Thursday, June 23, 2005

   LaLa, bored, and in a writing mood :D

Yeah I am bored so I decided to yet again write..so anyways.. ahem..yeah sorry..anywho!! Took me forever to make the bg of card captors work too..stupid thing oO Oh I have decided to write a story, and put it on here. Like write a little at a time. Humm..That sounds intresting..I think I will do that..Starting tomorrow. Hopefully when I get back to the drama I will have time to update it...-.-[sigh] I think I better start it now. It wont be that good because I am writing it off the top of my head. But maybe as it goes on it will become better. But I already know the type and stuff, its going to be a fantasy, about a girl age 18, black hair, blue eyes, that sorta thing, located here in america, family is from hong kong. Its about this girl, who lives a oridinary life with her aunt kimi, that goes to a private school near her house, she just moved there from hong kong because her parents were in an accident and died, she starts school makes a couple of friends, and weird things happen. SOOOO I hope yawl like it :D. Intro. and story line Screams of pain and torcher rang through her ears, as tears silently rolled down her cheeks. "momma..daddy.." She whimpered remembering the scene that happened right infront of her. Remembering the mans face who murdered her parents. She vowed revenged that day, and the quiet sweet girl changed. Something inside of her disappeared, and was replaced with something dark and evil. From that day on, she is forever haunted by the images of her parents bloody bodies, and the man who ruined her life. She spent 2 years in an mental hospital, since she was 16, and finally she was released. She had to be sent to her Aunt Kimi in America, located in New York. Her name is Kura, she is 5'7'', 18 yrs old, waist length black hair, shocking blue eyes, lean, and mysterious. okay ill write more later, right now I have to go and read :D.

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   Just woke up...-.-zZz

Well I added a pic of kenshin, and an icon that I just looove! I didn't go to bed last night till 2 am, I was up reading basically all night. The story rocks, its called, "My Dark Prince" its really good. Go here!! http://www.horseland.com I love that game its very addicting, and it gives me something to do :D Check it out!! Harvest Moon: A Wonderful Life for Game cube I love that video game!! Its awesome yawl should check it out. If you dont have a Game cube, they have harvest moon out for ps, ps2, gb, gbc, n64. I have all the Harvest Moon games. I am an Harvest Moon Freak. Any body else that way? Awesome Place!! http://www.photobucket.com You store pics that, that way you can use them on here, and as well as other places. Its an awesome place! is that icon not FUNNY!! I love it lol! I had an offer to join the dark side and help conquer the world, so yeah I want to join. I'll join in club or orginization if they really want me to. LaLaLaa. Well I am going to go play Harvest Moon for GAME CUBE!!

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   Nothing but boringness..

My grandma sister and I went to Oh! Bryans Steak House and ate..heh..funny name. And thats about all I have done..so its been kinda peaceful and boring..Friday I will be back home, so drama will start up once again..*woo hoo waves a flag* I am surfing DeviantART right now. That site is 2cool yawl. Its soooo awesome yup! I am in such a writing mood..its crazy!! wow..this is weird, i have not communicated with non of my friends..MIRACLE!! WOO GO ME!!! I dreamed a dream in time gone by When hope was high And life worth living I dreamed that love would never die I dreamed that God would be forgiving Then I was young and unafraid And dreams were made and used and wasted There was no ransom to be paid No song unsung, no wine untasted But the tigers come at night With their voices soft as thunder As they tear your hope apart And they turn your dream to shame I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed. ^do yawl know who that is by? Anywhoooooooo I think I'll go read or something!!

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

   just a few lyrics i happen to like :D..*sleepy*

Untitled by Simple Plan (my rating ***** 5STARS!) I open my eyes I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away No I can't stand the pain Chorus: How could this happen to me I made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound but no one hears me I'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered And I can't explain what happened And I can't erase the things that I've done No I can't How could this happen to me I made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me I made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me Perfect by Simple Plan ( My Rating **** 4-Stars) Hey dad look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things i wanna do? 'But it hurts when you disapprove all along And now I try hard to make it I just wanna make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me (Chorus) 'Cuz we lost it all Nothing last forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's too late and And we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect I try not to think About the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you can't stand another fight And nothing's alright (Chorus) Nothing's gonna change the that you said Nothing's gonna make this right again Please don't turn your back I can't believe it's hard Just to talk to you 'Cuz you don't understand (Chorus)x2 Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson ( My Rating ***** 5-STARS!) Seems like just yesterday You were a part of me I used to stand so tall I used to be so strong Your arms around me tight Everything, it felt so right Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong Now I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hanging on Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes I told you everything Opened up and let you in You made me feel alright For once in my life Now all that's left of me Is what I pretend to be So together, but so broken up inside 'Cause I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hangin' on Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes Swallow me then spit me out For hating you, I blame myself Seeing you it kills me now No, I don't cry on the outside Anymore... Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes Dont Cha By Pussycat Dolls (My rating **** 4-Stars) Baby Ladies Fellas Are you ready? Lets dance Baby (ooooh) I know you like me (I know you like me) I know you do (I know you do) Thats why whenever I come around She's all over you (she's all over you) I know you want it (I know you want it) It's easy to see (it's easy to see) And in the back of your mind I know you should be fucking me (babe) [refrain:] Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me? Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me? Don't cha Don't cha Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me? Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me? Don't cha Don't cha Fight the feeling (fight the feeling) Leave it alone (leave it alone) Cause if it ain't love It just aint enough to leave my happy home (my happy home) Let's keep it friendly (let's keep it friendly) You have to play fair (you have to play fair) See I dont care But I know She ain't gonna wanna share [refrain:] Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me? Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me? Don't cha Don't cha Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me? Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me? Don't cha Don't cha I know I'm on your mind I know we'd have a good time I'm your friend I'm fun And I'm fine I aint lying Look at me shine You aint blind (you aint blind) I know I'm on your mind I know wed have a good time I'm your friend I'm fun And I'm fine I aint lying Look at me shine You aint blind I know she loves you (I know she loves you) So I understand (I understand) I probably be just as crazy about you If you where my own man Maybe next lifetime (maybe next lifetime) Possibly (possibly) Until then no friend possibly Is a drag for me [refrain:] Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me? Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me? Don't cha Don't cha Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me? Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me? Don't cha Don't cha Sorry yawl I got kinda bored so I decided to look up lyrics, my sister gave me the idea sorta..lol..well these songs are hott where i am living at and I like them, the last one is a good one actually it makes you wanna dance..the first one describes my life the kelly clarkson descirbes my love life..and the other simple plan song "perfect" i just happen to like it lol. Yeah I am extremely bored and totally not tired...so I have nothing really to do..woo hoo ! So anyways...the stories I will finish during school if I have time..till then I will enchant your mind with poetry :D! I feel like I have fallen into an never ending hole of darkness I scream and theres no one here to hear me I cry and theres no one here to dry my tears I am frightened of whats inside the dark but theres no one here to protect me Silently I sit here alone and cold wondering why this happened to me I thought I was one of the happiest teens But I guess I was wrong I strive to see the light again but I cant I have fallen so deep that now I can not get back out Can anyone help me? yeah well anyways I am going to go read.

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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

   relaxed..for once...^-^

Ahh..finally..no drama..just the peace and quiet...I am totally not stressed am not craving ciggs..or anything of that nature..i am totally peaceful and calm..which now that i brag about ill prolly end up stressed out..but i have been playing the most splendid game...Harvest Moon: A wonderful life for Game Cube..I totally love this game..and ps2 is comming out with one called..Harvest Moon: A Wonderful Life SE(Special Edition) which is just like the GC version but better graphics and you can choose whether you want a female or male child. I cant wait till it comes out..heh heh heh..I have every Harvest Moon game that has EVER been brought out..I am such a totally HM Freak lol..I have new clothes new shoes and a new purse..my maw maw loves me and i love her..this totally rox..yup..well Ill write later..im going back to the peacefullness..

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Sunday, June 19, 2005

   LaLaLa..do do do...La de da...LAAAAAAAAAA

I am at my grandmas right now chillin with my older sister and getting things off of my mind. In order for me to take a vacation I just come up here cause no one knows the number or where it is so I can just get away from things here. Its so relaxing...ahh..Basks in the quietness..Nathan..well I asked him how long would he wait on me and he said Forever..so I dono it sounded sweet but I am just not ready for another relationship, plus I'm totally scared of commitment I just wanna have fun flirt with who ever when ever kiss anyone..and not get in trouble..so I prolly wont go out with him..and I need to tell him this..but I dono how..*sighs* My mom and Marlenas mom wants us to go down to the health department to get on Birth Control!!! OMG I DO NOT HAVE SEX AND WONT TILL IM MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!! But they are worried that if we get raped or some shit lke that that we'll get preg. but that aint true!! I dont dress like no slut I aint gonna get raped!! That and it helps your menstrual cycle and clears up acne..I dono I have to think about this seriously I dont wanna be called an whore, cause I am not one and I will kill someone if they do call me that..gah life is so fucking hard =\. I just got back from Marlenas for Fathers Day, gave my dad a present and a card hugged him told him Happy Fathers Day and left to visit with my Grandma and sister, I'll prolly leave Wednesday, and go to Marlenas for awhile then she can come to my house over the weekend. Yeah that sounds like a good plan. OMG ANDY AND ALICIA IS GETTING MARREID AND SO IS DUSTIN AND HIS G/F!! AND ANDY WAS SUPPOSE TO BE HOME YESTERDAY AT 10PM AND HE WASNT SO HIS MOM ANITA SENT OUT AN APB ON DUSTINS CAR TAG AND THEY PICKED ALICIA UP SO I DONO WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON SO IMA CALL HER OR NATHAN TO SEE WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING!! ANYWHO!!! I am going to go now, and watch a movie or something...Iam so friggin bored lol

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Friday, June 17, 2005

   A lot has happened

Nathan wants to go out with me again but i dono if I will give him another chance or not I have to think about it for awhile he told me he would wait on me forever if he had to but yeah..Andy and Alicia is getting married..woo hoo..She doesnt even know if I am going to be able to be invited to the wedding..oh well I dont care..Terri my sister has a job at Wal Mart as an casheir I needa get a job here soon too. I need some money like majorly..and a car. my dad is suppose to be fixing on of my moms cars and trade it in for a car I want but who knows when that'll be! Marlena and I called 103.7 the Q and got the whole area I live in banned from calling the station for 2 days, by expressing our opioin!! He said that women over 5'2'' isn't desirable so yeah it pissed us off because we are both like 5'8'' lol. Alicia said..in a smart ass attitude..that she can an radio station and get her name said on the radio and not get banned...pshh pissed me off..she cares about her "fiance" more than her friends..stupid bitch. I'm at marlenas right now and I really havent had any time to update because its summer time and I have so many plans and really not enough time to get on the internet so I guess ill update asap. Lata!

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Monday, June 6, 2005

   Having permenant PMS sucks!

Well Saturday night Alicia called Andy and Marlena beeped in and I told her I would call her back well I beep back over and say hello and andy and his mom both said hello. Well to make a long story short I Laid all of Andys sh*t on the table. Every single lie, every single thing about britney, and him dating both of them. I mean EVERYTHING. Well after that Anita (andys mom) Says, I dont appericate what Dustin did to you, I go what do you mean?, she goes, wasnt you at the graduation, I go, Yeah, she goes, Well then I didnt know that see, and Dustin had no right to tell you that. I said yeah. Then she goes, Andy has really messed up with you, I mean he has fully screwed up all his chances with you, if you ask me he doesnt deserve you, am I right? and I go I dono, and she goes just agree, just say yes. So I said yes. Well Andy is really pissed off by this point and Anita goes. Well..if you ask me..Your the best one out of the three and im guessing he has really messed up this time. I said yeah he has and to tell you the truth I would NEVER date someone like that that lies and cheats and dates two people at once thats just gross. Well Andy yells "TELL HER I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HER ANYMORE TELL HER I DONT WANT TO SOCIALIZE WITH HER, I DONT WANT HER CALLING MY FUCKING HOUSE I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HER AT ALL." So she hands me the phone and he tells me that and im like I really dont care. And Anita gets back on the phone and goes "damn hes mad, he has really screwed up this time" and Andy hangs up the phone so they both go bye bye. Well dumb ass bitch mother fucking ALICIA calls back, and anyways yesterday morning they were talking and Andy is all like "I am going to beat Jesses ass" blah blah and Im like "no the fuck your not your going to have to hit me in the process because I wont move" he goes "well then Ill just pick you up and move you out of the way" I said "no the fuck you wont"( he couldnt anyways lol) and he goes "WEll then ill just see him out all alone and get him" and I said "what ever" he goes "i am going to give that fucker what he deserves i am going to put that S.O.B. in the Hospital" I handed Alicia the phone and said "Jesse doesnt deserve that if any one does Andy does" and she goes "Quite your fucking bitching" I said "This is my house I can bitch all I want to" she goes "Well quite being a bitch" I said "Bitch?! You havent seen bitch yet!" And I yank the phone line out of the phone recieve and then take the phone recieve and hide it so she cant call anyone. Well the bitch leaves becuz she got so pissed off and went to Melissas. Well Nathan calls me (my ex that i dated ofr 1mth and some odd days) and I was telling him how I would like to call Alicia and Apologizem well he said that Alicia said that if I called her that I would be pressed with harassment charges. So I'm like fuck that just tell her she left her newspaper here. Well we talk for 45 minutes and then I have to go becuz my phone went dead. Well Alicia calls me. So I have to talk on the cord phone (which totally sucked) and she said that actually she said if I call starting shit and my bitching that she was. Well anyways we worked it out I think. But I am not fighting over Andy I could care less about that fucker. I hate him now with a passion so great. He use to be the most respected man, other than my daddy, to me. But now Jesse is, and he does pot, gets drunk, and does coke. So hah..thats pretty sad. Well anyways I am going to Marlenas sometime today I dono when. Jesse went over there last night and he didnt talk to her. But supposedly Jesse likes marlena. And Marlena likes him so I dono its fucked up greatly. -Vampiress

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Saturday, June 4, 2005

   Hum...=\

Alicia is comming over sometime today. We talked to Andy last night till almost 12am, then we called Marlena and we talked for a little while then I'm like..good night yawl ttyl. Cause I was so tired. I have decided to just leave men alone for a while. All they do is break your hearts, and thats just something I dont want to experience. Yeah it hurts when my b/fs break up with me, but I never loved them 100% completely whole heartedly. Ya know that kinda dealio. I have decided to write yet another story lol. I was watching Van Helsing the other day, and it ended all wrong, well I decided to write a 2nd Van Helsing. Yeah he killed all the vampires in Trans...so he thought anyways..There still loves a young beautiful vampiress there that no one knew about because she hates being what she is. She feeds off of mice blood, not human. Van Helsing finds her, but doesnt know she is a vampiress, because she hides it so well. Anyways I have been working on three stories lately so..*yawns*..yeah.

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Friday, June 3, 2005

   Summer Time

Well, I am downloading music from Kazaa, I am downloading Kagomes Theme song and Dearest all from Inuyasha, then I am going to download that new song by Simple Plan, It explains me a lot, I love that song. Alicia and Andy are dating now, But heres the weird part. He told Alicia that he cant choose between her and Britney, so hes dating Britney and Alicia, and Alicia knows about it. If you ask me that boy has some problems. You cant marry two people, theres only one true love for you not two. I think hes only with Britney for sex, but he just dont know Alicia would have sex with him too. Like I said all he wanted from me was sex, he didnt get it, so he left. Men are such pigs. Anywho..I've been up since 9am, been cleaning since 10am. My mom said for me to clean terris, barrys, and my room, and the my 2 bathrooms, sooooo thats what ive been doing. Terris is clean and mine is too and the bathroom of ours. I cleaned her bed sheets, and im cleaning mine now, when they get done I'll clean my brothers bedroom, I sleep in my brothers bedroom. Damn my internet has been so weird lately, it knocks me off line now and sometimes it wont connect. It hasnt ever done that before, hum, weird. I defraged my computer today and ran a virus check last night and got rid of spyware, so i dono whats up with it. Anyways..Jesse Foster has been calling me like crazy lately. We are JUST friends. Though everyone wants me to go with him it will never happen. And everyone wants me to date Micheal Ashley, yet again that will never happen either. I am going to kinda stay away from dating for a long time now. I need a job though. I think I'am going to see if Pleezins is still hiring and if they are I will work there. Any job is better than no job. Damn I need some money and a car. And I am going to accomplish that goal. I have 3 goals this summer. Lose weight, get a car, and a job. I should be getting my license here real soon. Most likely Monday if my mom has the money to get it for me. I hope she does I really need it. Well I am going to get back to cleaning I suppose. -Vampiress

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