Thursday, May 24, 2007

Hello
I know I have'nt ben online but I just moved and haven't installed the internet. Im doing it from my sisters house so I hope to talk to all soon.
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Saturday, February 24, 2007

Apology
Sorry for not being online all this time, ive been ill plus my shrink had me on the psych ward for a few days. I hope I can speak to all soon.
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Monday, January 15, 2007

A GLANCE IN THE MIRROR

WHEN YOU LOOK IN THE MIRROR, WHAT DOES THAT MIRROR REFLECTS?
DO YOU GAZE UPON YOUR OWN REFLECTION? OR IS IT THE REFLECTION OF AN UNKNOWN?
HAVE YOU ACOMPLISHED WHAT YOU DESIRED? HAVE YOU TRANSFORMED INTO THE BEINGYOU DREAMED OF?
WHAT IF THAT REFLECTION IS THE PRODUCT OF SOMEONE’S SHATTERED DREAMS? DO YOU RECOGNIZE YOURSELF WHEN YOU LOOK IN THE MIRROR?
I KNOW THAT WHEN I GLANCE AT A MIRROR THE ONLY THING TO SEE IS NOTHING…
I SEE THE SADNESS, THE LONELINESS AND THE LACK AFFECTION INSIDE THE MIRROR…
ONLY SMALL TRACES OF JOY CAN BE SEEN, BUT REAL EMOTIONS ARE KEPT IN THE DARK…
NO, THAT’S NOT TRUE, I DO FEEL SOME EMOTION… THE ONLY ONES THAT ARE PRESENT ARE WRATH, HATRED, SORROW AND SATISFACTION…
A SOUL NO LONGER ROAMS IN THIS BODY, FOR I DIED LONG AGO, IT IS NOTHING BUT AN EMPTY SHELL…
I CAN ONLY BRING PAIN AND SUFFERING…
I ONLY FEEL ETERNAL PAIN, OBLIVION IS MY DESTINY, DEATH IS MY LOVER, AND HAPPINESS IS MY DAMNATION…
INSIDE THAT MIRROR IS THE REFLECTION OF A BEING WHO HAS BECOMED A LIVING GHOST, TIME PASSES BY, A GHOST FOR ETERNITY… LIVING IN THE PAINFUL AND EVERLASTING DARKNESS OF THE ETERNAL STRUGGLE CALLED LIFE…
HERE I STAND IN FRONT OF A MIRROR, CASTED TO OBLIVION AND IN DARKNESS ETERNAL.


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Saturday, January 13, 2007

To all
Well, i HOPE TO BE ONLINE ON FRIDAY. Ive been busy and ill.
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Saturday, December 30, 2006

Death's blessing
What can one do when there is no escape? When there is no hope? When there is no future?
One can only wait for death's sweet embrace. We live only to be tormented by life itself. We await, patiently for our final day. Many seek comfort in the Savior, but what can he do from so high above. He forgets our existance and never aids us in times of great despair. This is what we live today, nothing. It's empty, hallow. We only live waiting for death. There is no hope of a bright future,because that future has been destroyed. We have no escape for what we are, merely existing. Only shells that are corrupted with time, decay and are useless. Oh but how can there be hope when there is no escape? Many choose an easy route, suicide. It's very appealing but how can anyone then enjoy the blissfull release of death. Death, many fear it but its nothing more than hope itself. We desire freedom, death will give it to us. We desire love, but its noon-existant. In all the universe you will find death, the one who brings blissful release of this tormenting life.
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Greetings to all
Well, I have the christmas vacation at last. I ended yesterday. I hope to talk to everyone soon. I'll see if i can write some new poetry. But noting is for sure. Pm me.
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Friday, December 8, 2006

Long time since last post
Well, to all who come and visit the last post was a long time ago. Its due to the fact that ive been very bussy with school work and have barely time for sleep. If any wish to talk to me, ill be here tomorrow at 2:oo pm. I hope to talk to you all soon.
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Tuesday, November 21, 2006

To Everyone
Happy thanksgiving since today because I might not be able to be online that day.
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Friday, November 3, 2006

LOTS OF WORK
FORGIME ME FOR NOT POSTING LATELY. IVE BEEN BUSY WITH SCHOOL WORK AND OTHER STUFF. TOMORROW ILL GO TO SCHOOL BECAUSE THERE'S A VOLLEYBALL TOURNAMENT AND I HAVE TO PROVIDE SECURITY. IM ON MILITARY SCHOOL AND ON THE MP'SSO ITS MY JOB,EVEN IF I DONT WANT TO GET UP AT 7:00 AM ON A SATURDAY. BUT ITS MY DUTY SO ILL TALK TO YOU ALL ON SUNDAY, BUT MAYBE SATURDAY NIGHT.
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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

TO ALL OF YOU WHO WOULD CARE
FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS IVE BEEN OFF LINE DUE TO ILLNESS. ILL BE HERE ON THURSDAY. ALSO, ILL BE TAKING,YET ANOTHER, PSYCHOLOGICAL EXAM. IT SEEMS THE DOCTOR IS NOT IMPRESSED AND DOES NOT BELIVE I HAVE IMPROVED. WELL, IF ALL TURNS OUT OK, ILL BE HERE. HE'LL PROBABLY JUST PUT ME ON SOME MEDS.
WITH RESPECT,
ATTILA
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