Thursday, December 8, 2005

emptiness
I know not what to feel. I have tried to be happy so my friends do not need to worry, but I do not think it to be working. My soul is sleeping now, I mustn't let it do any more damage for now but i still feel the pain inside.no matter what I do, laugh, or get mad, my pain always leads me back to sorrow. I can't help it I cannot stop the sorrow from coming out! I laugh one second and then I always look away from my clan and feel the sorrow creaping back. No matter what I do or feel after always comes the sorrow...haunting me...
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Monday, December 5, 2005

life in life
As my days reject me I do not know what to feel, happyness, love, pain, sorrow, what do I do! What I feel may not be felt by others, everyone around me is haveing fun, laughing, and playing. But me, my soul is being casted into darkness, but the funny thing is that I actually like it here,it is the only thing that comforts me. Being alone, its quiet, but it can also be painful and scary. but then when I am around everything,everyone, I can't stand it. It is so loud and crowded, can I live like this forver? Yes, I have to, people need to know what it is like to be someone like me! My kind WILL live on!
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Friday, December 2, 2005

   What will happen to you.
As my days pass, I sit here waiting for my triomph to reach me but it never does, the only sucess i see is in my mind. What other people will never see! But when my time comes i will take over all that you people see and do!you will never in your mind want to mess with me and tell me to go away. Do you really think you can overpower the hate and pain I feel in my heart? that is all that keeps me here. All that have done something to hurt me even more than i am, will pay with lots of pain!
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Thursday, December 1, 2005

drowning in light
when your mind is clouded and you can't get out, do you seek the light or the dark?if you seek the light i am afarid of what could happen to me if we cross tracks... but the dark is no problem with me, i would be happy to unite with all the lost souls like this one, drown out all the light and let our world see that if you reject us as you do we will annihilate you, but some of us few like to be alone so rejected we will stay...forbid all light,foresee all dark...
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Friday, November 25, 2005

   confused and rejected
I am always confused. i can't see the world for how it is, instead it only taunts me and makes me beleive that the only ones i can love is a select few because you can never trust anyone, and if i don't choose right I will always be hated and make the world laugh at me, then all I see is hate and the pain I made others feel...
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