hurrican Denis is heading straight towards where I live, I am getting the worse of it, probably will either die, house get blown away, or become very lucky. I am packing my stuff tongiht. Farewell till the storm ends! I love you all, evn if you hate me, and take care of yourselfs and .. try.. to stay out of A LOT of trouble..[hard 2 do i know] xoMandyox

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   survey..

1. Starting time?5:32am 2. Name?Mandy Arelna Handley 3. Age?16 4. Are you a virgin?Yes 5. What do you think about prostitution?Its sick and wrong. 6. Favourite name for a boy?Ryan Tony Darc, or Drake 7. Favourite name for a girl?Aria[uh-rye-uh] or Lana[lawn-uh] 8. Colour of kinkiest underwear?hot pink and black 9. Is the world messed up?very much so yes 10. Could you live without a microwave?No, could food makes me sick.[sometimes] 11. How often do you swear?eh..everyday 12. Who do you want to be with right now?*sighs* Someone that lives miles and miles away [someone online] 13. What colour is your towel?My bathroom towels are white with yellow and purple strips oO 14. Do you like the word banana?hehe yes 15. Name a happy memory with someone of the opposite sex?Smoking weed, got high, and acted all crazy 16. What are you wearing right now?Still my normal clothes, white long sleeve shirt with short black sleeve shirt with hot pink letters saying Kiss Me Quick and blue jeas with a big butterfly on the back 17. Are you straight, gay or bi?Straight 18. What kind of people will you not go out with?Gangsters 19. What’s the youngest age you’ll go out with?14 20. Oldest?20 21. What song are you listening to right now?Darkness Surrounding by Avenged Sevenfold 22. What are your favourite TV shows?anything anime and cartoonish.. 23. What’s the weather like where you are?Eh..its okay, about to be an hurricane.. 24. What are you having for dinner?I dono 25. What time is it now?5:39am

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   im just ready to die

Today i got liquid glass and tires for my dads truck, everything but my licens's. Stupid mofos *growls* Hurrican Dennis (sp) is heading towards here [Alabama] and we are getting the worse of it, so my house is probably going to get obliterated. I AM taking my guitar with me when I go to my grandmas, cause if I have to be stuck in a storm pit, I have to have my music and poems, or I will die. *sighs* What I do when I get depressed.. I know..bad..no good..but..I dono..I cant do it again till tomorow..cause I promised my friend that I wouldnt, and he promised me. I dont go back on my word either..unless the pain is to great for me to handle..then i hope my friend would understand.. well gotta go..take care peepz xovampiressox

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Friday, July 8, 2005

   2 MUCH SUGAR WOOO HYPER WOOO!

In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything because your eyes are covered up by tears! You are constantly hurt and depressed... No one seems to understand how you feel because everyone is scared to get close to you... You long to be able to reach out and tell someone everything, and all of your problems... But you have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to want to hear what you have to say. You've been hurt many times that you don't seem to have any tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an endless river flowing... You've started to hide and bottle up all or your problems and feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go away... You want company, but at the same time, you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your room where you can just be alone and try to throw away all of your aching pains. You're dark and mysterious and people like you for that reason. Even if you think you're all by yourself in the dark, someone is always there with you. Your special someone wants to admit and show their feelings towards you, but they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out more and enjoy life because, it is far too long to frown your way through :) You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either lost somebody you love or somebody broke you heart so bad that you can't pick up the shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You think nobody can heal your wounds but don't stop looking because you never know who loves you enough to try hell the one special guy could be right infront of your eyes and you don't even know it.You also love to day dream because it seems like the only place that makes you happy.But little do you know that people all around you are trying to make you happy and you won't let them in fearing you'll get another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just try and if things go wrong just brush it off and try again.It never hurts to try.One more thing never let that lost love one leave you heart keep them in forever and keep their memory alive. yeah well today is going to be an adventure.. to find tires to get licens's to get liquid glass.. and other stuff OH YEAH AND..oh wait..I forgot..wow i need to sleep one day..dono when that ll be tho i have to much on muh mind to sleep..hahahaha!

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Thursday, July 7, 2005

   Yeah..

Well today sucked ass..I had two hours of sleep..and by the way im changing my family's last name to Dumb Ass!!..Okay we went to get my license, they tell us I have to take this certificate I got from drivers ed to this other place then come there, but the lady that does it was goine caz they closed at 1:30pm. [we got there around 3pm].Well anyways, my dad was gonna get his licenses too. Caz his had expired. well guess what..IT DOESNT EXPIRE TILL OCTOBER OF THIS YEAR!! Dim-wits I tell you..woke me up..FOR NOTHING!!!..[growls and bares fangs] Anywho..Tomorrow I have to get up early, go with my dad all the way to lynn, to get his paycheck, then back to walker county to get my licenses, then go find 2 tires for my dads truck, then find liquid glass to patch my moms old car up so we can sell it, then get something for supper. So I must go to bed now. Take care everyone. xoVampiressox PS-I miss you..do you know who you are?

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   ...yup...

Just another boring day in hell. My friend is okay..thank goodness. Just to let my friend know tha I do care about him and I hope he is doing okay. Anywho.. I had a bad day today sucked..okay..yesterday sucked..but it still sux..okay I confused myself already..oh well..i am so depressed..*sigh* ..yeah...visit Broken Puppet..she muh friend.. later.. ...vampiress..

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